eh.. today.. dunno y wake up nt feeling v well.. checked my temperature.. it's fine.. perhaps didnt had a gd slp? dunno.. though i took some tym to fall asleep, i still slept ok after tt ar.. mayb falling sick bah.. haha.. e bread tastes weird to me too.. haha.. but dun worry bout me.. i'll b fine.. haha.. till i officially fall sick.. hahaha.. feel like skipping my lessons.. but i cant.. k.. e bad pt bout my tym table is tt mon n fri r e longest day.. n mon r all tut n lab.. hai.. cnt skip.. den today jus nice is e 3 wks once lab session for calculus.. so 4 hrs of lab today, total 6 hrs of lessons. hai.. was bout 10mins late for my first lesson.. cos i waited for bout 15 mins for e shuttle bus.. den e econs tut ended 5 mins late.. i was suppose to teleport to my maths tut.. which requires at least 10mins fast walk.. so i kind of like 'forget it'.. already late le.. still walk fast.. but nt as fast as last wk.. in e end, 15 mins late for an hr tut.. haha.. go in class, ppl give me e weird look.. dun care.. haha.. will b late for all my mon maths tut loh.. unless e econs tut end early.. unlikely.. haha..

den my maths tut dragged for 15 mins.. so my lunch break was cut to 45mins.. canteen was packed as usual.. friend haven reach.. so i jus got one seat, buy a bao again.. haha.. hungry.. but no appetite.. but i hv 4 hrs of lessons after tt.. so during lab lessons, i gt hungry.. n wan to eat roast pork rice.. haha.. after lessons, didnt go buy roast pork rice.. instead took a 25-30 mins walk to NIE w friends to buy a maths txtbk.. there goes $42.50 again.. as i jus hv bao for lunch.. i've quite a lot of tym left during lunch to do other stuff.. like collecting my ms office.. finally.. haha.. installing now.. haha.. e packaging hor.. is terrible.. a brown box.. inside a cd.. haha.. u cant even tell whether there's cd inside nt unless u open it n check.. haha.. n i went to check whether money has come in.. nope, it has not.. sian.. haha..

ya.. after buying my book, i was lazy to walk back to hostel.. so take shuttle bus.. den go hall canteen to ta bao dinner plus buy chrysanthamum + honey drink.. haha.. pls.. i cant fall sick.. haha.. as i was nt feeling v gd today.. i was abit siao.. haha.. keep making a 'fool' of myself infront of jia xin.. haha.. i made her laugh dunno how many tyms during tt 2 lab sessions tt we sat tgt.. haha.. sry.. nt in e right state of mind.. mental block oso.. so i'll do silly things.. haha.. i m trying to take care of myself.. n i realise i hv no panadol w me.. nvm.. most likely gng home after tuition tml.. will take from home.. haha.. hope chrysanthamum will help.. haha.. cant fall sick! sick le cnt study.. maths need brians.. today e maths tut i die.. i c le.. i v stress.. i dun understand wat e tutor writing on e board.. haha.. 2nd lesson of e day n wk jiu stress le.. haha..

ah.. i dunno y i cnt upload pics to my blog.. haha.. i wan to upload a pic of my pencil case.. haha.. n ya.. i think tis sem i dun need buy foolscap le.. cos i jus realised tt i hv 3 foolscap pads from buying txtbk.. tt means i bought txtbks on 3 occasions le.. haha. n i hv my own foolscap pad too.. haha.. so i hv bout 7 now.. haha.. i think enough for sem 2 too.. haha.. but i m keeping those nice foolscap to e last.. haha..

haha.. k.. today is the 31st church anniversary for the church i m currently attending.. invited a few friends for the event at suntec.. haha.. n jy n dan turned up today.. haha.. really happy tt they can turn up.. haha.. even if jus one turn up, i'll b happy le.. though they r non-believers, yet they r still willing to come..thanks alot!.. though tis morning it was raining... nice weather to slp in.. n 10am at suntec means u guys hv to wake up early on sun too.. thanks for coming.. n dan, thanks for cabbing down.. really happy.. haha.. n i m glad tt u guys enjoyed urself tis morning.. haha.. it's really nice n sweet of u guys n to hear tt u did nt regret coming.. haha.. n noe wat? u guys coming actually was a gd companion to me! haha.. oops.. if nt hor, i'll b like a lost person in e huge place.. haha.. i only noe 2 of e songs.. haha.. sang 'Complete' again.. haha.. e lyrics was in one of my previous post.. haha.. nice song.. haha.. if u hv tym, n wanna noe e lyrics, can go find.. if nt, youtube it.. haha.

but there's smth i need to clear.. smth heard today during e service.. it may sounds misleading... n many ppl perceive it wrongly.. so i think i wanna clear it here.. when one ask God for physical healing for illness, it's not 100% guarantee tt u will b healed even if u accept Christ. n nt bcos God dun hv e power to heal u or dun wan to heal u.. it's jus tt He has His own plans for His glory. He listens to prayer.. but e ans to e prayer may b yes, no or wait. so i dun really like it when ppl jus emphasize on them coming to accept Christ and their illness r healed.. yup, it's true.. n God can heal, cos He's God n He is in control.. but it's misleading at times.. ppl may b misleaded n approach God bcos they wan to b healed physically, n when they dun, they'll doubt e existence n trueness of God. ya.. tt's all i wanna clear.. haha..

i like e guitar performance by Benny Prasad. it's v cool.. how did he play his guitar in tt way? makes me wanna touch my guitar again.. but nope.. i did nt get e chance to do it today.. mayb some other days bah.. my passion in it is fading.. cos of stagnation in skills n limited songs tt i can play.. hai.. hope one day, i can learn it proper.. ya.. i like e sharing by professer freddy n datuk edward ong n benny prasad.. benny's teacher told him tt no one is useless.. cos even if u r useless, u can still b used as a negative example.. lol! teachers, pls dun say these of ur students in future.. but i mus say tt e teacher is quite creative to think of saying things in such a way.. haha..

after service, met lyn n christel.. haha.. had lunch den went mac.. left soon after cos i need to go home to rush tut.. i hv 2 tut tml n i still haven complete e work.. lol.. haha.. tis weekend i hv nt done much studies.. :( haha.. so i m back in my hostel now.. cos i need to do my work.. i cant concentrate at home.. cos my parents r watching e tv.. n trying to converse w me.. haha.. mum was sweet.. haha.. cook dinner.. w soup.. haha.. she seldom make soup on sundays in e past.. haha.. it has been bout 2 wks since i ate her cooking.. haha.. n she 'forced' me to eat e honeydew she bought.. haha.. she made barley for me too.. n a bottle to bring back to hostel.. yum.. haha.. barley is nice.. haha.. homemade one.. haha..

waited v long for bus at my home there to go to boon lay.. den e bus was so packed.. hai.. den after tt, realised there was another bus behind mine.. haha.. which is quite empty.. haha.. reached back hostel.. found a lizard shit on e floor.. zzz. haha.. told it nt to anyhow shit le.. haha.. mus toilet train it.. lol.. i m mad le.. haha..

i m oso thankful for God's grace n mercy for me.. haha.. for helping me keep a friendship.. :)

anyway, here is smth tt i came up w ytd.. but didnt blog it ytd.. haha..

Friendships
Friendships are like gems
Close friends are like precious gems
They are rare and hard to find
You're blessed if you found one

Sometimes the gem may be scratched
These scratches are caused by many things
Words said and unsaid
Actions done and undone

Often, these scratches are not on purpose
But scratches can never be removed
Scratches are like scars that stay
and the gem is no longer perfect

Will you still want this gem?
Will you leave this gem in search of another 'perfect' one?
A perfectionist will not keep an imperfect gem
The scratches have made it ugly

But i'll still want this gem
Cause it's hard to come by
Cause it's a gem that is dug out with sweat and tears
Cause relationships can never be perfect

Sometimes, it's these scratches
that make the gem more priceless
That give it a new meaning
That makes it a stronger gem

It's not easy to keep a gem by our side
If not handled with care, it will be lost
Treasure your gems and keep them safe
Don't regret after losing it


btw, i realise tt it's quite sweet.. how we treasure some relationships.. sometimes, when we r bored after eating n start 'playing' w food, forming words.. wat we write out is wat it's in our mind.. it's nice to noe tt others hv Barker in mind too.. :) wanted to upload a pic of it.. but dunno y cnt upload here.. haha... n i m happy cos i noe at least 4 ppl from barker r using e wallpaper tt i made.. haha.. :)

ok.. tym to go rush my 2 tut.. haha..

Labels: friendships, sermons

shouldn't have taken e packet of chicken rice.. too oily for my stomach to take... hai.. resulted in diahorrea again n abit of vommitting.. jus took bo zai yi.. haha.. dunno wat happened.. had diahorrea twice last night.. n once tis morning.. hai.. went for tuition jus now.. reached early.. bout no one open e door.. tried caling.. no one picked up.. so i sat at e stairs n wait for bout 20mins.. den call my friend again.. she ask me call her mum.. so i called.. in e end, they were at home.. jus cant hear e phone n doorbell.. haha.. ok.. i better try to watch my diet.. haha..

pls ignore tis post again.. i jus need a place to type some feelings..



i dunno y i m moody again.. or perhaps emo is a better word.. easily irritated.. n sad cos of certain things.. things r nt e same anymore.. i can sense it.. n a feeling struck me jus now.. nt a nice one.. communication is nt e same anymore.. impossible to turn back tym.. so do i hv to b in e bus n c it passing e stop? do i hv to c it slipping out of my hands n nt being able to grab hold of it? e feeling of helplessness as u stare at it.. seeing each grain of sand dropped onto e floor.. unable to recover back..
也许我太制琢了。也许我太重视这份友情了。也许。。。
stop it....
entrust e matter to God thru prayers.. n leave it to His Hands.. obey n submit to wateva stage/circumstance He leads u to..
stop it..

ok.. i'll stop my crapping n settle down to blog bout today.. eh.. like i say.. nt enough slp.. haha.. meeting zhiying (boy) to go for psycho lect.. took shuttle bus to innovation centre.. den e bus did nt stop at e bus stop.. cos no one boarding n no one press e bell.. reason for no one pressing e bell: we cant find e bell.. lol! den we jus c as e bus go past e stop.. next stop is at spms.. finally someone found e bell.. so alot of us alighted at spms there.. aiya.. e driver oso de.. innovation centre sure gt ppl alight de.. n normally alot of ppl.. cos there's e place to alight if we going to north spine.. aiyo.. den i already abit late le.. den hv to walk so far w my heavy bag n my laptop.. heavy bag cos all my stuff tt i bringing home is inside.. haha..

k.. after psycho lect.. is programming lesson.. which i use to crap for my previous posts.. haha.. today's psycho lect end early.. so dun need teleport.. haha.. n after we reach, we still can go buy old chang kee.. haha.. den after programming, is lunch den foundation in maths.. haha.. go in late.. so no place to sit.. hv to sit e first row.. lol! stress leh.. cnt fall asleep.. n e lecturer may ask u qn.. haha.. so i didnt use laptop.. but i v happy. cos tis is e 3rd lect on foundation maths.. finally moving away from those 'traditional' proving.. haha.. gng into truth table.. haha.. again, i c 0 n 1.. haha.. but tis lect i understand leh!!! haha.. finally.. haha.. so happy.. in uni.. able to understand lect is nt smth to b taken for granted.. it's smth tt u can b proud of n give urself a pat on e back.. haha.. congrats! haha.. congrats to my friends who understand too! haha.. but it's jus e beginning.. i think e tough part haven come yet.. haha.. n thanks.. i gt e news tt my 3 maths core e mid-term exam is on e same day.. so on 10 oct, i'll hv 3 (THREE) mid-term papers.. n it's a sat.. zzzz. hai.. die..

ya.. after lect, we decided to go print some notes.. as we walk past e computer shop, my friend ask me to go check whether e ms office has arrived.. i went in n ask.. they told me actually e stocks r in le n ask me whether i hv e invoice w me.. but i dun.. it's in my hostel.. i was kind of pissed n irritated lah.. stocks come le oso dun inform us or paste a notice.. if i didnt ask, i mus wait till when... n i dunno how long e stocks hv been here.. how i wish i can rush back to hostel to take e invoice n collect den n there.. but it's near e closing tym la.. n go back hostel is quite a hassle.. n i hv tuition.. hai.. u noe how irritating it can b to wan smth badly n e thing is right infront of u or near u, yet u cnt get it??? hai.. den after printing stuff, leave e sch w my friends.. hv to miss afew buses.. cos too packed.. den finally gt on le.. n e guy next to me smell of cigarettes.. zzzz.. e guy was sitting on my left.. zhiying (boy) was sitting on my right.. he can smell it too... imagine how much more i m smelling it.. hai.. den my file e opening thingy dropped.. i dunno wat dropped initially, so i wan to bend down n look.. n as i was bending forward, i knocked my forehead against e pole.. LOL..tis is wat happens when i m nt having enough slp.. haha.. i get accident-prone.. blur.. etc.. haha.. n my friends saw tt i knocked my forehead.. lol.. haha..

went for tuiton at woodlands.. yay! bought a pencil box le.. haha.. i like it a lot. i saw e wallet series of tt design first.. den i was hoping tt there will b e pencil box series too.. haha.. indeed, there is! haha.. i bought dark brown de.. actually was thinking black, den white, den brown. haha.. there's oso e laptop bag series.. but tey dun look shock-resistent.. haha. anw, it's v nice.. haha. e brand is ICON PU by U2ME.. haha bought at popular.. i like it cos e words on it is 'Never Give Up'.. haha.. indeed.. i wanna buy e pens tt i use for my note making.. but i realised there was a great increase in price.. haha.. from 95cents last yr to $1.20 now.. lol.. i m nt buying.. haha.. i'll subsitute it.. haha. econs sia.. haha.. ya.. n as i was waiting for my tutee, i ran into jian lin.. haha.. i think tis month 2 time run into him at woodlands area le.. lol.. haha.. he jus book out.. haha..

ok.. here is a chinese compo tt i wrote when i m in j1.. i like it alot.. some ppl may find it naggy or wat cos of e repetitive words.. but to me.. repetitive words r a form of expression.. to make emphasize on some emotions/feelings.. haha.. i dunno.. i wrote many essays in j1.. but tis is e only piece tt i m v proud of.. haha.. u guys can give ur comments on it at e tagboard after reading it.. haha..

断了线的友情

风轻轻地吹着， 雨细细地下着，我孤独地走着。我的视线被雨水和泪水给模糊了。我感到好冷，好冷。我望着天空，望着那无边无际的天空。在这么大的天空下，我竟是如此的渺小。在这么大的世界里，我却找不到容身之处。

街上一个人影也没有。雨继续地下着，我继续地走着。 人都跑到哪里去了？我的好友，你在哪里？难道真的剩下我一个吗？ 为什么你要这样对我？我到底做错了什么？为什么不给我机会就走了呢？为什么？

我的心好疼， 好疼。我从口袋里拿出那封信。拿出那无情的信。我把信掀开，停下沉重的脚步，低着头，把信从头地读过。这就结束了吗？这么多年的感情说完就完吗？这么多年的坚持和付出就这样结束了吗？不，我绝不容许这样的结局。绝对不可以！

你好残忍，你好无情，你好自私。因别人所说的一句话，你就不信我， 也不给我解释的机会。你总是认为你是对的。你为什么不信我呢？难道你还不懂我的人吗？你让我好失望，好失望。

我打给你，你不接，写信给你，你不看，叫你，你不应。我还上门去找你，你却不开门，也不理我。我的手，敲门敲到红肿了。我的声音叫你，叫到哑了， 你还是连一次的机会都不肯给我。你就像玫瑰上的刺，把我的心给刺伤了。

我应该继续坚持下去吗？你知道我很爱面子，却愿意如此地低声下气去找你。那是因为我不愿意失去你。你对我是如此的重要，而我对你是如何的呢？我感到好累，好累，好想放弃。

既然我们都要升上高中了，既然我们都要分开了，既然事情已到了这地步，就算了吧。

升上高中后，你我都会认识新朋友，或许很快就会把彼此给忘了吧。那时，你走你的独木骄，我走我的阳光道。这段友情就这祥结束吧。

我松开我的手，那封信就飘落在地。风继续地吹着，雨继续地下着，我继续地走着。。。　。。。

well.. w regards to my previous post today.. on some thots tt i shared.. well.. i was thinking bout some things.. in my life, i hv my fair share of close friends.. friends tt i was v close to.. n i thot our relationship will last.. i thot tt i cnt imagine life w/o em.. but friends, even e closest do part.. n they may drift apart.. all e thots tt no matter wat happens, we'll hold on to e friendships.. they all seems like lies... how many close friends relationships lasted for more than 7yrs.. nope.. sadly.. sometimes these type of things jus make one lose confident in relationships.. i rmb tt after p6, after my first encounter w best friend, i told myself.. no, i m nt gonna get another best friend for myself.. well.. tt was such a thot for a young kid.. but srsly.. y bother to hv best friends when one day e relationship will end? i dunno.. i hv no ans.. i noe tis is a pessimistic view.. but i believe tt GOd put different ppl at different pts in our life.. they are part of our life at a certain pt. accompanying us thru some stages in life n being there to share in ur joy n sorrow.. they r in our life to teach us things n show us things.. though relationship may nt last n when it's tym to let go, there's nth we can do to stop them for leaving.. but well.. i guess wat we can do is to enjoy wat relationships we hv now.. enjoy e friendship. b a gd friend.. n ya.. treasure e moments.. tt's all i can say.. hai.. i v pessimistic leh.. i dunno.. these r jus my views.. u can disagree..

Labels: random thots

currently at hall 16 canteen.. using wireless on my laptop.. haha.. jus ate lunch.. now waiting for e next lect at 3.30pm.. haha.. fri is a gd day.. though e lect r nt gd.. but i hv my laptop w me. haha.. srsly, jus now tt lect, all of us were nt paying attention.. we were doing other stuff during lect.. like browsing e web, chatting, etc.. haha.. well.. it's e first tym tt i m using my laptop at uni canteen.. haha.. aiya.. i think jus now play too much w my laptop.. now only left less than 2 hr of batt.. ltr still hv a 2 hrs lect to survive.. sian.. yay.. it's gd to hv my laptop w me.. den i can blog.. crap.. chat.. play.. haha.. but no one to chat w.. haha. now w one of my friend.. gng to ask her maths qn le.. haha.. k.. tt's all for now.. haha.. i m super random in my posts today.. haha.. perhaps jus happy tt my laptop is w me today.. yay.. ltr tuition at library oso can use laptop.. haha.. hope i can get e connection there.. haha.. ya.. karen, cheer up! haha.. weekend is coming! haha.. :)

i m still in e lect.. bored.. hungry.. wanna slp.. 21 more mins.. n my friends around me were playing w my laptop... srsly, we r nt paying attention at all! haha.. sian.. i wan to join YOG!!! haha.. ok.. eh.. someone entertain me.. or i m entertaining myself by typing crap le.. haha.. my friends next to me say i m hinting them to entertain me.. haha.. let's c how zhiyings r gng to entertain me.. haha.. i wan lunch.. i wan slp.. tonight gt tuition.. eh.. my roomy skipped her 8.30am lect today.. so she's still slping.. unfair.. haha.. i oso wan slp.. haha.. study grp.. awaiting reply from barker.. k.. i shall stop crapping..

haha.. now during e programming lect again.. haha.. no lect slides again.. cos tis tym he didnt upload.. haha.. feeling hungry.. haha.. though jus ate a crab on stick nugget from old chang kee.. haha.. oh.. it's break now.. haha.. so fast.. haha.. i only learnt one thing today.. nt bad.. at least gt one thing.. haha.. jus now pscyho lect is energy sapping again.. haha.. me n zhiying switched off at round e same slide.. haha.. i start writing notes again on my slide, den i turn to look at his.. his is empty.. haha.. tt means he switched off too.. haha. n he's next to me reading wat i m typing now.. haha.. ok.. as can be seen from e no of 'haha' in my post today.. my mood is slightly better le.. haha.. e hot shower jus day helped a bit.. haha.. n e sleep last night.. but i dun hv enough slp again! :( 3am.. wanted to sleep at 11.30pm.. end up chatting w friends.. n thanks for counting e no of 'haha' in my post ytd.. haha.. n for trying to cheer me up.. thanks 4 my roomy for coming back to e room at 3am ytd.. disturbing my slp.. haha..

ok.. here is some thots tt i wan to blog on.. scribbed it down tis morning so tt i can type it down now.. warning: it's kind of total switch of mood.. so u can skip it too.. haha..

In life, ppl tends to prioritise their relationships unknowingly. it's a silent decision made tt sometimes they themselves r unaware of it. To those relationships tt they give higher priority, they'll commit more, give more of themselves n naturally expect more. But with expectations also come disappointment n when u give more of urself, u will b hurt more n deeper. Human relationships r bound to disappoint. But does tis means tt we shld stop giving so much of ourselves into relationships n trying to sustain relationships? no, cos if we dun even try, e relationship will nt last at all n will b bound to fail. at least if u tried, e relationship may cont though disappointments cnt b avoided. not all in e relationship may think e same way as u or b as committed to it as u, afterall, tis relationship may nt b their top priority. but wat can we do? we can only play our small part in keeping e relationship tt we value n hope tt others will value tis relationship n help in sustaining it too.

well.. some ppl give family top priority, others friendships, others bgr.. for me, i oso prioritise my relationships w some ppl.. but i guess there needs to b some balancing.. as in cnt sacrifice other relationships.. ya.. i'll still b doing my part.. cos i really value e friendships.. enough of hi bye friends.. i wan friendships tt last.. n true friends r hard to come by..

Labels: random thots

Warning: tis post is v random n definitly nt a post to read if u r already nt feeling happy.. u can skip tis.. dun waste time reading..

there was an accident outside my block tis morning.. i jus hear e sound.. didnt c anything.. den i heard from my friend tt it was an accident between a car n a taxi.. nt v serious..

my roomy jus sighted a baby lizard in our room.. lizards r fine.. jus as long as they dun anyhow shit.. pls help us to eat e flies.. but no.. it's too small to eat flies i think..

jus ate my dinner which i tao pao on my way back after lesson.. i bought soya bean from mr bean again.. 3 consecutive days.. tis tym w pearls.. i need smth to cheer myself up.. pampering myself w a more expensive drink.. well.. starting to get a bit tired of soya bean le... was considering between bandung soya bean n normal one.. chengying recommened e bandung one b4.. but i guess i'll stick to r original one for now.. as i was queuing up.. there were so many houseflies.. think more than 10.. there were oso 2 or 3 houseflies inside e cake there.. yucks.. i m nt gng to buy food from there anymore.. jus drinks at most.. y did they change e pearls to red colour? weird colour.. black looks better..

ok.. as can tell from e above 3 para, i m being v random here.. wait.. let me go add warning on top of tis post first.. k.. ya.. cos i m feeling bored, moody, etc.. when i m moody, i'll like to drink drinks w pearls (chewy ones.. nt chewy de jus make me more unhappy).. haha.. or eat ice cream.. or chocolates.. i hv my drink w pearls.. but eh no.. still kind of moody.. was nt paying much attention during econs lect jus now too.. almost equal to nt gng.. it's bad to jus sit thru a lect for e sake of sitting thru it.. where ur mind is everywhere but nt in e lect rm.. someone cheer me up? hai.. forget it. i'll only b happy for a while.. so dun waste ur effort.. i wan ms office so i can use ppt n word... so i can open an essay tt i wrote in j1.. tt i like alot.. hai. anw, tml evening giving tuition.. sat dun need come lect le.. so tml can go home.. hai.. k.. conclusion: i need quiet tym w God..

karen feels like an aunty.. keep having to watch out for rain n bring in e clothes.. hai.. rain rain rain.. dun wan wash clothes le.. bring home wash.. if nt wun dry de.. :(

karen hv decided to crash today's econs lect so tt i dun need to attend e sat morn one.. n i can go home on fri evening.. lalala.. haha.. it's ok to b alone during lect.. it's nt like i was nt alone during tut b4.. haha.. now waiting for tym to pass, go eat lunch w block ppl den go for lect ltr... it's raining...

today is chinese valentine day.. haha.. how i noe? i heard of some sec students talking bout it in e train ytd. haha.. went back home last night after my tuition.. haha.. n slept at 9plus.. wow. haha.. when i told my dad i m gng to slp, he dun believe me.. haha.. my lessons today r in e afternoon.. tt's y i can come back hostel only today.. haha.. well.. i better stop procastinating n go for my tuitionS.. haha.. eh.. today was nearly late. haha.. waited for quite a while for e bus to come.. n when i reach interchange, i saw a 179 go off.. den as i was walking to e bus berth, i saw another 179 coming.. lol.. den i was thinking to myself.. one shot come 2 buses mean i may hv to wait quite a while for e next to come.. n seeing tt e green man is flashing, i run for e bus.. haha.. made it in half a min? lol.. but it's bad to run w bag. haha.. anw, e driver is kind enough to wait for me.. haha.. den reach sch, find friend, get lect notes, go lect.. today we touch on crytogrpahy.. starting i always ok.. is e behind part.. sian.. haha.. lost again.. haha. den during lect, my friend was using her mac bk.. den go internet.. saw e notice tt our econs lect tml is rescheduled till sat morning.. sian.. cos tml is union day. so lessons r cancelled from 1030-230pm.. hai.. lol. how? stay in hostel on fri night loh.. but fri night i actually arrange tuition le.. sat night oso.. like tis hor.. how? mayb need reschedule loh.. hai.. i need to go back home.. haha..

y do i need to go back home? i decide to b gd a bit.. n b back at home for longer period of tym.. haha. actually my plan will b to go for tuition on fri evening after my lessons end n den go home.. den sat morning go cell.. den go home.. den mayb sat night go tuition den go home.. sun morning go church.. go home for lunch den go out study w barker den go back hostel str.. haha.. initially, i thot of gng out on sats to study too.. but decided tt i shld stay at home since i m seldom back home now.. oso cos while i was at home tis morning, as usual, my dad was trying to talk to me bout random things in e news etc while i m doing some stuff on e com.. n he ask me where i put my tspc photo.. e one on stage de.. i say i kept it le.. he say y keep it.. so bad.. cos apparently, when i m nt at home, my parents misses me, they will take e photo n look at me.. lol.. haha.. my dad was refering to my mum.. but i noe he refers to himself too.. haha.. well.. i ask 'really nt'.. haha.. cos sometimes i'll jokingly n playfully ask my mum 'do u miss me nt'.. haha.. n she always ignore me.. haha.. well.. so i decide to try to spend more tym at home, yet nt cutting down my studying tym by a lot.. haha.. i noe tt choosing to stay in hostel may b bad.. cos i m e only child.. n i noe i m taking certain risk here.. but i hv my reasons for wanting to stay in hostel.. ya.. n i dun really wan to compromise on certain things.. haha.. stubborn.. haha..

anw, today during my psycho tut.. we were told to do a questionaire.. which will b used for our grp project.. haha.. i dun like such questionaire.. cos i dunno how to ans.. they r testing on how satisfied r we w our life n ourselves n on our emotions.. haha.. oso.. ytd, during calculus lect, our lecturer was telling us bout our mid-term exam for calculus. it's on 10oct, sat, morning... n he warned us tt we may hv 2-3 papers on tt day too.. n today i checked my other courses stuff n ya.. my programming mid-term test is oso on 10 oct morning.. sian.. haha..

my stomach is nt feeling v gd today.. n ytd.. haha.. dunno y.. cos of food? or water.. haha.. some stalls, u can c a lot of houseflies flying around. lol.. haha.. anw, i jus finished my mr bean soya bean.. nice.. haha.. n i ta bao back e beancurd... tt'll b for my supper.. when i get hungry ltr, which i'll.. haha.. so tml no lessons! haha.. cos lect rescheduled mah.. actually wanna go crash e other lect grp tt is at a later tym tml.. so sat dun need come back.. but nobody pei wo.. so sat loh.. :(

today my lessons r all tut n com lab.. haha.. 1030am first lesson.. slept late again last night.. but today i need go to my lesson early.. cos i need to find e classroom.. lol.. haha.. n need to walk quite abit. haha.. i gt another tut at 1130am.. at spms.. need to teleport there.. lol.. haha.. econs tut ended late.. i walked as fast as i could to spms.. haha.. from sbs.. so far.. haha.. need walk.. climb stairs.. go down stairs.. walk.. go down stairs.. walk past canteen b, go spms n go up stairs.. lol.. in e end i was 10mins late for lessons.. i took bout 10mins to walk.. lol.. haha.. was e last to go into e tut.. realised tt my tutor is actually e lecturer.. haha.. den after a while, he ask some1 to do Q7.. ask a guy infront, e guy say no thanks.. haha.. den e prof ask me to do.. Q7 is one of e 2 qns tt i noe how to do out of e 10 initially.. haha.. so i say ok.. den as i was bringing my foolscap up to e whiteboard, he ask me to put e foolscap down.. lol.. eh.. so no choice.. do on e board loh.. haha.. i actually a bit forget how to do le.. i did it like last mon or e sun b4.. haha.. it's MI.. kind of an easy qn compared to e other proving.. haha.. eh.. stuck a bit.. cos i forgot n cos i still settling down from e rush.. eh.. v stressful leh.. cos wat u write, ppl will b behind talking, etc.. haha.. den i stuck again.. den tutor give me hint n i managed to complete successfully.. haha.. but hor.. cos in front i write wrong den i change.. but he still point out tt wrong.. haha.. as in he say.. jus now u actually wrote tis.. den u think den u change.. haha.. sia lah. haha.. scary.. haha..

den after tt i hv an hr break for lunch.. as usual, canteen b is packed w long queues.. so end up eating bao again.. lol... haha.. as i was e only one among my friends who hv been to mas111 n econs tut tis wk already.. they were asking me e ans.. so tt they can present in class n get e participation pts.. lol.. den me leh? haha.. dun care lah.. haha.. i did ask qn during econs today.. haha.. but e tutor oso dun really take note of who is participating.. dunno.. mayb later bah.. haha.. den went for my com lab.. after lessons, wan to go print tml's lect notes.. but v crowded.. den i wan to go popular to buy pencil box.. but so lousy.. popular at ntu dun hv pencil box.. zzz.. i told my friends i wanna buy pencil box they laughed at me.. lol. haha.. uni student cnt buy pencil box meh? haha.. den after popular, faster come back hostel.. cos my roomy forgot to bring her card.. n cnt enter e rm.. lol.. she msg n called me while i was hving lab session.. haha..

went for e inter-block reversi game jus now.. tio arrowed to represent my block tgt w 2 others.. play against e other 3 blocks from our hall.. haha.. i lost e 1st 2 games n won e last.. lol.. haha.. hai.. e game lasted from 7plus till 9plus.. den i haven complete my tut which is due tml.. hai.. n my laptop siao le.. e norman anti-virus keep poping up tis idoitic window at e side.. asking for permission for outgoing application.. i click deny as a permanent rule le.. but when e window close, another similar one keeps popping up.. sian.. i running a virus scan for my whole c drive.. taking super long.. bout 2 hrs le.. hai.. den i'll restart my com c how.. hai.. y like tis.. my bao bei laptop.. e window is so irritating.. hai.. i think today gt live firing.. as in in e forested area near my hostel.. cos afternoon n night tym gt hear like shooting sound.. haha.. actually though my hostel is wulu.. but it's surrounded by greenery.. can leave hostel for lessons early.. take a slow walk to e bus stop n enjoy nature.. haha.. since e bus stop is at least a 3-5min walk. haha.. oh no.. it's bad.. i hv been slping late.. haha.. soon will b panda le.. haha.. tml 1030am lesson again.. den go eye appointment den go tuition den go home.. since my lessons on wed r in e afternoon.. ya.. haha..

after church in e morning.. came home.. drop my MR218.. haha.. den rest for a while.. den go out to meet barker ppl to study.. haha.. i wun use e word 'mug'.. haha.. we went to west coast plaza e coffee bean.. lyn, emily, danver, js n jy.. 6 of us.. haha.. e table there quite small.. n they hv e word 'no studying'.. but no one cares.. haha.. den it got quite cold.. e air con is cold n it was raining.. haha.. so we were all freezing.. plus i was drinking ice blended.. haha.. cold. till i shiver a bit.. haha.. next tym mus bring jacket le.. haha.. left my jacket at hostel. haha.. in between our studying, we took turns to go toilet.. n there were also moments of laugher.. haha.. studied till bout 7pm.. den we cross over to e hawker centre to eat.. haha.. n talk.. haha. round table.. can talk.. haha.. as usual, we were laughing away.. n we recounted some obs memories.. haha.. tuna.. curry chicken.. longan, etc.. haha.. den at round 9pm.. we left e place.. cos late le.. emily hv to reach home.. i need go back hostel. jy n lyn oso need to go back hostel. haha.. so we took bus to clementi n spilt there.. haha.. it's really nice studying w them.. studying in grp is less stressful.. haha.. of course e occasional outburst of laughter helps.. haha.. really enjoyed e studying n e tym spent w barker.. haha.. though i nt say v v effective.. but at least i completed some things.. i think better than i stayed at home. haha.. hope tt u guys enjoyed today's studying session too.. n tt u guys hv found it useful/effective n hv completed some stuff.. haha.. e music there is nice.. haha.. quite seldom tt i noe some of e songs.. haha.. but they r mostly love songs.. lol.. well.. pop songs r mostly love songs.. haha.. ya.. e place sometimes a bit noisy.. oso cos of tis couple near us tt we dun really like. haha.. we were aiming for tt table loh.. haha..

den reach boon lay interchange.. quite many ppl queuing up for 199.. looks like a lot of ppl choose to come back to hostel on sun night.. haha.. but after i alight.. nt many ppl leh.. den a bit scary.. haha.. but lucky quite a few cars on e road.. but no one walking infront of me.. lol.. haha.. reached back at bout e same tym as my roomy.. den wait for my dad to come.. he wanna bring things over.. haha.. den me n my roomy clean our floor.. haha.. ya.. will blog till here.. tml gt morning lessons.. i ought to b studying now.. haha.. bye.. oh ya.. i finally managed to import all my pics from my cam to my laptop le!!! yay.. but dunno y cnt open from my computer there.. haha.. they put no files in folder.. lol.. den jus now my keyboard suddenly go mad.. like i push 3 den they will come out weird window.. den i gt frightened.. restart com den ok le.. heng.. haha.. k.. tt's all.. bye!

OBEY & SUBMIT to the LORD, karen

today morning go city hall meet cell group.. hv brunch at burger king at raffles city den head to marina barrage.. took cab down.. 3 cabs in total.. cos heard from ppl tt e shuttle bus no more le.. so if we go marina, we need cab from there or walk or wat.. haha.. den reach there.. had picnic.. sharing n fly kite.. haha.. first tym i fly kite.. haha.. srsly, dunno how to fly.. haha.. really wonder how ppl can keep their kite so high.. n can fly it standing at a spot. haha.. we ran to bring e kite up n cont running to keep it in e air.. lol.. it's nt e right way to do it.. so i gt tired from e running.. n e sun is v hot.. haha.. n i m tired.. haha.. on e way to city hall, i keep falling asleep in e train. haha.. it looks like i m falling asleep everywhere..in bus, train, lects.. haha.. den at round 3plus.. decide to leave... another cg mate leaving oso.. so leave w him loh.. haha.. he say he lazy.. wanna cab back. he stay near my hse.. so i was thinking shld cab w him nt.. cos i v tired.. n lazy.. n e weather is v warm.. somemore from marina barrage go home v troublesome.. mus take bus to marina.. den take train.. need change at jurong east n cck.. lol.. haha.. but i guess i'll jus take from marina via woodlands.. longer way.. haha.. but i can sleep.. haha.. but in e end, still cab w him.. haha.. lazy n tired.. n e sun is v hot. haha..

reached home. thot i'll b slping.. but decide to check on e mod tt i added ytd. well.. i c e contents like nt v easy.. cos e things r new.. n i missed 2 lect le.. like quite alot.. so i'll b dropping it.. mayb next tym den take.. den make sure dun miss e lect loh.. haha.. cos i dun wan to take a mod tt i need to catch up currently.. enough catching up le.. but in e end, end up using fb, chatting, finding place for study grp.. checking wireless spots.. haha.. my ideal study plan is weekdays study grp w my friends, ie jia xin, they all.. weekend w barker ppl! haha.. so i can meet up w them oso.. n compare notes? lol.. no tym to do tt lah.. haha.. k.. den soon it was 6plus.. cos i reach home round 4pm.. den i started to use dev-cpp software for my programming tut 1 remaining qn.. den read thru lect 2 notes.. haha.. den watch tv! haha... 1 wk i m only gonna watch a 1.5hr show.. haha.. tis show is actually liu xin hua yuan.. korean version.. haha.. when i m younger i like tis show.. but nt really crazy over it.. dun follow all series.. gt tym watch to relax.. haha.. k.. now i gng to do econs tut 2.. haha.. still gt alot to mug tml! n gng back to hostel tml night after studying w barker.. though a lot ppl can make it.. cos of church n tuitions.. but hope to meet up w them soon.. haha.. n miss them alot.. cos i was looking thru obs pics.. haha.. they appear in my desktop screen now.. n oso my screen saver.. haha.. n i recall e tym at obs.. really miss it.. i miss staying under e same roof w all of them!! haha.. only did tt for 2 nights though.. haha.. one night we were out slping in tents under e stars.. haha.. i was looking back at e pics.. n recall tt during obs.. i didnt really talk to some of them.. dun really noe them well.. esp e guys.. it was actually after obs tt we start to talk more to each other.. in e grp.. den we become wat we r today! haha.. n everyone looks different in obs n now outside.. haha.. i recall tt during our first outing after obs, we kind of need to adjust to seeing each other nt in shorts n t-shirt.. haha.. but now.. it's e other way round.. when we look at those pics.. haha.. was like saying to myself.. so tt's how who n who look during obs.. haha.. well.. tt tym no tym n energy to care bout image lah.. srsly, i dun hv much image infront of barker le.. afterall we were seen fully covered w mud b4.. haha.. i was comparing e grp photo at obs on e last day at e jetty n e grp photo during tspc.. lol.. v extreme.. haha.. srsly, i miss staying under e same roof as them.. i believe it'll b more fun now as we noe each other le.. haha.. <3 barker.. haha..

haha.. instead of studying tonight after i came home from sch (no tuition today..) i was trying to transfer files from my external HDD to my laptop n from my old laptop to my new de.. n i found out tt i forgot to bring back my usb cable for my camera.. so cnt upload photos again.. sry, barker.. will try to upload it b4 e next weekend come.. haha.. ya.. n i started wanting to collate some barker pics for my desktop background.. haha.. i greedy.. nt happy w jus one barker photo. haha.. so here's my masterpiece! haha.. first or second tym using tis software to collate.. so still beginner at it! haha..






nice????

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hai.. stuck w a decision to make now.. haha.. serve me right.. haha.. my previous post was typed during my 2nd lect.. after tt went for lunch n had a cone ice cream! haha.. i feel a bit like a kid walking around campus w tt cone ice-cream in hand.. haha.. dun care.. enjoy eating can le.. haha.. den went to photocopy lect notes.. den go for my last lect.. foundation in maths.. haha.. e class hor.. ppl go expecting tt we dun understand (nt all.. but most).. haha.. so as usual, cant understand e proving parts. so took up my laptop n start playing w e add/drop.. n jus nice c a vacany for one of e mod tt i wan.. so click it n i got it! haha.. so now i hv 21au.. e normal load is 18au.. now i 7 modules.. still nt considered overload yet lah.. but i srsly thinking whether i shld drop it nt.. but dunno which one to drop.. i cant b dropping my maths prescribed elective ar.. den e psycho is hard to get.. n it's one of e 2 modules tt r needed as pre-requisite for most of psycho modules.. n i jus bought e txtbks ytd.. den e econs de i dun wan drop.. cos tt one shld b copeable.. n can do nt bad.. cos e things r mostly learnt in jc.. so dun need to catch up.. jus to b on pace.. hai.. so i dunno.. nt sure whether i can cope w 21 au nt.. cos i m already struggling w my core now.. n there's nt a need to take up to 21au.. since i m on track w 18au.. n i gt 1 exemption.. so is 21au le.. i m nt gng on accelerated programme.. so y e rush? but i may nt b able to get tis module again.. only one slot.. n hot in demand.. hai.. shld i keep it or drop it? serve me right.. haha.. use laptop during lect.. haha.. den now troubled w choices.. lol. e whole add/drop session ending on sun, 10pm.. i wun b so bad.. if i dun wan, i'll drop it hopefully by tml night.. nt like ppl who hold on to many mod till e last min.. den make ppl who hv insufficient au unable to get theirs n become anxious.. but i missed 2 lect for e mod tt i jus added le leh.. how?

haha.. i m in lect now.. 2nd lect of e day.. 2nd lect w/o lect notes.. haha.. 1st lect is psycho.. haha.. tt one.. no lect notes nt a bad thing.. cos it makes me concentrate more.. haha.. but it's v energy-sapping.. haha.. slept at 3.30am last night.. woke up at bout 8am.. hai.. nt enough slp.. but i m quite fresh in e morning.. ltr i'll die le.. haha.. ya.. tis 2nd lect is intro to scientific programming.. once again, dunno wat e lecturer talking bout.. most of us (my friends n i) were nt paying attention.. haha.. e lect notes.. i can c tt hv.. but i cant open cos no ms office.. sian.. haha. hai.. we rushed here from e previous lect.. fri's lessons r bad.. 3 lects 2 hr each.. both e maths lect r hard to understand (content wise n lecturer wise) n e psycho one is energy-sapping.. n it's e first lect of e day.. lol.. haha..

k.. i wan study grp.. on weekdays n weekend! haha.. today gng home lo.. haha.. miss my bed.. haha.. k.. i laughing now.. haha.. cos my friends say i keep using e word 'haha'.. they say my blog use alot.. my sms oso.. haha.. n tt i will haha for nth in my msg.. got meh? haha.. but i noe i typing a lot of 'haha' lah.. haha. k.. tt's all for now.. i m hungry again.

tis morning.. my slp was once again disturbed by my roomy... haha.. she gt 8.30am lessons everyday.. i dun hv. haha.. den after she left, i went back to slp.. den soon disturbed again by drilling noise.. lol.. when i woke up, i found out tt they r actually renovating e toilet at my level.. e only one tt is in use.. e other still nt in use.. so i no toilet to use.. so go up to lvl 4 to use loh.. there e toilet complete reno le.. so nice.. haha.. so after wash up, get my stuff, went to meet my friend for lunch.. she c me eat.. haha.. yay.. rice again.. so shuang to b able to eat rice.. haha.. den we went 'shop shop' at e stalls.. haha.. 4th day of e stalls le.. finally i get to go c e stuff.. haha.. it feels gd to b shopping on campus.. lol.. haha.. help to relax a bit.. haha.. bought 2 t-shirts.. haha.. lol.. i spending alot these 2 wks loh.. cos of laptop oso.. den went to collect my ez-link from student service centre.. y is it located at such a out of place location.. haha.. den go for my only lessons for today.. a econs lect.. haha.. e 2nd lect but e 1st tt i attend cos i pone last wk de.. most of e things same as jc.. so i got quite bored.. was nt paying attention 95% of e tym.. only pay attention when he joking. haha..

after lessons, went to nie to check out e price of my pscyho elective txtbks.. haha.. 2 bks.. 1 set.. $47.. srsly, i dunno y i buy it.. haha.. though it's required text.. but i'll only need it for tis sem ar.. cos it's on understanding stats in e behaviour sciences n research methods.. haha.. sounds more like maths.. haha.. it's v wordy.. lazy to read.. so mayb next sem, who need e bks, let me noe.. haha.. after buying e bks, i came back to hostel n wanted to do some work.. but v tired.. haha.. e toilet after e whole day of reno is finally ready.. haha.. like lvl 4 de le.. they add those doors w colour, etc.. haha.. now it looks more stable.. haha.. n can hang clothes le.. haha. den bout 6pm.. i went for campus crusade welcome tea.. lol.. i dunno y i gt sudden discomfort in my gastric lah.. mayb cos of lunch.. mayb cos didnt eat dinner yet.. or e water cooler water? or e tap water? haha.. but after a while ok le lah.. haha.. but i think i m kind of tired.. so keep wanting to fall asleep.. haha... but i had bout 8hrs of slp.. haha.. anw.. luckly gt noe one person during e welcome tea.. she stay in hall 15 too.. but different block.. so we both walk back tgt after e welcome tea.. which ended at bout 9pm.. a bit cold.. cos i think gng to rain.. n i think no shuttle bus le.. so walk back loh.. haha.. lucky gt ppl accompany.. cos it's a long walk.. n some part a bit quiet.. haha.. she's from india.. haha..

actually i m nt in a v gd mood these few days. cos of a few things n cos of things unsettled.. but i wun blog bout it.. yea.. haha.. i may share it w ppl.. i may nt.. haha. depends.. mayb a bit.. a portion.. haha.. but nt writing here.. so tt's all for today.. tml 6 hrs of lessons.. lol! may b gng for maths clinic w friend if gt tym inbetween lessons.. tml i bringing my laptop to class for e 1st tym.. haha.. need configurate e wireless i think.. haha.. cos i need it for e scientific programming.. so he teach, i can try e software.. if nt theory alone no pt.. haha.. n oso cos tml morning after i leave hostel, i wun come back le.. i'll go lessons den go tuition den go home.. haha.. but will end up late.. my lessons end at 5.30pm.. tuition at yishun.. reach home will b dead tired..

ya.. i wan study.. study grp any1? preferably ppl who can make me study.. haha.. tt means they mus b studying too.. haha.. n best is if hv ppl who can ans my qn in maths.. haha.. any1 interested?

yay! i finally get to eat rice today! though a bit rushing.. didnt really enjoy it.. haha.. went for my maths elective lect.. was doing coding theory.. lol.. whole lessons only no we wrote were 1 n 0.. haha.. n i was telling my friend.. shld we b glad tt we r jus writing 1 n 0? haha.. gt some part i dun understand.. lol.. e stuff tt i dun understand r piling up.. haha.. went for my 1st psychology tut.. haha.. teach us how to format our report.. more like gp leh.. haha.. but tis mod is more on e research methods n collection n analyzing of data.. so more like stats n maths bah.. haha.. n i had rice for dinner again! yay.. my 2 friends pei wo.. haha.. cos they need come back to my hostel to take their laptops tt they 'parked' here.. haha.. ya.. den jus now 11plus go bus stop fetch my roomy.. haha.. hungry again.. lol.. haha.. wait.. i need to finish my readings.. i mus catch up n after tt, i mus move ahead.. lol.. it's bad to always b trying to catch up..

Courage
Courage is something that we all need
Courage to face every circumstances in life
Courage to face failure and accept it
Courage to stand up again when we fall

Courage to face our fears
Courage to face the uncertainities in life
Courage to face lonliness
Courage to step out and up

Courage to make friends
Courage to assume responsibilities
Courage to be hurt or disappoint
Courage to put down our pride

Courage to admit
Courage to ask
Courage to hear
Courage to know

Courage to let go
Courage to move on
Courage to look back at hurts
Courage to look someone in his/her eyes

Courage to explore new horizons
Courage to share and open your hearts
Courage to exceed your limits
Courage to just try

Without courage, we won't have breakthroughs
Missing out a lot in our lives
Finding yourself scared by life
Courage is something we need


haha.. ok.. it's nt suppose to be like a poem.. but an expression of thots.. haha.. i noe a bit random.. haha.. but it's really true.. we need courage in many aspects of our lives.. small courage or big.. from things like having e courage to speak ur mind, to ask ur friend a qn in ur studies, to share smth personal about urself to others, etc.. all these require courage.. whether knowingly or unknowingly.. n it's nt easy at times.. cos we take each step dunno wat lies ahead.. indeed we may b hurt or disappointed.. but if we r afraid of hurts n disappointment, we can stay put at e same spot for all our life.. we wun grow, we wun experience wat life holds for us. so, wat's ur choice?

haha.. tis randomness was when i m in calculus tut today.. haha.. wanted to slp. bored.. so start penning down my thots on foolscap paper first. haha.. e tutor hor.. he v precise leh.. he draw graph on whiteboard using ruler.. lol.. i copy down on foolscap oso dun use ruler loh.. he still measure e unit n wan to draw w curve nice nice.. n den some1 made a comment softly.. tt he shld use curve rule. haha.. but i was bored waiting for him to draw his graph nice nice.. haha.. was at e 2 tut alone.. haha..

e gd news for today is tt i gt HP102, a psychology mod.. tt is one of e 2 tt r crucial for other psycho courses.. haha.. thank God.. haha.. cos i actually receive rejection email for e appeal for tis mod ytd.. den today i manage to grab e 1 vacancy.. haha.. ppl c tis as luck or chance.. but nt me.. n i managed to change my econs index no.. haha.. so far tym table still ok.. jus tt my econs n pscyho tut will b alone again. haha.. tml gt pscyho tut.. but i haven been to any lect.. i'll b lost. lol.. n i dun hv e notes yet. haha.

went for block supper jus now.. gt elections for block rep.. 5 ppl running for 4 posts. haha.. so high chance.. my roomy gt in.. haha.. gt night cycling coming up.. but i nt joining.. haha.. for some reasons.. but in future, when we r closer tgt as a block, mayb i'll join bah.. i hope tt in future, barker can go cycling or night cycling.. cos we missed out e chance at ubin (thanks for trekking w lyn n me).. in future bah.. haha... when i can cycle... haha.. i think it'll b fun.. haha. btw, srsly, i cant open e pics in my camera w my new lappy.. n i wan ms office.. if nt hor.. i really cnt c some lect notes.. haha.. i m still nt studying hard enough yet. now is only e beginning, i ought to b infront of e lessons.. nt behind, trying to catch up.. ah.. karen.. work hard.. haha.. n ask when in doubt! haha..

hungry.. haha.. i stay in hostel will keep hungry de.. jus now e supper nt enough food.. sian.. haha.. i need buy e 'kettle' to boil water.. buy maggie mee.. buy pails to wash clothes (washing has been a bit pathetic ytd n today).. buy dustbin (still using miserable plastic bag).. etc.. haha.. broom too.. haha.. i've been eating bao for lunch for 2 days le.. ytd n today... cos nt enough tym n oso cos of long queues.. sian.. i hv nt taken proper meals since sun w barker.. haha.. until jus now.. a plate of fried rice.. haha.. i m lacking veg.. fruits.. rice! haha.. i wan food!

these 2 days i hv been taking e ntu internal shuttle bus.. ytd i was running for e bus w my roomy cos she need to rush back to hostel.. many ppl were running oso n everyone jus dash across e road.. so dangerous.. w/o looking carefully.. me too.. haha.. today.. i oso saw ppl running for e bus n dashing across e road w/o seeing vehicles coming.. it's really v dangerous.. but ppl r always rushing.. hai.. ppl r always rushing in life.. esp s'pore.. we dun wan to wait.. but is it worth to lose a life bcos u wanna save up on a few mins? y cant we slow down, take tym to enjoy nature? haha.. it has been some tym since i take a gd look at e sky n e clouds (which i like alot).. haha.. relax.. wat's e hurry? plan ur tym well n things will b fine..

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today morning.. woke up early.. n come sch early.. lessons suppose to b at 1.30pm.. but i plan to reach early, go it fair, get laptop, bring back to hostel to charge den go lesson.. come back can use.. well.. tt's too ideal.. haha.. e it fair starts at 9.30am.. but i changed my plan to go hostel to put down my stuff first.. n leave for e it fair w jus my wallet n hp.. haha..

reach there.. round 10am.. a lot of ppl. head str for fujitsu e vendor.. c e models for a while, fill in e order form.. den queue up for e ordering.. tt was quite fast.. den queue up for payment.. e queue for fujitsu is e longest.. n e slowest.. -.-.. queued for 1 hr only move 3 steps.. i queued from 1035 till bout 12.50 den melissa take over.. cos i gt lessons at 1.30pm.. cnt pone..is com lab.. attendance counted into grades.. den i was super hungry.. cos i only took a piece of bread.. n my legs were v tired.. haha.. gt nt enough tym to go back hostel to take my stuff, so ask my friend to help me print e com lab stuff again.. n meet them at canteen b for lunch.. it's so crowded.. long queues.. in e end jus ate a bao n drank a cup of milo.. lol.. den go for lessons.. w jus e few pgs of notes.. n my wallet n hp.. haha.. look weird.. haha.. dun even hv pen.. need to borrow from friend.. lol. n i asked my friend need matric card to mark attendance nt.. cos mine is w melissa.. haha.. scientific programming.. eh.. can follow e instructions lah.. but dun understand e logic.. den e teacher go speak in computing terms.. dun understand.. haha.. tis tym e class hv more locals.. n they were e ones speaking up.. yay.. haha..

today only gt e 2 hrs com lab.. at bout 1.50pm, receive sms from melissa tt buy e laptops le.. haha.. i passed her my nets n matri card.. haha.. i trust her.. haha.. den after lessons, she tell me she still at e fair there.. so i went to look for her.. cos it's impossible to carry 2 laptops back to hostel herself.. n it's nt near.. reach there.. she still waiting for her friend.. den she told me tt wait lah.. her friend driving us back to hostel.. haha. so i wait.. cos i dun wan carry back to hostel.. it's alot of stuff.. e laptop ar.. carrying case, mouse, speaker, slip in case, adobe.. ms office no stock yet.. sian.. haha.. den quite heavy.. wait wait till bout 5pm.. den we left.. e guy who drove is my friend's og mate for hall camp... yay.. e laptop really heavy loh.. haha.. bring back to room.. i start unpacking.. haha.. excited.. so i decide to jus use my laptop w/o battery, on power supply first.. when slping den charge.. haha.. den when we realise tt we wan to get e lan wire from e hall office for our laptop, it's already close.. so our neighbour tell us to go popular buy.. so we rush down to popular den buy e lan wire.. den rush back.. haha.. cos my roomy need to back for og dinner.. n me.. my dinner.. eh.. eat bread.. haha.. wonder wat will happen to my dinner for e next few days. haha.. oh ya.. i bought a 4GB thumbdrive today too.. there's some kind of bazaar tis wk.. cos union welcome wk.. haha.. so sch gt cca booths etc..

sad thing is i think dunno from where, my old laptop gt virus.. dunno from a thumbdrive or wat.. den i think all my stuff gt e virus.. cos jus now i cnt open e pics from my cam n e music from my mp3.. cos gt virus i think.. if my external hdd at home oso gt virus.. i sian.. how m i gonna transfer all my photos, files, music to my new laptop? i noe pics can use old cam upload to fb from cam den grab from fb.. but quality wun b tt gd le.. sad.. :(..

tml tut.. i'll b alone.. hai.. n i haven complete both tut.. my laptop is too distractive le.. haha.. no self-discipline.. haha.. feeling tired now.. n i received an email today tt one of my appeal hv been rejected.. e fundamentals of psycho.. hai.. i m still short of 1 module..

srsly, some of e ppl i noe in my block r planning wat to join etc so tt they can cont to stay in hostel next yr.. den my roomy oso asking me to join.. e block reps interview was today. of course i didnt go.. haha. i dun really care le.. haha.. but i come to noe a senior thru my roomy.. he's in biological sciences.. same hall, different block.. but he's oso an moe scholar.. haha.. he say he wan to stay in hall.. so he let his yr 1 sem 1 grade suffer.. but of course still meet e gpa requirement lah.. but srsly, i m nt gonna let tis happen.. cos w/o hall stuff, i already dunno whether can meet e gpa target le nt.. i m nt a smart person.. haha.. proven.. e things we learn so far, i catch it e slowest among my friends.. hai.. ya.. stress again? tired.. haha..

i still haven really explore my laptop.. haha.. cos was too enthu to use internet.. haha. tt's y we went to buy lan wire.. if nt we will wait till tml to get from hall office.. haha.. but i was trying e fingerprint thingy.. haha.. after many many attempts (as in nt e 6 or 7 tries.. but many of those) i den succeed 1 finger.. 1 only.. haha.. gave up using it.. cos i cnt log in w it.. need try many times.. haha.. something wrong w my fingers? haha..

who can mug w me? haha.. study w me.. haha.. teach me.. n make my uni life better.. haha.. dinner? haha.. lol.. i shld get back to my tut.. haha.. n i realise tt i actually wanted to send out an email today.. nvm.. mayb tml.. or wed.. haha.. i wan to add pics to my laptop.. so it's nt so dull.. haha.. anw, i already pin my 2 barker pics on e softboard at my study table le! yay! <3 barker..

haha.. i m currently v tired.. so patience is a bit less.. n i m getting pissed off by a friend of mine.. sry.. i find her kind of fake.. there's a difference between showing concern n being nosey.. n e way she is saying things, i cant take it.. cos i noe she is nt asking cos she really care.. but cos of other reasons.. tt mayb selfish to a certain extent.. sry.. i cant take n i dun like fake ppl.. dun disturb me.. i m tired.. my patience may run thin..

haha.. k.. back to e topic.. haha.. dan's 21st bdae! went to church tis morning.. den rush home.. eat lunch den leave for harbourfront.. haha.. eh.. when i was in e lift at my block, i realised i forgot to take my wallet (again).. haha.. i hv my ez link w me. haha.. well.. tis is wat happens when i switch between 2 bags in a day.. haha.. so at e ground floor, i took back up again. haha.. lucky realise it when i m jus a little dist away from home.. waited some tym for e bus.. reached harbourfront bout 10mins late.. only found lyn n brian seated on e floor when i reached.. haha.. den dan n emily came.. follow by junyi.. haha.. brian look so dead.. haha.. junyi oso.. haha.. both of them went for night cycling ytd which ended at 6am today.. den brian did nt slp at all, went for tuition then come meet us straight.. while junyi managed to sleep bout 4 hrs.. haha.. so e 6 of us went to pack lunch first b4 heading to sentosa.. we went to palawan beach.. haha.. put down our bags.. n we start playing soccer w e volleyball.. haha.. e 5 of us.. cos brian is trying to catch a nap while 'looking' after our bags.. haha.. den we change to volleyball.. n brian joined in.. haha.. 3 guys against 3 gals.. v funny.. as e guys tried to pass to each other.. haha.. n junyi said one sentence thus causing all of us to shoot him.. haha.. he say.. 'u mus go catch e ball, e ball wun come to u'.. haha. after tt we use e volleyball to play netball.. haha.. multi-purpose ball. haha.. e 5 of us (exclude brian.. cos he went back to slp) were standing in a circle around e net n trying to shoot into e net.. haha. den after tt eleanor, nicole n michelle came.. n after they had their lunch, they join us.. n we start playing beach netball.. 4 against 4.. haha.. soon we got tired.. cos it's tiring to run on sand.. haha.. n we called for half time.. haha.. but u will soon realise tt all our half time turns out to be full-time.. cos we will change things to do after tt. haha..

after e break, we play frisbee.. tt's when tzer yeun came.. haha.. then we rest.. n then play ultimate frisbee.. den rest.. den we start sitting in a circle n talk random stuff n start burying e frsibee which was in e middle of e circle by throwing sand on it.. haha.. den play sandcastle.. haha.. den lyn, emily n i went down to play w water.. haha.. n danver came down too.. haha.. after tt, he go up he became e mochi.. haha.. den eleanor n tzer yeun were making BARKER near e sea.. haha.. after some photo takings we went to wash up.. haha.. cos it 7plus le.. we didnt get to watch sunset tgt.. but we saw rays of e sun when it was covered by cloud.. v nice.. :) haha.. really.. haha..

after wash up, head to vivo city for dinner.. at tis restuarant cum bar place.. danver was made to put on a party set.. haha.. n e manager provided us w toilet roll.. n help wrap him up as mummy.. haha.. den after eating, we gave dan his present.. a crumpler bag.. haha.. w e 21 items inside (1 item from each of us to signify our friendship w him n e last 6 items r actually BARKER.. e 6 letters made from clay (by me!) haha.. nt v nice.. no time to paint.. haha.. cos wun dry in time.. haha.. den give him e card.. ya.. haha.. e bag hor.. we try to hide all e way.. haha.. v funny.. haha.. den oso gt buy a choco cake for him.. den after tt, we went home.. haha.. cos 10plus le.. n some of them gt lessons at 8am tml.. everyone walk to mrt station n we spilt from there.. me n nicole went to take bus.. i reached home at round 11.30pm.. v tired now.. still need to pack bag for stuff to bring to hostel tml.. but nevertheless, i enjoyed myself today.. haha..

well.. though at times, i may b a bit quiet.. or dun talk tt much.. sometimes i may b thinking bout things or jus tired.. but.. i can say for sure that i'll always try to treasure every moment spent w barker.. cos srsly, i dun get to meet em tt often cos of different sch.. :( cant hv grp studies w em n i really dunno when e next tym i gonna meet up w em.. mayb next month or ??? even if e outings were nt packed w activities, or filled w mad laughter all e way.. but i'll still enjoy it.. jus simple things like HTHT or sitting down chit-chatting over random things.. looking at sunset tgt (Obs) or hving a simple meal.. it's gd enough le.. as long as we gather.. keep our ties.. keep our communications n sincere concern for each other.. true friendship.. for me.. sometimes when i m w some ppl.. we dun talk much.. i m fine w it.. cos sometimes we can jus enjoy e silence tgt.. if u r close/familar w tt person, e silence wun b awkward.. infact it may b soothing n can give one a break from e noisy world.. cos ppl like to keep talking.. me too.. but sometimes, we can jus enjoy e silence n walk tgt.. it's jus nice to noe tt there is campanion.. no words is needed... e very presence is appreciated.. i enjoy such silence more when i m tired.. haha.. cos dun feel like talking.. haha..

ya.. so now i can edit my previous post to include more details on name n place as dun need to keep as surprise le.. cos surprise over le.. i refer to my thur's post.. haha. k.. tml start sch.. tml buy laptop.. yay! hope they hv enough stocks so i can pay n carry off! haha.. i wan my laptop! wahaha.. n starting my hostel life official tml.. yea.. tut starting tis wk.. need to plan my tym well to cope.. oso w trying to understand lect n b able to do tut qns.. haha.. jia you everyone! <3 barker loads! dun 4get me.. hope to cya all soon n pls keep BARKER alive! n keep our ties strong.. n stronger n deeper.. haha.. we will jus grow closer tgt k? no backwards hor! haha..

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i went on a 'tuition' marathon today.. haha.. went for cell in e morning.. n found a gal who stays in e same hostel block as me.. 1 lvl up.. haha.. so coincident.. haha.. God really places ppl around me.. when i thot tt i m kind of alone in tt church.. haha..

den after cell, went to causeway.. suppose to meet friend to help her w her phy at 2pm.. but she was late.. so i ate my lunch first.. hungry.. den after finish eating, she still haven reach, so i took out my maths lect notes on foundation in maths (e worst lect of all.. cos i dun understand a single thing) n try to figure out e lect notes.. still cnt for e proving.. but e MI part behind is ok.. den my friend came.. ask me go starbucks.. so met her at starbucks.. haha.. den she do her phy.. i try to help her.. while she doing her phy, i try to attempt my tut qn for foundation in maths.. 1st qn.. cnt do.. 2nd qn oso cnt.. den i str away jump to qn 7, MI.. do.. stuck.. stuck v long.. n in between was answering my friend's qn.. so my mind keep switching from maths to phy n back.haha. gd training for e mind.. lol.. haha.. den do qn 8 on MI oso stuck.. lol.. cant even do a single qn.. sian.. haha.. den my 2nd tutee for e day came.. haha.. as u can c, i trying to squeeze my tuitions on weekends.. but oso trying to finish as much tut as possible today.. cos tml whole day nt free.. ya.. n i think weekdays i need to spend catching up on each day lect n reading up b4 hand.. lol.. haha.. den she was asking maths qn.. follow by chem.. haha.. she n my friend both take turns to ask me qn.. n i was also trying to solve qn for my tut.. haha.. so it's a 'tuition' marathon.. haha.. lucky i hv my energy boost.. haha.. coffee! haha.. i seldom drink coffee.. haha.. but srsly i keep feeling tired.. so brain nt moving.. n cos i m at starbucks, i decide to pamper myself w hazenut fracuppanio (dunno how to spell).. haha.. but quite ex.. tis drink is recommended by another friend.. haha.. nvm.. once in a while pamper myself a little bit.. but cos e drink is so ex.. i decide to save on my dinner. haha.. e caffine did help abit.. haha..

eh.. wat m i doing online? i dunno.. cos i still cant ans a single tut qn.. haha.. n i watched a bit of liu xin hua yuan (korea version) jus now.. i'll watch once in a while if i rmb n feel like watching.. haha.. i can get engrossed in such shows de.. haha.. n i noe e reason y.. lol.. ok.. n i haven read e lect notes or attempt e tut qn for e econs lect i skipped on thur.. haha.. k.. n tml i'll b out e whole day.. go church in e morning.. rush home to eat lunch den leave for vivo! to meet my dearest barker to go sentosa to celebrate dan's bdae.. haha.. tml will b a WONDERFUL day! i noe it.. cos every day or time spent w barker r WONDERFUL moments nt to b missed or taken for granted! looking forward! i shall cast away my notes tml.. haha.. try to.. srsly, maths major here needs maths tutor.. haha.. alot of my friends cnt believe tis.. haha.. it's ironic, i noe.. but it's true.. haha..

haha.. c my post title: i need MATHS tuition.. LOL! u shld noe y i cap e word MATHS.. haha.. today i had my 1st 2 lect in intro to scientific programming n oso foundations in maths.. both lect, die.. haha.. though i had 9hrs of slp ytd, but still v tired.. haha.. k.. for e intro to scientific programming, i find it boring.. n i dun understand.. haha. all computer stuff.. keying in data etc.. haha.. n i cant catch e accent of e lecturer. lucky e lecture end half an hr earlier.. haha.. cos i dun understand.. haha.. n ya.. i came out of e lect, telling myself tt i m nt taking applied maths.. cos e computer stuff i dun like.. haha.. went to makan! yay.. was hungry.. haha.. during lect thinking bout food.. haha.. gt 2 hrs break between my 2 lect today.. 2nd lect.. sian.. super sian.. cos it was proofing stuff.. dun understand wat e prof talking.. also strong accent.. different accent.. when i noe he's nt talking bout e sub, i give up trying to figure wat he's saying.. den i super sian cos e class was owned by some ppl.. they understand.. n we dun.. my friend came out of e lect rm saying tt he feels stupid.. hai.. i gt 4 other friends taking e same modules as me.. haha.. all come out.. dunno wat he teaching.. i think is e worst among all 4 maths modules.. cos none of my friend noe leh.. quite serious.. somemore only 1st lect.. die.. hai.. srsly, so far, e 4 modules, easiest seems to b calculus.. haha.. arh! gt hw! but dun understand, how to do? lol..

stress.. haha.. stress cos of e add/drop thingy.. still short of one module.. stress oso cos i dun understand! 3 out of 4 modules i hv things tt i dun understand! 1st wk of uni.. w/o tut.. n i m a bit struggling to catch up.. arh.. stress ar.. cos bout 1 mth later will b mid-term exam le.. den i scare i cnt meet my gpa.. oso scare i cnt clear my 4 chem modules b4 i graduate.. arh.. hai.. n i still haven get my laptop.. so many things! ok.. i m further stressing myself out.. relax.. haha.. sry.. but i need a place to vent my emotions.. haha.. on my way back, i was so stressed.. haha.. but i m praying.. to relax n trust in God.. HE has brought me thus far.. hai.. dun worry so much.. a step at a time.. dun worry bout gpa first.. jus do my best.. i still wanna enjoy uni life de.. but who say uni is better than jc? well, i dun recall getting stressed in my 1st wk of sch at jc.. n my friend n i were saying.. at least, jc we understand smth.. here, we dun at all! n even preparing for a lvl oso nt so stressful.. haha. n i add on.. even if we dun understand, there r friends around us who understand, now is all of us dun understand.. haha. jia lat ar.. k.. chill.. i need more tym, i need to catch up n remain at e pace.. hard leh.. we lose out terribily to some ppl.. so unfair.. i need maths tuition.. haha.. k.. from mon, i start staying in hostel, i m gonna study hard.. arh.. eh.. hv to plan my tym well.. w e 4 tuitions on hand.. hai.. jia you!! trust in the Lord w all ur heart, soul n mind.. Cast all ur anxieties onto Him.. smile! :)

haha.. i wan to slp early today n i mean it.. cos i m really tired.. haha.. srsly, was surprised tt i can survive e tuition jus now.. cos i was doing my own stuff while he do his work.. haha.. actually i wan to slp like by 11pm de..but was doing some stuff jus now.. so after i post tis post, i'll slp! haha.. i m like falling asleep on buses lah.. haha.. on my way home jus now, i fell asleep.. but i dun fall asleep for v long on bus.. at most 10mins n i'll wake up.. jus now only on off, longest is 2 mins bah.. haha.. n i woke up was a bit surprised to find a person sitting next to me.. cos i didnt noe some1 sat down.. lol.. haha.. ya.. n tml gt 2 2hrs lect.. haha.. was considering to go back to my hostel to copy down e qns from e txtbk.. but lazy.. cos 1st lesson is at 11.30am.. n i need bout 1hr plus to get to ntu from my home.. haha.. so i decide to do my hw on mon.. tut on tue.. lol.. haha.. today was nt a bad day.. jus tt i m kind of sleepy.. which means i m more blur, more incoherent, tends to b clumpsy, make mistakes, etc.. haha.. anw, my aunty is v gd to me.. haha.. everytym go her hse she'll cook prawns de.. cos she wan me to eat well.. but i always tell her i cnt eat alot.. cos will itchy.. but she still keep asking me to eat.. lol! so i hv to 'pretend' tt i m eating alot.. haha.. for me.. now hor.. if any of my tutee wanna increase tuition slot or postpone one wk tuition to e next (ie 1 wk 2 times).. i'll disagree.. cos like tis i'll hv tuition almost everyday.. i'll die.. 1st wk n i m still struggling to adapt to uni.. starting to feel a bit stressed.. cos dun understand lect.. haha.. ya.. n cos i staying in hostel.. go out for tuition will end up v late.. travelling is really tiring.. haha.. esp bus journeys.. haha. train can slp better.. n train wun get train sick. haha. really tight schedule.. ah.. haha.. n i jus managed to c e lect outline for e lect i pone today.. n e assignment.. haha.. looks like i need refresh thru reading thru e lect b4 i can do e tutorial.. but e outline seems ok.. even for e next few lect.. they r things tt i hv learnt in uni.. haha.. actually i like econs.. can apply to real life.. quite fun.. but cos i hv been doing badly in it, i dun really like it n i dread e long essays writing n exams.. haha.. but uni econs r all essays writings.. haha.. k.. tired. k.. sleep. haha.

haha.. as i m typing tis, i m outside using junyi's laptop at nus.. haha.. well.. i stayed in hostel ytd.. i had a 3 hrs lect ytd.. haha.. 1st lect for my maths elective course. haha.. starting v fun.. haha.. but after tt i dun catch wat e lecturer saying.. den i lost le.. haha.. 3 hrs lect r hard to survive.. haha.. after e lect, dunno y i decide to go back to my hostel b4 leaving for jp to meet my jtc friends for dinner.. but after i reach back hostel, i received news tt e dinner is cancelled.. n melissa actually told me tt there's a hall dinner thur night.. when i reach back, i saw a paper tt says tt there is a block gathering tonight(wed).. to get to noe each other.. so i called mel to inform her.. n i decide to join in.. cos i really dunno anyone in my block.. den it's nt nice.. cos we walk past each other.. dun greet, dun talk, dun smile.. quite hostile leh.. so mus noe ppl.. den can enjoy hostel life.. haha.. e gathering is at 9pm.. so i cant possibily go home after tt.. so i decide to use e remaining tym i hv inbetween to go jp.. to settle dinner n get dan's item n stuff for his bdae card n apply for popular card.. den i rush back.. haha.. well.. got to noe some ppl.. played blow wind blow.. n after tt, we went out for supper.. lol.. haha.. actually dun really wanna go de.. cos i gt stuff to do n kind of tired.. but i figure tt tis may b e only few tyms tt i go supper w em.. n it's jus e start of uni.. nt so busy yet.. we left our hostel at 10plus.. walked to a 24 hrs coffeeshop.. took bout 1 hr.. reached there.. my table only drank drinks.. haha.. walk so far jus to drink drinks.. lame hor.. den talk n self-intro.. den start walking back to hostel at bout 12mn.. tis tym we took a shorter tym.. reach back 12plus.. den i still need bath.. haha.. in e end, slept at 3plus.. cos after bathing, talked to mel.. haha.. den do my stuff.. QT den slp.. haha.. cnt get used to e new pillow n bed.. so took some tym to fall asleep.. anw, e hall is still nt fully ready.. cos only one toilet ready now.. toilets no place to hang clothes.. den my clothes tend to drop n get wet.. n hot water nt working.. lock a bit lose.. haha.. pantry oso nt ready yet.. e lounge air con oso spoiled.. haha.. but hor.. i heard tt our block is e most enthu block.. cos last yr gt get dunno wat.. haha.. y did i end up in like an enthu block? haha.. anw, i'll start staying next wk.. haha.. after i got my laptop.. me n mel shld b sharing a printer..

k.. tt's a long para for ytd.. haha.. today.. woke up early.. cos meeting junyi.. he lenting me laptop to do my add/drop at nus.. n i dunno e way around nus.. haha.. so need some1 to b e 'guide'. haha.. n oso cos he gt no lessons in e morning.. so didnt hv enough slp.. haha.. n i found e subway cookie tt i hv left for last night being attacked by red ants.. haha. so i went on a killing sphree of ants.. haha.. on my way out of ntu.. took out my mp3 to listen.. then haven listen one complete song jiu batt flat le.. sian.. haha.. n my hp batt is getting low.. haha.. cos i dun hv charger in my hostel.. haha.. next wk then bring over.. haha. den after meeting jy, borrow his laptop to do my add/drop.. haha.. so 'lucky'.. managed to get an econs module.. so now i hv 15au le.. 1 more module to go.. haha.. but i may b trying to change e index no of e econs mod.. haha.. jy's laptop v nice to use.. cos wun lag.. haha.. i wan my new laptop soon.. haha.. i sent in appeal for 3 modules le.. haha.. well.. quite tired now.. only gng back home tonight after tuition.. haha.. v funny.. me n brian sitting diagonal from each other. using msn to talk.. haha.. k.. i v tired now.. haha.. still gt tuition tonight.. tml gt 2 lect.. tml gt tuition.. tml need to do hw for calculus.. haha.. actually cos i successful added my econs, i hv lect tis afternoon.. but since i nt in ntu le.. i lazy to go back.. haha.. i came from ntu to nus.. den ask me go back to ntu.. no way.. haha.. n i m tired.. go back oso wun pay attention.. n lect ends at 6.30pm.. i gt tuition.. cnt lah.. haha.. n tonight suppose to hv hall dinner.. w e whole hall 15.. but i dun intend to go. cos i hv tuition.. n i think it's more practical to noe e ppl living on e same floor as me n my block de.. cos these r e ppl tt i'll meet more often.. n e seniors keep encouraging us to join as block rep, etc.. haha.. to earn pts to stay in hostel for yr 2.. haha.. i v bad.. 3rd day of uni already pone lect.. haha.. but cos i jus gt it tis morning mah.. haha.. hopefully it's like jc econs.. haha. ah.. first few days of sch n i hv insufficient slp.. lol... hope can slp early tonight.. haha..

1.tis was wat i wrote on my foolscap today: Karen is officially a uni student! haha..

k.. a bit lame.. haha.. but i m a uni student le.. haha.. like a bit cnt believe leh.. haha.. k.. i shall start from e beginning.. tis morning after i woke up, i str away msg e whole of barker.. to wish them all e best for e 1st day in uni.. haha.. den wat happened next was smth tt i didnt expect.. haha.. i noe a few will reply to e sms w words of thanks n well-wishes, but i did nt expect tt a chain of sms will b started.. haha.. everyone took turns to mass send well-wishes to everyone.. haha.. when i left e house, e sms chain hv nt started.. after i reach boon lay interchange, i took out my hp n i was surprised to c 6 sms, all from BARKER! haha.. all chain well-wishes.. i gt on e bus to ntu n cont reading e msgs... as i read one after another n c e enthusiam of e rest in wishing e rest of barker, my heart was filled so warmly n touched so deeply.. haha.. i actually teared.. haha.. cos i was really touched by e msgs.. i didnt expect my sms to start a mass chain sms.. though they may b simple words n may hv some repetitive msgs.. but it's e thot n effort n sincere well-wishes tt really touch me.. haha.. a v nice way to start our uni life.. srsly, i m loss for words.. when i thot how sweet they were.. i jus teared.. haha.. n like wat ty said.. no matter wat happened, we, e BARKER family will b here for each other.. n let's enjoy our uni life e barker's way. haha.. <3

ok.. reached sch, went to collect my matri card n clicker.. yay.. haha.. lucky my card ready le.. haha.. but my photo nt nice.. look weird.. n i think they edited it.. haha.. anw, i gt it.. can le.. haha.. e clicker v cool.. dunno when can start using.. it's a small device tt u can press to select ur ans.. 0-9.. it's for lect use.. when lecturer ask us multiple choice qn, we can give our ans using tt.. haha.. cool.. haha.. ya.. den wait for my friends.. meet up w em.. den go for our one n only lect for today.. haha.. cos tut only starting next wk.. today's lect is on calculus.. haha.. e lecturer is from canada.. gt a bit accent.. but mostly still can catch lah.. haha.. he's funny.. his ppt slides gt sound somemore.. n when he explain, he's quite funny.. haha.. he say tis is e 5th tym he teaching calculus.. haha.. new teachers hv pros.. cos they still hv tt passion in them.. so they will teach more, teach more excitedly n w passion.. haha.. ya.. after lect, went w my friends to nie.. haha.. first tym gng in.. go w them cos it's on e way to my hostel. haha.. my friend gng there to buy her lab coat n goggles.. haha.. den we decide to eat at e canteen there.. quite crowded.. e bookshop oso v crowded.. e queue dun shorten de.. den we heard tt buying bks from nie bookshop cheaper than buying from ntu.. haha.. in e end, me n my friends oso bought my calculus txtbk there.. haha.. quite heavy.. it costed $47.90.. haha.. den i carried it back to hostel.. haha.. put it there.. while waiting for my roommate, i start doing a bit of qns to recap.. haha.. i wan to mug! haha.. i still like to do e maths now cos still recapping wat we learnt.. haha.. so still can cope.. haha.. my 3 friends v cute.. haha.. e bk is hardcover le.. they still wan buy plastic cover for it.. cos they say they v rough.. but it's hard cover leh.. how bad can it get? haha.. when we were at e bookshop, me n my friends were quite excited.. cos got stationaries.. haha.. we r weird ppl.. we like to shop for stationaries.. haha.. now tt i gotten my matri card, i'll apply for my popular card when i go jp tml.. n buy stationaries!! haha.. k.. after my roommate came, she ar.. will shorten my life de.. haha.. anw, we settled who slp where all these.. den i left at 5plus.. haha.. for home.. haha.. wanna reach b4 7pm.. cos of e add/drop thingy.. den hor.. i was so tired when i reach home.. tired nt cos of studying.. cos only 2 hrs lect.. but cos of all e walking.. arh! haha.. i think after all e walking, ur food will get digested.. n u get hungry again.. haha.. gd ex..

anw, i was kind of 'frustrated' w e add/drop.. cos i cant change my index no for my courses.. cos no vacancies.. n i cnt get any electives!! so i m still stuck w 12au now.. ah! my friends gt le! haha.. cos i too picky.. aiming for socio, psycho n 1 business n 1 econs.. haha.. den all no vacancies.. where's all e places? lol! if i still cnt get by tml, i'll appeal le! i already cnt get my chem.. i scare i cnt clear my 4 modules requirement.. den now.. if i dun get 18AU.. i oso die. arh! y does it seems like it's so easy to die? haha.. k.. i'll try again tml morning.. since my lect is in e afternoon.. haha.. 1st day of sch i stress le.. i mus learn to relax.. haha.. relax.. haha.. dun stress out.. haha.. take things one step at a tym.. relax.. n stop to pray.. :)

anw, another thing tt cheered up my day today is tt i hv sent mrs tay an email w e photos taken on fri.. den today she replied my email! yay. haha.. k. random.. haha..

haha.. ok.. i'll try to type tis quickly.. but w all tt is needed to b included. cos i shld b slping le.. haha..

ok.. today, met w barker for our ICE (Ice Cream Expedition).. haha.. meet 1230pm at city hall.. haha.. i reached early! yay.. i really didnt late loh.. haha.. reached le c many grp of ppl. walk 1 round.. cnt find them.. so i presume no one is early.. except for e couple who went to buy tickets first (emily n dan).. so i stood at e spot where we waited for each other on tspc day.. then jy came.. he oso early.. den we both talked bout uni stuff while waiting for e rest to come.. we talk n look around for them at e same tym.. den when it's 1239.. i say.. wait.. cnt b.. they cnt b late for 9 mins loh.. so we start looking around again.. den i saw emily.. n jy saw dan.. so we walked to em.. they were laughing.. so i asked.. how long hv they been there? they said nt long.. then brian came.. n we saw lyn n ty standing at another corner.. in conclusion.. they all conspired.. haha.. everyone saw us.. but siam us.. dan, emily n emelyne stood at one corner watching us.. den lyn n ty saw these 2 grps.. siam us n observe us at a corner.. brian oso reached early.. he siam me n jy.. den saw emily n dan.. den he siam them.. n conspire w lyn thru sms.. haha.. brian was wearing bright green.. he say he thot we saw him.. cos we looked at his direction.. but no leh.. haha.. after e rest arrive, we went to raffles city to buy 2 medium size yoghurt.. like ice cream de.. haha.. one is original.. e other is some berry de.. nice.. haha.. den we 10ppl share 2 ice cream.. we decided to walk to suntec n eat at e same tym. haha.. so we took quite long to walk.. haha.. but we had fun.. n we all look like kids.. haha.. hving e spoon in our mouth as we walk. haha.. n gng backwards or forward to e person holding e 'ice-cream'.. haha..

den we went for lunch at astons.. hv to wait quite long for our seats.. cos seats for 12 is nt easy to get.. haha.. had an encounter w an unreasonable uncle tt make us pissed off.. but i shall nt talk bout it here.. haha.. actually though we waited quite long.. but it's ok.. cos we gt each other's company.. haha.. so it doesnt seem tt long lah.. haha.. den we make a lot of noise while eating.. oh ya.. so suay.. we sit near e unreasonable uncle. haha.. his kids r young.. we may end up being their teachers.. haha.. lol.. n we had more funny moments over lunch.. n thru e pics on fb.. u will c brian trying hard to defend his reputation which hl is spoiling.. n jy gloating over it.. tt brian oso hv tis day.. haha.. (ye you jin tian).. haha.. den after lunch, we went to eat tis ice cream.. tt is in a heart-shaped thing like mochi.. haha.. so 2 share 1.. haha..den we went to try e weird favourite of ice cream.. gt chilli, cheese, mushroom.. all nt bad.. but we dun really like e chilli de.. haha.. e ultimate combo which i did nt try is putting all 3 in e mouth b4 swallowing tgt.. haha.. u looked at e expression of those who tried it.. mus put chilli de first.. haha.. ty n cy say tt they hv no words to describe it.. haha.. n cy eat till she teared.. haha.. den we still hv a bit more tym left.. so we went to arcade.. where we played starball.. haha.. brian play cheat.. stand so near e screen.. den emily, lyn n hl versus each other in a whack thingy.. c whose hand faster.. haha.. so funny.. we were laughing away.. haha.. e rest of us were watching them.. n e last round lyn played was highway car.. haha.. so fast.. we all 'woh' (dunno how to spell) haha.. den after tt we went toilet b4 movie.. haha.. we wanted to grab some drinks but e queue at e drink counter was long.. so we all rushed down to carrefour to buy bottle drinks.. but we entered e theatre late.. already starting le.. but nvm.. we still manage to watch e show n enjoyed ourselves! it reminded us of our experience in obs.. haha.. e land expedition.. n when e small boy whines, all of us were saying.. sze juey.. haha.. seriously, sounds like loh! haha.. n so funny.. i rmb linking a lot of e parts to our obs experience.. but after e movie when i wan to talk bout it.. suddenly i forgot many... haha.. jus find e show nice.. gt meaning oso. haha.. funny.. n bring back lots of memories.. ya.. n e night out.. like our 2nd night.. slping under e stars.. ya.. e pitching of tents.. haha.. e leap of faith.. haha.. it's really nice to watch a movie w a grp of friends n all of us can relate to e movie w e same common experience.. it'll b different if i dun watch it w barker n think of obs when i watch it.. so i m v happy tt i went to watch UP w barker! haha..

after movie.. we went for dinner.. but we were kind of full.. so bout 8 of us shared 3 claypot rice.. haha.. after dinner.. some of us still buy ice cream + brownie from gelato.. haha.. gt offer.. haha.. den we went home n decided to meet online for mass convo at 10pm.. haha..

had a wonderful day.. n many made an effort to come.. though some hv to leave halfway.. tried many types of ice-cream.. many tt i nv tried b4 n wun try if nt for barker's ICE.. haha.. though stomach a bit pain lah.. but it's ok le.. haha.. n it's really a nice day out b4 uni starts tml.. haha.. first tym eat so many ice cream.. haha.. for those who wan me to grow fat, mus b happy to hear tis.. haha.. ya..

sch's starting tml.. haha.. all of us r still nt prepared.. still in hol mood.. hv nt been studying for 8 months.. n for e guys.. 2 yrs plus.. haha.. well.. everyone's nervous.. scare, excited, etc.. haha.. uni start le.. barker gathering will decrease by a lot.. but i'll give it my best to maintain these friendships n e bond.. haha.. n i believe many others in barker will too.. haha.. though we will meet many new friends.. hv many activities in uni.. b busy w studies.. n meeting our target n gpa.. hving less tym tgt n meeting up.. but we'll work hard to keep barker tgt!!! right? n nth can erase or replace our memories in obs tgt.. haha.. let barker's bond b stronger than a tripple bond.. haha.. so it wun break so easily.. n so tt it can last even till decades later! haha.. though i m nt in e same sch as them.. but i'll try to b there for all gatherings! haha.. i wish them all e best.. n may all enjoy ur uni life.. we r entering into a new chapter! jia you!.. i prayed for barker.. tt we will all b able to settle in to e new chapter in uni.. n i really give thanks for knowing them.. though i may nt b happy all e tym.. but i told myself tt being w barker alone is enough.. i shld count my blessings le.. to b able to noe them.. they r really wonderful.. n really blessings from God.. every single one of them.. love barker lots! <3

n some of us standardise our fb status to include wat we did today.. n tis is it..
LOVES TRUFFLE MUSHROOM ICE CREAM, MEXICAN CHILLI ICE CREAM, PARMESAN PECAN ICE CREAM, HAATO, YOHGURU, ASTONS SPECIALTIES, CHAR SIEW CLAYPOT RICE, GONG BAO JI CLAYPOT RICE AND CURRY CHICKEN CLAYPOT RICE! (:

k.. can slp le.. tml morning lect.. haha.. but lucky.. 2 hrs lessons only.. haha.. :) n gng to tidy rm w melissa tml.. haha.. n settle who slp where n who use which table.. n i need to start putting e UE n PE tt i wan tml.. nite! haha.. i m a bit high n mad.. haha.. 2am le.. bye..

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k.. i shall add some pics here to make my blog more cheerful!.. haha.. since i hv nth much to blog today.. haha..

eh.. went to check in to hostel today.. cab down w dad n my friend.. yay.. finally noe what blk i stay in.. haha.. but y mus they give me the block furthest away from e bus stop? haha.. 3rd floor.. rm is quite nice leh.. cos jus renovate.. so all furniture are new!! haha.. no longer e wooden colour.. haha.. white n grey and a type of purple.. haha.. n purple curtains.. haha.. nt bad.. but i cnt figure where's e switch for e table light.. haha.. n e floor n table a bit dusty.. can c my palm print on e table.. think cos of e reno.. they changed e lock too.. last yr was still using key.. now is use card tap den turn.. cool.. haha.. den faster dump my stuff in rm.. den went to acc my friend buy her lect notes.. her lessons on wed.. lect notes ready le.. my lessons on tue.. lect notes still out of sight..

we rush rush rush cos i wan to reach e computer store b4 1pm.. in an attempt to buy my laptop.. but hor.. walk all e way there.. den e person say e laptop stocks nt in yet.. so lousy.. earliest is next fri.. den tell me might as well wait for e roadshow which is e mon after next.. cos e vendors will throw in more promotions.. hai.. earliest next fri.. die.. how to survive one wk in hostel w/o laptop n my add/drop of electives start on tue.. ah!!! k.. v fan.. haha.. so my friend n i decide to walk back to e library at e other side where we came from to hv lunch.. cos e canteen near e computer shop de.. friend say e food nt nice.. so walk back.. wah. gd exercise.. haha.. but e canteen gt aircon.. haha.. gd.. haha.. cos weather quite hot.. haha.. so after eating, we head home.. haha.. we both got other programmes in e evening.. but too early le.. haha..

ya.. reach back boon lay interchange, went to apply for my ez-link card.. well.. like finally lah.. haha.. my friend get hers le.. den i jus able to apply like 2 or 3 days ago.. aiyo.. den take bus home.. haha.. reached home.. take a short nap.. v tired.. slept v late last night.. den after tt went out to meet my friend.. i changed bag.. n forgot to bring wallet.. haha.. so i m totally w/o any -money.. except my ez-link card.. lucky my card enough money.. haha.. i reach e place den realise i didnt bring wallet.. blur sia.. haha.. i really need my laptop.. my roommate oso dun hv laptop yet.. so she say she may nt stay in hostel e 1st wk.. i think mayb i wun oso.. cos my laptop is seriously nt in a condition to b brought to hostel.. n my room only wired connection.. n my current laptop no anti-virus software.. think wan connect to sch internet need anti-virus software.. so i guess i need to come home e 1st wk n do my modules stuff till i buy my laptop, hopefully, on e 17th.. hai.. 9 days away! v long leh.. den cnt stay in hostel.. lol..

haha.. met some of my friends.. e gals from my jc class.. to go back to our jc for national day celebration.. weird? normally ppl go back for teachers day.. we go back for national day.. haha.. met 10plus in e morning.. haha.. lazy to get up of bed.. cos slept quite late ytd.. haha.. we all wore red shirts.. haha.. i was wearing my orientation t-shirt.. haha.. went in.. find my 2 other friends there.. they were working as relief in our jc.. den we went hall.. to c e performances.. haha.. my friend told me tt mrs tay wans to talk to me.. ask me to find her.. but says tt she has remedial lessons after e celebrations n ask me nt to wait for her.. abit contradict hor.. haha.. anw, i manage to 'catch' her right b4 e start of e concert.. she was telling me thank u for nominating her to come for my tspc.. n congrats.. she apologise for nt being able to come cos she's hving a tight schedule as she jus came back from long leave n spa is coming.. ya.. n she was saying tt i'll do well.. study hard all these.. concert was nt bad.. but nt as high as last yr.. as i was sitting thru e concert.. memories of my life in jc flashed thru my mind..

there was a technical prob during one of e dances.. den whenever such things happen, ppl will turn to look at e av.. n give those 'blaming' stares.. haha.. den i recalled e tym when i was av during orientation.. haha.. normal orientation activities, council will hv own councillors in-charge of av.. n i was at av twice.. haha.. even opening performance n final performance.. a few councillors will b there as av though e real av will b there too.. haha.. av quite fun.. cos u can 'blast' e whole hall w e music.. or parade sq.. haha.. can b a bit stressful too.. den can play songs as fillers.. haha.. adjust mic volume.. allocate mic etc.. fun.. miss those times.. haha.. i rmb i volunteered as av crew e 2nd tym cos it's orientation 2 when i in yr2.. normally seniors dun help in O2.. but cos of some reasons we r still e main i/c of O2.. i volunteer to b av cos i can do my work in av rm. haha.. aiya.. mus understand my results den not v gd.. n i missing lessons cos of orientation.. haha.. but my councillors were scared tt i get bored.. cos i dun get to b ogl.. haha.. but studies more impt.. av quite fun too.. kind of miss those times.. haha.. when we reached e sing-along session.. haha.. i rmb last yr.. our own class.. we v high.. e whole sch was v high.. forming 'trains' and running around e hall.. our class carried some guys n 'throw' em into e air.. we stand in a big circle.. kick of legs in n sing along.. so fun! haha..

after e concert, went to outside staff rm.. got pangseh by those 2 friends who were relief there.. they went into staff rm.. we cnt go in.. den another friend need to go meet friend.. so left me n my close friend, huiting.. haha.. den we hang around.. wanted to go cafe grab a drink, received a call from my 1st 3 months chinese teacher.. asking where i m.. he came to look for me.. talked for a while.. den saw mrs tay coming out of e staff rm.. gng for her lessons.. haha.. quickly took a photo w her.. haha.. yay!! den i expressed my thanks to her.. yay! finally say out le.. take courage to do so.. easy to pen down on paper.. but hard to say a word of thank u face to face.. she asked thank you for? i say for believeing in me more than i do.. den she was saying tt i was oso hardworking.. n we did well oso cos of ourselves.. she says tt i m an outstanding student.. always do my things well.. den i say i improve a lot from prelims.. she say she saw my results oso quite shocked.. haha.. From BUUU during J2 MYE, to BSS(B) after i dropped phy to h1 for my prelims to ABB(B) for A's.. haha.. e sch shld give me most improved from prelims award loh.. haha.. base on my l1r5, i'll nv get most improved de.. haha.. but glory be to God who is e Giver of all wisdom and blessings.. He's e reason for tis miracle.. n up till now, an moe scholar.. nt by my own capabilities but by His who is merciful n grace-giving.. :)

den went for lunch at canteen.. haha.. ate one of my fav food in jc.. haha.. sat at e canteen.. enjoying e breeze.. haha.. looked at e running track.. one of my fav place in sch.. n i miss e tracks after i graduate.. but so long didnt run le.. now c e tracks oso dun really tt miss.. haha.. but i miss jc life though.. w my friends n teachers.. haha.. i give thanks tt i did well.. n nt disappoint my teachers who believed in me though my results were nt showing even up till e last min.. n how i m like e most stressed gal in class.. cos pressured to drop 4H2.. n being e odd one out in class.. hai.. till today.. mrs tay was proud of me cos i was e only one in e cohort awarded moe scholarship tis yr.. it's a pity she cant b present ytd.. hai.. but she is a v responsible teacher..putting her current students first.. another person tt i wan to thank personally is my principal.. but dun get to c her.. :( n dun dare to go into her office to look for her.. perhaps i'll jus drop her an email to say thanks.. haha..

while accompanying my friend to wait for bus at e bus stop, a grp of pj gals walked past us.. n a gal suddenly called my name.. i turned n saw my sec sch cca junior.haha.. i asked.. 'u in pj meh?'.. she say ya.. haha.. she v high.. haha.. she say she saw my pic in sch.. den say.. 'woah.. tt's my senior'.. haha.. so funny.. haha.. hehe.. happy tt she is in pj.. cos pj is a gd sch to b in! haha..

random here.. e haze is back.. can smell it since ytd.. no gd.. ppl.. do take care of ur health.. n ya.. i edited my previous post on tspc to add in a bit more details at e last para..

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