ok.. i feel happy now.. cos i jus ate subway cookie.. ate 1.. 2nd one halfway.. haha.. yum yum.. ok.. start blogging first b4 my com start to crash on me again..

today go ntu.. cos i need pay e hostel acceptance fee.. sian.. need to climb those flights of stairs to e hill top student service centre.. though i mus say e view there really gd.. cos it's quite high up.. haha.. 2nd tym i go to ntu on my own.. both tym oso gt go student service centre.. made payment.. den e person ask me go pass e receipt to e hall office.. den i ask can pass when i collect my keys on 8th nt.. he say pass now.. so i need go to my hall.. which is FAR away.. haha.. walk walk walk.. haha.. dunno y dun wan take shuttle bus.. shuttle bus v ma fan.. but i guess i need to noe how to take.. cos i cant b walking from hall to sch everyday bah.. i think i'll become v fit.. haha.. from all e walking.. haha.. walk past nie.. n ya.. tt's e place tt i'll b in in 4 yrs tym.. haha.. still in ntu.. like nv graduate like tis.. haha.. so i'll b seeing nie often.. cos hostel around there.. n i realise tt there may b a possibility tt i stay in e same block as i stayed during pre-u sem.. cos e block is oso under e same hall tt i m now in.. they jus repainted e halls.. look quite new n nice on e outside.. wonder inside renovate till how.. nvm.. will noe next sat. haha. ok.. after walking for so long, finally leave ntu le.. haha.. well.. at least i found out where's my sch building n hostel today.. haha.. but hor.. jus now when i reach home.. i read an email from ntu.. sent today noon.. den i was pissed.. cos they say they extend e deadline for e acceptance fee.. n tt i dun need to give e hall office e receipt now.. can give when i collect my keys.. make me walk so far!!!! if i go pay acceptance fee in aug, i can go c e laptop, mayb can buy b4 e roadshow.. but cos initially they say mus pay by 31 jul, which is tml.. n tt laptop sales start on 1 aug.. so i went down today loh.. argh.. haha.. wait.. i take a bite of my cookie. haha.. :)

ok.. after tt went to boon lay.. suppose to hv lunch.. cos 4pm le.. but i saw e sony shop.. so i went in to ask bout my cam.. apparently e lamp for e self-timer is nt working.. haha.. realised tis when i was at ubin.. came home to check whether there suppose to b a light nt.. in e manual is suppose to hv de.. so i decide to check w e shop.. yup.. suppose to hv de.. haha.. i didnt check tis function when i bought it.. it's jus last than a month.. so i send it for repair loh.. still under warrently.. but i scare they repair tt den another thing spoil.. hopefully dun.. cos tis is always e case ppl say.. scare scare.. haha.. my bao bei leh.. haha.. they say need 5-7 working days.. hope i can collect it back b4 tspc.. cos i wan take a lot of pics then.. haha.. after leaving e shop, figure tt i dun hv much tym left, need to rush for tuition.. so decide to eat lunch when giving tuition.. haha.. i jus ate a biscuit since morning.. haha.. den i jus board e train.. my tutee called.. so e tym to rushing.. cos i told her i meeting her from 5-6.30.. cos after tt i need rush off.. haha.. another tuition.. so change e tution day loh.. but i m on e train le.. so head to yishun str.. den go harvey norman see laptop.. some offers nt bad.. haha.. den was considering burger king or subway for lunch.. but dunno got burger king nt.. somemore hungry le.. n i wan eat subway cookie.. so eat subway.. haha.. sat down.. listen to music n eat.. yum yum.. i like e smell of e hearty italian bread.. dunno y.. n oso e smell of their cookie.. after eating.. i gt ling gan to write some thots down.. thots tt i hv on e way to yishun n while i m eating.. cos i wan to blog these things.. but no paper on me.. only phone bills tt i need to pay.. so write at e back of phone bills loh.. haha.. i seriously need to rmb to put paper in my bag.. cos i always wan to write smth at times.. haha.. as i write, i drink my ice lemon tea.. haha.. so shuang.. cos i waiting for tym to pass.. tutee haven reach home yet.. haha.. but after e drink, i was too full to eat my cookie.. tt explains y i m eating it now.. haha..

after tt, decide to walk walk.. try find my heels for tspc.. n oso went into g2000.. but tis tym, no clothes attract me leh.. somemore still quite ex.. haha.. let's wait for more sales.. haha. den receive call, go tutee hse.. den his mum ask me go eat dinner w em.. but i v full.. cos e subway meal was at 5+.. so i jus had a drink.. haha.. so today, i only eat one meal.. haha.. but now. a bit hungry so eating my cookie.. haha.. gave my tutee 2 hrs of tuition today.. cos i feel tt e lesson is progressing quite slow.. i only covered 4 chapters out of 14.. no choice.. i took him in after his mid-yr.. ya.. n i had prob explaining y -y=2 means y=-2... cos he dun understand.. he was thinking it in an illogical way.. n i was trying to explain in a way tt he can understand.. haha.. in e end, i give up.. ask his sis to help me explain to him.. haha.. den after tt come home.. haha.. n here i m.. when i open my emails.. i was oso pleased.. cos i gt some replies from ppl whom i sent an email to... :)

ok.. now gng to talk bout wat i wrote on e phone bills.. haha.. really making use of things around me.. haha..

ok.. my friend help me ask my teacher whether she received e invitation le nt.. n my friend reply me thru sms.. she say tt my teacher received e invitation le.. but she wun b gng cos she is busy w spa.. she apologise for it.. hai.. when i read e news i v sad.. :( i was on e train.. so these thots past thru my mind.. e matter on sharing of joy.. haha..

there's few to share ur joy.. how much fewer will there b to share ur sorrow?
it's like happy occasion and there's so few people to share it with u, then sad occasion wun there b fewer ppl? afterall, life to em may already b sad/troublesome enough.. y shld they share in another's sorrow? ming hai bu kou ku ma? y zi zhao ma fan? but i always believe in being there when others r feeling down.. if a marriage n funeral crashes, i'll go for e funeral.. cos there will b many at e wedding, few at e wake... but it's at e wake tt people need comfort and companion.. well.. 1 person short at a wedding may nt make a difference.. 1 person more oso doesnt cos much difference.. but 1 person more at a wake does make a difference to e mourning family.. i m nt a supertisious person.. so ya.. even if a wake falls on my bdae, i'll still go.. but now.. even for joy, there's nt many ppl to share it w u... wat's joy when there's no one to share it w u? hai.. everyone is busy w their own life.. too engrossed in their own probs n stuff to care bout others.. hard to find one to share w u for ur joy n sorrow.. hai.. but i m glad tt GOd is w me every moment, sharing every moment of my joy, tears, anxiety.. hai. humans do dissapoint n they often do.. so dun expect too much.. jus b satisfied when there's someone to share moments in life w u.. joy or sorrow.. even if it's jus 1 person.. give thanks tt there is still one person.. w God in my life, i'll nv b alone.. so dun feel sad tt no one is w me! haha.. :)

as i was eating at subway, i was thinking of some stuff.. haha.. nt bad.. despite my busyness, God has given me quite some chances to think bout certain things.. though it may nt b e 1st tym tt i m thinking of some of e things but it's gd to b reminded of some things again.. haha.. well.. as i was thinking.. i thot of some things.. den i feel tt i m nt gd enough.. well..tis phrase was from danver.. but i was thinking bout it.. n yeah.. i feel tt i m nt gd enough too.. when someone feels tt he/she is nt gd enough.. cos of looks, issues in life like family background, health, achievements in life, etc.. it's a sense of inferior.. n most of e tym, it's a personal opinion of ourselves.. may b true to a certain extent but often it r probs magnified.. thus making us feel inferior of ourselves leading to low self-esteem.. but on e other hand, no one is perfect.. so who can b gd enough for each other? it's like everyone uses a different measure to wat is gd enough.. n seriously, everyone is w their own flaws.. so if a person really loves u, he will accept who u r n ur flaws.. if he doesn't, he dun really love u.. so.. dun need to think bout gd enough nt.. cos it dun help things.. haha.. as long as we do things w a clear conscience.. ya.. dun worry or think too much.. haha..

ps.. edited e previous blog to include e chinese lyrics of e song tt i hv in mind.. e blog on 'random blogging'..