'Don't leave room for regrets'

can be interpretated in 2 ways.
1st: (with regards to the past)
don't leave any room or space in your heart or mind to entertain the thots of regret. that means dun look back at things and regret.

2nd: (with regards to the future)
work hard and don't regret cos u noe u gave ur best n u work hard for it.

though one is with regards to e past n another e future, but it starts now.. at e present.. whether we wan to live life w no regrets..

ppl often hv regrets in their life.. to live a life w no regrets seems impossible.. ppl often look back in life n sighed.. n think.. 'if i hv done tt, if i hv done tis, etc..'.. indeed.. we do hv 'regrets' in our life.. but we can choose to put these aside n nt let it affect us.. tt means dun keep a space in our heart/mind for it.. let it past..let it fade away.. try looking at it from a different angle.. if tt thing hv nt happened tt way, will it teach u a certain lesson? or help u grow in a certain way? eg.. regretting nt treasuring a friend enough will make us treasure those around us more now.. or regretting nt doing well in a test will make us ensure tt we wun make e same mistake again for e next test.. if these 'regrets' did nt take place, things n we may nt b e way we r now.. whether gd or bad, we all hv lessons in life to learn.. life is a module that is never ending till we breathe our last breadth.. n e things to learn r up till we r old.. n we will still b students of life.. haha..

k.. i dunno wat got into me.. haha.. anw, when i woke up tis morning, received an sms from my cgl.. asking me to b e worship leader during cell tis sat.. haha.. hmm.. a bit nt confident.. nt e first tym i led worship.. but it's e first tym in eng n here in tis cg.. haha.. n it has been more than a yr since i led worship bah.. haha.. though e eng songs i noe r limited but i do hv a few in mind le.. haha.. jia you.. :)

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back at my 2nd home... it has become a home away from home.. a shelter, a place for me to escape to, a place to study, to sleep, to stay up late.. it has it's pros and cons.. but here i am back here.. homesick? 1 week wun homesick de.. haha.. infact, i think i hv gotten used to e hard bed in my 2nd home tt i dun feel as comfortable back at my own bed at home.. haha.. wonder where can i escape to when i dun stay in hall next yr.. nvm.. leave tt to next yr..

now tt i got back.. shld study hard le.. i wasted enough tym.. didnt complete much.. getting angry w myself le.. i hv cancelled a few activities tt r upcoming so as to study.. if u dun make gd use of those tym to study, i'll b angry w myself.. cos some of those activities r activities tt i'll like to join in.. my tight tuition schedule over e weekend.. n my studies.. hai.......

went w my mum to recontract her plan n change her hp b4 coming back to hostel. met asta at bukit batok mrt.. hmm.. coming back.. e 1st sight i gt when i stepped into my rm is nt a v pleasant or expected one..nvm.. finally brought maggie mee n 3-in-1 cereal to put on my shelf le.. haha.. after half of a sem went by.. haha.. hmm.. hving prob uploading pics again.. conclu: cnt upload pics using com at hostel..

ah.. i getting bored.. go study.. i hv lots of qn to do 4 my calculus tut... hmm.. doesnt sound logical.. study when u r bored.. lol.. hmm.. nt yet.. gng for dinner first.. ok.. if i dun complete my caculus hw n lect 6 n 7 n lab 6 of my programming, no slping today!!!! hahahaha...

there is absolutely no reason, no matter how logical or convincing it may seems, to disobey God.

ahhh!!! mood took a drastic turn when i opened my email n saw tt e grade for my 1st quiz for mas 111 is up.. it's over 30... contribute 10percent.. it was our first quiz.. super easy.. shld get full marks de.. but i didnt!!!! ahhhhhh!!!! i gt 29/30.. ahhh!!! ppl who dunno will think tt i m mad.. i shld b satisfied w it.. but no... cos it's a super easy qn.. meaning tt MOST ppl will get 30/30.. so getting 29, means i lagging behind le.. ah.. where did my 1 mark gone? hai.. srsly, last tym, 1 mark no big deal.. but now.. ah.. converted to my overall percentage is 0.333333... hai.. tis may seems trival.. but is e only quiz tt i m confident of doing well leh.. so if i cant get full marks, wasted leh.. ah....

on my way back from tuition, i was thinking.. cos my tutee's mum wan me to cont teaching his son next yr.. ask me wan e.maths, a.maths or both.. but i dunno whether i can cope nt.. i already dun wan anymore tuition le.. but.. hai. i oso dunno y wan me.. it's like i m nt v gd lah.. so far, he oso nt really performing up to standard.. n i dun think i teach v well.. perhaps cos ren shi de bah.. hai.. but.. do i hv e tym? at least 2 hrs a week.. i dunno.. next yr if i take student, at most 1 only.. n if i take him, i may hv to see him thru sec 4 too.. hai.. how.. aiya.. c my grades for sem 1 first den decide.. ah.. i dunno.. n i nt v confident of taking sec 3 & 4.. it may help in me teaching in future.. cos i stay inline w e syallbus.. but now most impt is still to do well for my 4 yrs.. tt one.. 5th yr den think oso can. ah... i dunno......

hai............................................ my 1 mark............. aiyo............. i think i m getting super influenced by e uni systems.. so affected by marks.. chasing after grades... ah..... tis is bad........ ok.. cnt like tis.. hmm.. i shld b thankful tt it's jus one mark gone.. haha.. nt 2 or 3..

enjoying e afternoon w a cup of mocha orea bubble tea.. sitting infront of my com.. haha.. enjoying life ar? haha.. tt cup of bubble tea is supposed to help me concentrate n study.. haha..

was talking to my dad as he helped me rub e oilment.. haha.. n he oso commented tt i m v injury-prone.. actually my leg esp knee cap area hv a lot of scars.. tt i collected since young.. haha.. from e scars.. can tell tt i m injury prone lah.. haha.. but lucky i still haven injury-prone till need stitches.. unlike my dad when he's growing up.. he said tt i wan to follow him isit.. injury-prone.. haha.. my dad oso rmb e tym tt i had a bad fall in pri sch.. tt i'll nv forget too.. fell into e drain while boarding sch bus.. haha.. well.. he reminded me of certain things tt took place then.. haha.. he said tt i refused to let him piggyback me.. n i controlled n didnt cry.. cos many ppl there.. haha.. n i still insist on walking back on my own.. wow.. i m impressed by tt small me.. haha.. n my dad said i didnt went to e doc for tt.. it was really quite bad... many many lines of scratches tt u cnt count.. it's e type of drain w many small stones by e side.. haha.. lucky e scars only remain for a yr.. haha.. i wondered whether i m still as 'brave' now nt.. haha.. tt was in p2 or 3 then.. haha..

xi wang zi ji neng xiang yi qian xiao shi hou na me qian qiang... du li xie..it's oso tym to embark on a training to b more self-disciplined...

haha.. i feel like a pig.. slp slp slp.. hahahaha... better start studying lo.. haha... 3 core leh!!! haha... schedule kind of mess up.. so better make sure i finish studying wat i can study at home.. cos i wun hv much tym at hostel w my txtbks tis wk.. :(

nt gng to wrap it le.. it needs fresh air.. wound starting to lan le.. -.- it's nt getting better.. guess cos i didnt give it enough rest.. i guess i mus b one of e few who still keep gng around in tis condition.. haha.. if ppl like me.. who cnt ans qns like 'is it swollen'.. 'hv i gain weight', etc.. all these qns i cant ans de.. if i can say tt it's swollen, n confirm of it.. den it mus really b swollen.. hai.. it's bad...

met my sec sch gal friends.. haha.. it's been sometimes since i met some of em.. as i m always unavailable for meet ups.. haha.. realised tt my poly friends r graduating soon.. n they wanna come uni too.. it's interesting to note tt in a few yrs tym, we will all hv a circle of friends of different professions.. engineers, auditors, ppl in tourism, etc.. n fanqin is gng to australia to study next yr le.. wow. i didnt noe tt.. haha.. it goes to show tt i hv nt been updated.. haha..

i hv given up expecting, hoping, etc of getting a seat on e trains.. ppl r jus nt gng to give up their precious seats.. tt their butt is so firmly glued to.. haha.. i sound so sacrastic lah... aiyo..

rest n stop moving around.. but i cnt keep still.. -.-

aiyo.. i dunno how to wrap.. anyhow wrap lah!!! haha...

realised last night tt i shared e same bdae as my social sub com head.. my senior.. haha.. he's e 2nd one tt i noe.. e 1st was a neighbour when i was young.. same yr oso.. haha..

went for service tis morning.. haha.. eh.. today is childrens' day service.. so e children gt sing n do a small puppet 'show' along with the singing.. children voices r always so pure n innocent.. they hv e most beautiful voices.. they quite cute lah.. ask funny qn, give funny reactions.. haha..

i hope to recover soon.. cos i dun like e some of e feelings tt i experience cos of tis... n i dun like being unable to walk fast.. perhaps it's tym to take a slower pace of life? haha.. dunno..

today's topic touches on courage.. courage to do wat is the truth.. even though it may b difficult.. n e speaker brought up e pt tt courage and stubborn r different.. but it's a thin line.. often when we r stubborn, we say tt we r courageous.. courage to believe in God and courage to become a vessel for God's use.

it kind of reminded me bout my previous post on 'courage'.. haha.. i feel tt courage is tied w faith.. by faith n in courage, i left my comfort zone, where my friends r.. to step into a new environment.. Lord, help me to press on in faith.

terrible leh.. singaporeans.. aiyo.. some r selfish.. hai.. no giving up of seats to elderly.. n injured ppl.. it's e eldery giving up e seats to e elderly.. wat is tis? n hor.. i stood all e way from tiong bahru to cck.. no one offered me a seat.. at jurong east, when everyone rush for e seat, ppl even snatch my seat.. fine.. c i young.. dun give me seat.. k.. i'll jus take it tt u didnt c my feet... but so many ppl.. none c meh??? i stood infront of e pirority seat.. no use... is it nt obvious enough? perhaps i shld stand in e middle next tym.. n nt at e side.. den MAYBE ppl will c.. there was a seat at bukit gombak.. but i didnt take it.. cos only one stop left le.. n later by e tym i walk there, someone else take it again.. n tt empty seat is nt cos ppl give it up.. is cos ppl alight.. aiyo... terrible..

yay.. watching liu xin hua yuan again.. a few wks didnt watch le.. haha... well.. my schedule gt a bit messed up cos of my leg........ hai.. but like dunno whether is i say or mun jee say first de.. we all hv to b responsible for our own actions n for our ownself.. haha..

when the sun goes down,
and the sky turns dark.
when people leave,
and lights are out.
when you are left alone,
and you looked into your heart.
God is there like He was since the start.

people come into our life and they make their exit one day.. that day may be the next day, days later, weeks later, months later, years later.. we dunno when the day is.. but everyone will make their exit some day.. so who can be there thru out? aiyo.. i think i listen to e song too much le.. haha.. most inspiration from e lyrics of tt song.. noe which few lines i refering to? haha..

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thank you yan ting for e offer.. :) haha..

we went to executive cafe to hv buffet lunch today.. e food quite nice.. but nt worth e money.. -.-

friends were v nice.. walking a different way to suit me.. haha.. n using lifts more.. haha.. well.. it's really bad to jay-walk when u cant walk fast.. but i m lucky today.. cos morning shuttle bus, bus driver waited for me.. though i nt running for it.. haha.. rarely leh.. den on way home, i walked fast.. oso can catch e bus. yay. haha.. blessed.. :)

i paid attention during my mas111 lect.. but 80percent only.. cos i falling asleep.. haha.. but i still cant understand some of e things.. den we were trying to figure out.. it's on sets.. den me n zy(boi) discussing y an area is shaded.. den b4 he say, i say 'mei you mei you become you' (dun hv dun hv become hv).. haha.. actually he wan say in a more maths term de.. (negate, negate become true).. haha.. but we dunno our logic correct nt lah.. haha.. ah!!!

k.. tis is RANDOM inspiration...
will you be there?
will you be there to pick me up when i fall?
will you be understanding when i am unreasonable?
will you be patient when i make mistakes?
will you be forgiving when i hurt you?

will you be there to walk quiety beside me?
will you be there to stand by me when everyone left?
will you be believing me when i do not even believe in myself?
will you be there with me through the ups and downs of life?

ah.. tis srsly need some refining.. wateva.. no more inspiration to improve le.. haha.. so leave it as tt.. ah! aiyo.. y i in such a 'frustrated' mood? hai..

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PAIN! haha.. i always feel tt gals hv higher tolerance level of pain.. n i think i hv a relatively ok tolerance lvl of pain too.. but it's painful.. well.. physical pain i mean.. emotions aside.. haha..

but a weird thing is tt when one experience physical pain, emotions r roped in.. somehow emotions will b affected..

well.. anyway, i hv completed my 2 mid-term tests tis wk.. 2 down, 4 more to go.. ah! today's quiz was 40 multiple choice.. 15% of my psycho.. there r different versions of e paper.. but we figured tt it's only different in e order of qns.. confident of passing.. nt confident of getting v high.. nt a gd news ar? in uni, passing is nt sufficient.. scrapping thru = nt passing.. in any case, i need to learn e art of nt being affected by quizs tt r over.. cos on 10oct, i'll hv 3 mid-term tests on e same day.. so if i get affected, there will b carry over effect (by psycho learnings.. haha).. den my other tests will b affected too.. not gd.. esp so when i m nt v gd to start w.. haha..

anw, i rewarded myself again to 2 subway cookie, n a cup of ICE milo w/o ice.. lame hor. haha. anw, tis is my usual food for fri ar.. so is it a reward? dunno..

i m wondering how i m gng to plan my tym for next wk.. w e ernomous amt of work to catch up, e frantic to prepare for e 3 mid-terms. project to start, tuitions n tuitions to give.. tym to rest.. ah............... how? n cos it's painful now.. i may nt b able to go for tuition today n tml.. den there needs to b make up for it..................... hai.. kind of pissed n angry w myself..

hai.. accident-prone.. it's jus nt my day.. n my wk.. ah! though e positive note to tis wk is meeting up w barker for ICE 3 on wed.. still haven upload most of e pics.. cos fb at hostel is quite slow.. n hv prob uploading all at one shot.. n met lyn, hl, jy, lionel for badminton at pgp today..

i think i m out of my mind.. to b out n play on e eves of my 2 mid-term test.. m i rewarding myself too much? nah.. i need to de-stress.. n take my mind away from books.. i need a life.. but i still think it's a bit 'out-of-my-mind' act.. k.. back to studying.. bye..

i dun like e way i living my life now.. studying n studying.. stress over all e tests.. trying to catch up for all mod.. struggling to perform up to standard.. i m nt even talking bout above expectation.. but jus up to standard.. life filled w activities tt i do for e sake of doing.. i dun like it.. i dun like life tis way..

i m so dead.. today's mid-term for mas801 is pronounced DEAD.. 33%........... i 38marks out of 100 confirm gone le.................. CONFIRM........ die le loh........... i came out of e lt feeling super lousy.. i was a bit angry w myself.. angry y i did nt pay more attention to some formula.. n clear up e parts tt i dun understand on hamming bound.. indeed, he come up those difficult stuff lah.. i was saying, he better dun come up 3x3 matrix.. n it came out.. e workings were tedious.. e marks allocation scary.. i really felt terrible.. n tis is nt a gd sense of feeling for my first mid-term test.. esp so when i start to panic for all my other mod tis morning.. b4 e test.. i think there's nt enough tym le.. tis morning, b4 e test, i was v scared, stressed, etc.. hai.. w tis kind of results.. how m i gng to pull thru 4 yrs? my friends n i said tis is worse than a's.. for a's.. 2 yrs of endurance is a lot le.. now tis is worse.. n it's a longer period.. ah! how can i survive???

i think jx was a bit shocked by how emo i was after e test.. haha.. being my jc friend n hving seen me done badly in jc.. she oso say even in jc.. i do badly, i oso nt like tis.. i'll like.. ok loh (nt tt i really find it ok or i dun care.. i m always trying to do well.. jus tt results dun show.. n i kind of nt v v v affected by it.. till such an extent lah.. cos i noe e most impt is still how i do for my actual a's...) but tis one.. it's nt ok.. it's like tis somewat goes to show how well i'll get for my gpa.. n senior say yr 1 sem 1 v impt.. cos after tt, gpa will only drop, wun go up.. so if it's low to start w, den gd luck loh.. well.. my sisters n some friends who hv seen how i was like in sec 4, will noe.. i think it's gonna b like tt tym loh.. during my a's, though i m stressed n though i m affected by my lousy grades, i dun go till tt extreme.. i dunno y.. but i think e 'me' in sec 4 when comes to dealing w studies is coming back.. tis is bad.. i need to manage my stress, stop adding unnecessary stress.. manage my time.. myself.. my emotions... ah!

can my life b back to e way tt i like it to b? y do i find myself doing things tt i dun really like to do or want to do at tt particular tym?

i think i protray myself in hall as a quiet, reserved, nt so social person.. i dunno.. i think many ppl always c me alone.. n e feeling of left out is nt uncommon.. mid-autumn celebration jus now.. helped out w deco, serve food, etc.. there were some performance.. n they sang 'yong qi' n another song tt i suddenly forget e title.. we sang these 2 songs during K ytd. den we went for a lantern walk.. feels a bit lame lah.. carrying lantern.. but kind of long tym didnt carry le.. so b 'lame' for once... den we go to an open field, n let go kong ming deng.. those big lanterns tt can float up de. haha.. like romantic hor.. but is whole hall, 4 blocks do tgt.. haha.. den oso write wishes n hang on e tree.. haha. den clean up, come back hall.. i m tired.. i m tired since after my test.. hai.................... i wan a break.. but no tym for one..................... i wan my life to b e way i wan it to b.. possible? n i dunno y i cnt sign in to my msn despite me restarting my com............

well.. it's finally my most anticipated day of e wk!!! haha.. weird hor.. i shld b looking frw to friday instead, when i finish my 2 quizes tis wk n start my recess wk.. haha. anw, went for calculus lect tis morning.. couldn't understand some stuff.. asked jx n zy (gal) n realised tt they oso like me.. haha.. den went to meet barker at somerset mrt..

had a stomachache during lect.. haha.. den went to bus stop to take bus.. missed 2 179 bus.. den wait a while.. ntu shuttle bus to pioneer mrt came.. so i board it.. den e next stop, i gt a seat.. den i hear tis music playing.. e song 'i wan nobody but u'.. den i was thinking to myself.. y tis person on her music so loud.. den next stop, she alight, so i move in.. den e music starts playing again.. but it doesnt sounds like it comes from e front or back.. so i look around n found at e slot, next to e seat, a pouch.. i opened n answered e call.. it's a guy.. n i was like asking whose phone is it.. den e guy ask me is there anybody there.. lol! if nt who he talking to? haha.. den he say it's his gf's phone.. ask me where i m now.. i say on e shuttle bus heading to pioneer mrt.. he ask whether he can meet me at pioneer mrt to pick up e phone from me.. i say yes.. so i waited for him at pioneer mrt.. in e end, e owner turn up herself.. but she use her bf phone to contact her own phone lah.. den i noe i'll b late for e meeting.. haha.. reached bout 10-15mins late.. den upon reaching, i dun need to search for them.. cos i saw 3 ppl sitting on e floor n i noe it's them.. haha.. n i was smiling to myself.. haha.. guess, cos i saw a familar scene.. n i met them.. after how long ar? haha..

den wait a while more.. den we went to cini K to sing.. K lunch.. 2-7pm.. haha.. gt lyn, emily, dan, hl, jy, cy, sel, js, lionel n chris we joined us later.. we hv chinese songs, eng songs, canto songs.. haha.. wow.. i m impressed man.. by their singing! haha.. they can sing v well!!!! haha.. *applauds*.. n hl n lyn can sing duet in canto.. nice! haha.. though i dun understand canto songs.. but i find them nice lah.. haha.. n i think it's cool to b able to sing in dialect.. esp in our generation.. haha. we were all impressed by hl's singing too.. haha.. sel can sing chinese songs well too.. haha.. i m impressed tym n tym again today.. haha.. oh ya.. tis is e first tym i go K box.. haha.. cos i seldom enthu to go such places.. as i dunno a lot of songs.. haha.. den we celebrated cy's bdae there.. actually wan to celebrate tgt w ty's at swensens.. but cos cy cnt stay.. so we change to at K loh.. a surprise one.. n she really is surprised.. haha.. we had some crazy moments singing too.. haha.. some songs we all noe, n it become a mass sing-along.. i think e most challenging song is e combination of quite many pop songs.. tt lasted bout 12mins.. haha.. cos hv to switch from one song to another within a short tym.. n to b able to think thru e tune when we c e lyrics.. haha.. n after K, e songs cont to ring in our minds.. haha.. one of e last few songs tt we sang was 当你孤单你会想起谁.. tt song e lyrics a bit emo lah.. actually most chinese songs r.. haha.. well.. we were oso disgusted bout some of e mv.. esp eng songs.. haha.. chinese songs r mostly love songs. n mostly emo.. tt's y i dun really listen to em.. haha.. but i like e lyrics of 当你孤单你会想起谁... i first heard it i think beginning of last yr or earlier.. from bear.. cos she keep singing e chorus.. i think it was nt bad.. e melody.. but didnt really go n listen alot lah.. den today hear e song again.. n sing it.. haha.. n i was reading e lyrics.. haha.. some sentences r quite true lah.. haha.. here is e lyrics.. haha..

当你孤单你会想起谁
你的心情总在飞
什么事都想去追
想抓住一些安慰
你总是喜欢在人群中徘徊
你最害怕孤单的滋味
你的心那么脆
一碰就会碎　
经不起一点风吹
你的身边总是要许多人陪　
你最害怕每天的天黑
但是天总会黑　
人总要离别　
谁也不能永远陪谁
而孤单的滋味　
谁都要面对　
不只是你我会感觉到疲惫

当你孤单你会想起谁　
你想不想找个人来陪
你的快乐伤悲　
只有我能体会　
让我再陪你走一回

k.. dunno y somewhere in e middle of e singing, i suddenly gt a bit stressed over my next day quiz.. super random loh.. haha.. perhaps too many emo songs? lol. no lah.. den i was a bit clumpsy lah.. i 'sprained' my thumb.. as in e type tt occurs when u try to put ur weight on ur whole hand but it shifted to ur thumb.. resulting in niu dao.. haha.. pain.. still a bit painful now.. den e first thot tt came to my mind was.. 'wat if i cnt write tml? it's my right hand.. i gt quiz..'.. lol! den after K, we took a walk to orchard.. haha.. where we met brian n ty.. had dinner and ice cream buffet!!! haha.. but most of us gt fulled after our first round of ice-cream.. haha.. i had 6 single scoops in all.. cookie n cream, choco brownie, butterscotch, hazenut, macednia nut n cookie cheesecake.. my fav 2 r cookie n cream n cookie cheesecake.. actually thot of gng for last round w 2 scoops.. one each of my fav ice cream.. but guess i cnt take another round anymore.. n i ate ice cream on empty stomach.. haha.. den i eat e baked rice after first round of ice cream.. haha.. really hope tt nth will happen to me.. no upset stomach or wat.. haha.. den we had 2 disney mooncakes to celebrate ty's bdae.. so special right? haha.. den we left at bout 10plus.. lyn, hl, jy, lionel went back to nus.. ty n brian went home. chris, emily n dan made a move earlier.. reached back ntu at bout 1130pm.. was hoping to get a seat on e train so i could take a short nap.. but i stood all e way to jurong east.. -.- den i sat down.. n i was soon falling asleep.. haha.. but only a few sec.. haha.. cos jurong east to boon lay only 7 mins.. hai.. haha.. quite tired.. n i think i today a bit suay. haha.. on e way to meet barker, i couldn't on my mp3... i tried to reset oso cnt.. last night was fine.. n i charged it last night.. hai.. 2nd tym like tis le.. but so far, it's still quite guai lah.. haha.. from my previous experience, it's better to spend a bit more n buy reliable brands for such entertainment stuff like mp3, camera, etc.. my mp3 other than these 2 tyms, it's quite gd.. haha.. i like it.. cos it's small n light.. haha.. creative brand. haha.. 1 yr plus le.. on my way back, i tried to on it again.. oso cnt.. when i hv to travel some dist w/o my mp3, it makes me v sian.. n unhappy.. haha.. cos i cnt do w/o music for campanion while travelling.. cos it helps to keep away noise by ppl.. n lets me slp.. haha.. dun ask me y i can slp listening to music outside.. at home.. depends.. haha.. so i was quite sad.. no music thru out my whole travelling today.. hai.. lucky i manage to get my mp3 working once i get back to hostel.. n next is.. i think my bottle is leaking.. dunno y.. perhaps cos i dropped it a few times.. but it's supposed to b able to withstand impact till a certain extent.. -.- hai.. cos my things in my bag abit wet.. i dunno y it's leaking.. n i dunno where it's leaking from.. n tis bottle.. i jus used for 5wks.. lol.. haha.. a gift from my colleagues when i leave my jtc job.. haha.. ah.. aiyo.. nvm..

trying to upload pics to fb.. like gt some prob.. anw, i v tired.. though tiring.. but worth it.. haha.. it has been some tym.. i think more than a month since i saw ppl like cy.. n i dunno when will i c them again after tis gathering.. perhaps thru small events like badminton.. haha.. wah.. k.. i starting to stress bout tml's test.. ppl asked me whether i study/prepare le mah.. i say 'hmm.. ya.. i study le.. but nt confident.. cos nt enough practice.. oso no practice.. all tt we hv is e lect notes.. i do all le.. so ya.. haha.. how???' 33% leh!!!! heavy heavy weightage.. my most heavy mid-term weightage mod.. haha.. i think some ppl were wondering.. u tml gt quiz.. wat r u doing playing n enjoying e whole day? haha.. i oso dunno y i can do tis.. haha.. but for it, i tried to study hard over e weekend le... haha.. though i dun say tt i totally let my hair down today.. but ya.. i still enjoy e day.. e companion.. e ppl.. <3 barker.. haha..

some photos here?
can't upload again.. next tym bah..

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ok.. i shall attempt to type a fast one.. b4 i leave for my meeting.. spent my whole afternoon trying to read my psycho textbk.. completed 2 chapters.. w e notes.. total bout 27 pages.. haha.. read till eyes tired n blur le.. haha.. like nt much accomplishment hor.. haha.. i intend to finish one more chapter b4 i slp today.. haha.. die.. haha..

on my way back to hostel, 172 is packed as usual.. but tis tym no scdf ppl.. but still hv police academy de.. n oso malays gng for visits.. haha.. v packed.. but lucky i gt a seat at e 2nd stop from where i board. haha.. den i was sitting next to tis female who is in e police academy uniform.. so cool.. haha.. i keep glancing at her.. haha.. i think females who r in uniform grps r cool.. haha. though i nv thot of joining one myself.. haha.. one may argue tt females get 'special treatment' in uniform grps.. but they can choose nt to undergo such physical training n disciplined life.. n stay at home.. take up other jobs, enjoy life.. in air-con environment.. dress up nice nice etc.. haha.. so i still think it's cool. haha.. den on e way, saw 2 motorbike civil defence tt type.. n 2 fire engine.. think gt some fire some where.. haha.. i like to take bus rides at night.. esp 172.. cos it pass by jalan bahar.. den it's quite quiet at night.. nt much vehicles.. winding road.. ulu ulu de.. can speed a bit.. nt much traffic light.. no HDB flats.. nt much buildings around.. haha.. nice.. haha..

k.. gtg for meeting now.. ICE IS TML!!! haha.. can't wait.. :)

k.. forget to add on things. haha.. i realised i brought a mug to hostel w/o bring drinks to make.. -.- n i need to buy maggie mee le.. haha.. upon alighting from e bus at hostel area.. i met tis guy.. staying at my block.. he takes maths too.. but we nv talk when we meet.. haha.. so i think it's quite bad.. so i said hi when i walked past him.. den we started a short convo on maths while walking to our block. haha.. hope tt e next tym we see each other, will at least say hi bah. haha. n i saw tis weird fly in e toilet.. tt i dun even bother to hv a closer look.. cos all e insects n flies u find in hostel r ugly n weird looking de.. n u can nv tell wat they r.. haha.. i tired le.. wan to slp.. but i shall try to read smth from my psycho... ah.... i v excited bout tml.. haha.. contain my excitement.. if nt ltr cnt slp.. haha..

i MUST study hard today!!!! (meaning mon) haha.. den i'll hv reason to let my hair down in e literature sense.. (to ENJOY!!!) on tue!!! woah! looking FORWARD! hahahaha.. tue faster come.. but mon mus mus study hard.. haha.. self-discipline please.. b focused.. time management.. no more time wasting.. need to go back hostel at night de.. n got short meeting.. so study hard!!!! haha.. getting a bit 'high' at night.. b4 i slp.. i m FOUR chapters behind my target.. n i mean psycho readings.. which is a lot.. n it will add on to e 3 chapters tt i m gng to read tml.. lol! SEVEN chapters? siao.. haha.. plus make notes.. psycho can b fun.. but reading pages of words.. haha.. i m nt a person into readings. haha.. so i'll get bored.. n distracted. haha.. ok.. i shall nt blog tml afternoon.. tml afternoon is STRICTLY RESERVED FOR STUDYING.. no getting distracted by thots, emotions, laptop, tv, temptation to slp, slack, etc... work hard tml n get my reward on tue.. haha.. so fast reward.. haha.. i mus make sure i deserve e reward.. haha.. ICE!!! woah! haha..

i feel like i dun really hv much of a life now.. most of e tym, i m studying.. i m spending tis long weekend n e public hol studying... hai.. perhaps tis is e life of a student? lol.. who says uni life is more relaxed than jc? how cum i find myself studying harder while i did or equivalent to wat i did in preparation for my a's.. when these r jus quizs, mid-terms, etc.. hai.. get a life? will hv one right b4 my wed 33% quiz on tue.. w barker!!! yay! looking forward to my 'life'. haha.

went for service jus now.. today's topic was God's words are His bond.

Pastor Ann talked bout promises.. many a times, words are cheap and people make empty promises. Some promises were made rashly without really thinking of committing to see it thru.. they are just plain words.. y hv words become cheap? w/o value? it's kind of sad, yea? people can promise u many things, but how many promises are fulfilled? few.. there r so many empty promises.. tt sometimes, we jus lose confident in promises.. we may even nt take people's promises for real.. cos we noe tt humans tend to make empty promises or promises tt they cnt keep.. but tis shld nt b e way.. promises r meant to b kept.. nt broken... these r some thots tt came to my mind during e sermon.. n tis is the conclusion i hv: 'don't make a promise if you cannot fulfil it. If u make a promise, be committed to c it thru'.

it's a reminder to me not to anyhow make promises to ppl.. big or small.. n to fulfil those promises tt i made.. others may nt fulfil their promises.. but i cnt dun fulfil mine.. at times, people may forget the promises they made.. so if i ever made any promise to u, n it seems like i forgot bout it, pls remind me..

i give thanks tt our God is a promise-keeper, faithful to His promises, never-changing and doesn't take back what He promised us.

some words may seems insignificant.. or we say certain words w/o much thot.. but some words actually have a lot of meaning behind it.. i was reflecting on e promises i made to God.. some verbalised.. some not, but implied.. n it dawns on me tt from the time i became a christian, it was actually a 'promise' or a committement to follow Jesus for the rest of my life. and i questioned myself.. wat does e word 'follow' means? many sentences can just come out naturally.. when one is a christian for some tym, some words or phrases r like e 'standard' phrases or ans.. but wat does these sentences n words actually mean? in life, when one say words like 'it's ok'.. is it really ok w u? or u jus say it in reply.. w/o meaning it.. when one say 'sorry'.. is it really meant? when one say 'i love you'.. wat does love means to tt person? just feeling? or just a phrase tt does nt mean much, tt is used frequently? though some words said may nt b promises.. but do we mean wat we say? once we promise smth.. e word 'promise' may nt b used.. but saying things like.. 'i'll do this n tt for you'.. r actually 'promises'.. though they may nt b big or significant ones.. but once said.. do keep ur word. so we shld all b careful w wat we say n promise..

haha.. a bit solemn? lol. k. tym to get back to my bks.. still at mas 801.. after tt i hv chapterSSS of readings to b done for psycho quiz. haha..

i wan to buy guitar.. shall go search 4 it during e recess wk. but lazy to go many shops search.. hope to b able to find one tt i like.. too bad i missed e guitar fair in sch last wk..

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ai.... die.. realised my 3 tutees exams dates r around e same wk as my mid-term for my 3 maths core.. hai.. they wan extra slot, i oso cnt give them.. i need to study too.. hai.. n i worried.. cos i dun think they r prepared for e exams.. n i dun think they can do well.. hai.. guess, i'll try my best.. but sry.. i still hv to care bout my studies.. cos i hv a gpa to meet..

people.. do take care of ur health.. many are falling sick..

ah! i m feeling bored.......... -.-

went to nie for lunch jus now.. den went to c e world of sports sales.. well.. being in nie gives me a lot of thots.. on one hand, i hope to get in there soon, on e other hand, nt so soon.. my friends n i were lamenting at how fast 6 wks hv flew past.. so fast.. n we r still as stress as we r in wk1.. mayb slightly worse? hai.. i m getting more n more bored w lect.. well. i can put my sign lang to gd use.. i learnt how to signal some new words ytd.. like 'sleep, want, happy, sad, cry, love, make'.. haha.. i jus learnt e word 'bore'.. it's v funny.. haha.. hai............ tired.. bored.. k.. stop crapping n try to listen to e lect... my batt is running low.. it's a gd sign??? dunno.. someone help me to concentrate n study hard over e weekend.. force me to study.. n nt b distracted............ o.o

i guess i must be out of my mind ytd afternoon to buy mcspicy for lunch.. for one who does not take spicy stuff.. hai.. n after tt, jx say she didnt learn from my 'lesson'.. she oso bought spicy food.. n we conclude tt we r both out of our minds.. hai..

woke up tis morning n found e lights in my rm still on.. so i guessed my roomy fell asleep w/o switching off e lights. haha.. as usual, it's fri.. same routine.. jus tt today's psycho's lect was a bit hard to catch n i m worried bout e psycho quiz next fri too.. bout 40 mcq. while on e way from HSS to LT 19A, it rained.. -.- floor was wet n flooding a little.. sandals n jeans wet.. den old chang kee dunno y dun hv a lot of finger food today.. so i didnt get my crab nugget.. went to subway n bought my cookies again..

study! stop getting distracted!

karen hopes to turn back time and let time stop at those moments.. but tis hope will only remain as a hope and dream, tt cnt b reality......

this is a card that i bought some times back.. those postcard size de.. w meaningful words.. i like this quite alot.. sun, i brought it to my hostel n pin it up on my board.. haha.. here it is to share w u..

Lord, give me strength
Give us Your strength, Lord.
Because sometimes things get tough,
and we are ready to quit.

Give us Your love, Lord.
Because sometimes people reject us,
and we are tempted to hate.

Give us Your eyes, Lord.
Because sometimes life gets dark
and we lose our way.

Give us Your courage, Lord.
Because often we are put under pressure,
and it's hard to do what is right.

Give us Yourself, Lord.
Because our hearts were made for You,
and we will not rest until we rest in You.

By Mark Link, S.J. Locust Pte Ltd

Labels: give me strength, Lord

hmm.. e ministerial forum was fun n enriching.. haha.. ok.. let me blog bout e whole process n some things tt i found interesting bout it.. haha.. k.. e topic was: 'Singapore: is there room for more?" we were supposed to reach between 5.30pm-6pm for security checks.. n bags have to b placed in another lt.. i didnt bring my bag there.. but i went to buy old chang kee for my friends and myself.. to snack before e forum. e queue was quite long to deposit e bags.. i queued w my friends while we eat our old chang kee. haha.. 2 wks ago, we queued for e tickets to tis forum.. today we queue again.. haha.. to put bags. den after tt we head to nanyang audi.. wow.. e queue was v long.. from nanyang audi to slightly b4 LT 19A.. haha.. took bout another half an hr to clear it.. there were police officers inside.. 2 rounds of scanning.. e machine thingy n e scanner.. dunno how to say. haha.. den we went in.. soon e PM arrive.. w Mrs Lee n Dr Vivian Balakrishnan. Soon after e planning com head give his welcome speech, PM Lee spoke on the topic. He assured Singaporeans that e interests of singaporeans will come first.. e long term interests.. n he talked bout e competition from foreigners.. e need for integration between singaporeans and foreigners,etc.. den it was Q&A session!!! haha.. i shall jus mention e 2 qns tt i hv impression on.. haha.. thru out e whole forum, i raised my hand twice. first was PM asked for a show of hands those who r singaporeans.. wah.. i shot out my hand.. haha.. those around me too.. haha.. we r PROUD CITIZENS of Singapore! haha.. 2nd tym i didnt shoot out so readily lah.. haha.. cos nobody around me raise their hands.. PM asked who r gng into teaching or in NIE now.. haha.. my friends go turn n look at me.. -.- n tt mun jee.. today during lesson oso suan me.. say.. 'ask scholar lah'.. den i tell him.. u better dun let me noe when u get ur teaching award.. haha.. keep suaning me.. -.- k.. back to e 2 qns..

1 was asked by a PR from china.. he asked bout buying of flats.. he's studying PhD now.. den he say tt 1PR cnt buy flat, 2 PR also cannot buy new HDB flats.. den PM replied.. 1 PR cnt buy flat, 2 PR cannot buy new flats but 1 PR and 1 citizen can buy new HDB flats.. den we laughed n we say orh.. haha.. den e student ask again.. is this e ONLY way? cos he think his wife will most likely b a PR too. haha. k.. we were laughing away.. another was e last qn.. on e ban of drinking water in trains.. haha.. go man! i totally support tt tis rule has no common sense at all!!!! who say cannot differentiate whether the person is drinking plain water or nt? even if it's a wrapped bottle, can jus turn over to e bottom jiu can c le mah. so far, there r v v few drinks tt looks e same like plain water.. even barley, H2O, etc looks a bit greyish.. srsly, tis rule is no logical at all.. n oso no drinking in mrt station.. where's e line??? where is considered in e station, n where nt?? srsly, i hope tt SMRT give in loh.. to allow plain water.. there was also someone who expressed that teachers shld b given less admin work.. so they can focus more on e students.. something like tis.. wasn't really paying attention le. haha.. thru out e whole forum, i was irritated by tis couple sitting right infront of me.. especially e guy.. really infront of me.. he made me irritated till i feel like kicking his chair a few times.. haha.. sry ar.. i a bit violent tendency. haha.. he was talking n talking to his gf thruout e forum.. den his head keep leaning towards e gal.. den hold hands, blah blah.. den he still put his elbow slightly higher than his head.. n still do so n talk when PM is looking at our direction.. -.- n e worse thing is tt smth happend which i think dun reflect well on ntu.. which i shall nt mention here.. it makes me kind of embarrassed..

k.. after e forum, i accompanied my friends to collect their bag.. den while queuing, realised after a few mins tt we were in e wrong queue.. aiya.. they oso didnt put any sign.. den zy (boi) tell them tt mayb u all shld b a sign.. den while queuing in e right queue, hv to go all e way back again, there were a few journalist asking students qns.. den one from nus campus observer approached me n my friends.. in e end, i was e one answering his qn.. haha.. i oso forgot wat he asked.. it's bout e forum.. den he ask what do u thnk of the old lady who went up to pm lee and say she want to be citizen, do u think there will still be awhole group of people waiting to be citizen jus for benefit of the cpf life savings.. n ask for my opinions.. he oso gt ask whether i agree or diagree w wat PM said.. i say i agree bout e integration part.. n e competition.. afterall, we need foreign immigrants.. wat we as singaporeans can do is to try to excel admist all these competition loh.. n w regards to ppl becoming citizens for monetary gains.. i replied.. i believe tt e govt does screen thru e citizens to select those of quality ones.. but there r still many who jus take s'pore as a stepping stone n will move on to other places in future.. but as long as they contribute to s'pore during their stay here, den ok loh.. haha.. i hope i didnt say anything wrong.. haha.. at e end den he ask for my name, course n yr of study.. he dunno maths under spms. cos he say he nt from ntu.. den i say i yr 1.. he say so i m quite a few yrs younger than him... -.- den he cnt count my age correctly.. haha.. he say 18? haha.. i wish i stay at 18 oso.. kidding.. haha.. i crapping le..

den went for dinner w jia xin, zy (boi n gal) to jurong pt for dinner at xing wang.. haha... i left my programme booklet in e bus on e way there. haha.. i didnt hv bag w me.. only hv my jacket, a small pouch w less than $10, ez link, ic, matri card, hostel card n hp.. haha.. reached jurong pt at bout 10pm.. den we ate.. n left there round 11pm.. reached back hostel 11plus.. arh.. now a bit tired.. but it's worth queuing all these for e forum.. haha.. when PM leaving, he was walking by e aisde near my seat.. he walked past.. i was 4th seat from e side.. haha.. up close.. too bad i didnt bring my cam to take a photo of him.. many ppl were snapping pics of him. haha.. anw, today e air was quite hazy.. e air is getting bad.. -.- k.. tis is a long blog. haha. study? slp? dunno.. try study..

Labels: ministerial forum

ok.. i shall type a quick post b4 i head off again.. for e ministerial forum.. tue is my calculus day.. cos e only lessons i hv is a calculus lect n a tut.. haha.. after my calculus lect, my friends n i headed to can B.. today there's nt a need for us to queue up for food.. haha.. cos mun jee help jia xin n i buy a packet of chicken rice.. from near his hse there.. tt is quite nice.. haha.. so we can b saved from e queue.. haha.. den after lunch n tut, as ususal, e calculus tut i always wan to slp.. haha.. den decided to head back to hostel. cos e ministerial forum need to report at 5.30pm.. my lessons end at 2.30pm.. e rest of them have lessons till 5.30pm.. haha.. so i head back to hostel.. in hope either to do some work or to catch a nap.. waited bout 10mins for e bus.. den 2 buses came tgt.. i board e first one.. cos e uncle is e one tt i always recognise.. haha.. there r 2 uncles tt i recognise driving tt service.. haha.. tis uncle will always nag de.. but i'll choose to board his bus.. as i feel more safe taking his bus. haha.. dunno y.. though sometimes he nags alot at passengers.. but he is a careful driver lah.. n he is a local. haha. indeed.. like he mentioned b4.. nt many locals wan to b a bus driver.. n tt tym he was e one who waited for me when i ran for e bus. haha.

on alighting at my bus stop n walking back to my hostel, i saw tis topless guy walking by e side of e road.. a student.. i was a bit disgusted.. lucky i was walking across e road.. n nt heading towards him.. haha.. lucky i chose to cross e road later.. den reach back.. decide to nap.. dun feel like getting up.. but my slp was disturbed by e drilling works for e toilet.. -.- den after waking up, i check my lect stuff n realised tt there's a mid term test for my maths elective mod next wed!!!! it's 33% n he only inform us one wk b4 hand!!! wat is tis.. ah! i stress lah.. tt mod nt easy.. it's on coding theory n cryptography, etc.. ah! tt one i still need tym to look thru.. was planning to chiong my pscyho readings.. cos next fri gt a quiz on it too.. 15%.. but now.. i need chiong tis mas 801 mod too.. ah! my weekend enough? though mon is public hol.. but there's tuition, readings, tut.. ah!!! y so last min? k.. i shall study n dun think bout other stuff.. 33% is quite high.. :S

it's another week of sch.. i had bout 6.5hrs of slp.. but still quite tired.. today like keep wanting to slp n dozing off.. haha.. during mas 111 tut, prof ask me go up n do a qn again.. lucky i noe how to do.. haha.. but tis mod no class participation marks de.. haha.. tis is e 5th tut.. i think only once he didnt call me up.. haha.. i think he recognise me le..so during lect, i mus b guai guai. haha.. cnt slp.. haha. den for e maths lab, b4 gng for it, i told jia xin to stop me if i m stoning.. haha.. n during lunch, dunno y today e dj keep playing hokkien songs.. lol.. haha.. n me n jia xin were looking at each other w a funny look.. haha.. during my lessons, i decided to print out e programming stack of notes.. tt's 90plus pgs.. i hv been procrastinating against it.. saying tt i can view it using my laptop.. haha.. n after like 3 wks, i finally print le.. haha.. after all my friends hv printed.. haha.. after my lessons, i went for tuition.. n i found a standing position on e train tt is so comfortable tt i nearly fell asleep while standing.. my tutee's mum requested additional tuition slots tis 3 wks.. cos final exam coming le.. n my tutee nt perfoming up to standard.. :( dunno y.. he's ok when doing work.. hai.. nvm.. i'll give him more practice.. hai.. i think i tis tuition teacher a bit lazy leh.. haha.. ok.. after tuition.. rush back to hostel.. cos suppose to meet ppl online for a short meeting.. hai.. normally after tuiton, i'll go home.. since it's only a stop away from home.. but cos tml is morning lesson.. so come back hostel le.. i was looking at my schedule for tis wk.. almost every night got things on.. -.- hai.. n on my way back, my another tutee ask me to send him a list of formulas tt he need to do.. haha.. so ltr i will go type one loh.. hai.. a bit lazy.. i tis tuition teacher dun give them notes de.. cos e assessment bk gt teach them n hv key points at e start of each topic.. n i m those tt require my tutee to hv some extent of independent learning. haha.. but i think i v lazy.. haha.. ok..

hv been wanting to take a night walk. jus now e short walk back to hostel from bus stop is nt enough leh.. quite tempted to cont walking on.. but will b quite scary tt part.. cos tt part gt no buildings.. haha.. n i alone.. n i need to rush back n settle some stuff b4 meeting.. so i didn't walk....

did a few 'stupid' things today.. like didnt check tt i attach my lab files before i deleted it from e lab com.. so it's gone for gd.. spilt e washing powder on my wrist while i was bout to wash my clothes.. hai.. but i was surprised to meet a p6 classmate in e toilet.. she's staying on e same lvl as me.. n she recognised me! lol.. srsly, i dunno y ppl can recognise me n i cant recognise em.. haha..

hai.. i m tired.. i wan a break.. for my heart n mind.. for myself..

tis morning.. i finally get to go down to e market.. it has been some tym since i went to e market.. haha.. i wanted to update my bank bk.. but hor.. i realised they changed e machine.. den i dunno how to use.. haha.. den i queue again.. observe ppl.. but e person infront of me oso dunno how.. in e end, i give up. but jus now on my way back, i saw another machine.. den i think tis morning de, e passbook slot cnt b used.. i think tt's y.. cos tt side no light.. only card there gt light.. haha.. ok.. i shall figure it out another day. haha. den went to search for 20pockets clear folder.. haha.. realised i need it for my jamming.. cos it's hard to find my chords among all e papers.. n e recent one, i m surrounded by papers. haha. den came back.. eat lunch, left to study w lyn n jy at bukit batok coffeebean..

wah.. i enjoyed e studying.. till i dun wish to leave for my tuition.. haha.. but anw, we 3 need to leave, so we left loh.. haha.. dunno y i can concentrate leh.. nt v quiet.. alot of ppl walking past too.. esp cos i m seated facing ppl walking.. haha.. n e music is nt my genre of music.. except e last song they played nt bad.. at least i noe de.. haha.. eternal flame.. me n lyn were singing to it.. haha.. well.. i nt v efficient leh.. only manage to do e notes for one econs lect notes. which took 3 pieces of paper.. n 3 qns of my mas 111 tut... haha.. but i manage to finish my econs tut while giving tuition.. haha.. tml.. i need to accomplish more!!! i mus meet e target i set.. but i think too high.. haha.. i shall go tidy my study table later.. haha.. n use it tml to study.. haha.. i seldom use it.. cos i always study in e living rm, on sofa.. my lap n files r my table.. haha.. i like to study outside.. more productive.. haha.. if nt, i think i'll spend tis afternoon slping.. which may b e case for tml.. haha.. anw, jus now when we were studying at coffeebean, we were quite quiet.. engrossed in our own stuff.. den e staff come tell us no studying during weekend..ask us shift to e outside table.. no air-con there.. haha.. but we cont to sit there.. den we start to crap.. haha.. how do u define studying? i can say tt i m reading my bk, nt studying.. i m studying e tension of tis table.. i m studying whether drinking coffee n doing work at e same tym is effective.. u r studying our tolerance level.. haha.. but e staff broke my momentum a bit.. haha.. den we saw tis couple.. nt locals..think some westerns.. if i did nt rmb wrongly.. haha.. they were drinking coffee.. e gal was reading a bk, e guy writing some stuff.. den after tt, they start playing scrabble.. haha.. me n lyn agreed tt it's quite nice to do tt.. haha..

had a 2hr tuition today.. haha.. den wait for shuling to leave tgt.. den she accompany me to mac at yishun to eat my 'dinner'.. haha.. den i went home n she go out.. haha.. i missed my show today. only watched a bit.. haha.. e iu xin hua yuan.. it's e only show tt i watch now.. haha.. gd for relaxing.. haha.. though nt a realistic show.. too extragrating le.. such scenes wun happen in real life.. haha.. but sometimes, it's gd to b in dreamland for a while.. haha.. i m still a gal.. haha.. anw, i noe e show is nt realistic lah.. haha.. watch for entertainment.. haha.. hmm.. on my way back in e train.. there is tis guy who came n sat beside me.. strong cigarrette smell.. so i decide to move away.. but nt wanting to do it too obvious, i pretend to alight at e next stop.. den i walk to another cabin n re-enter.. haha.. den for lrt, there was technical prob.. service b was disrupted.. but lucky i can take both A & B.. so dun affect me.. haha.. ya.. realised it's been a long tym since i took a walk home from lot1... but now no tym lah.. i either dun go lot 1, or come home late or wat.. haha.. nvm.. i walk in ntu everyday.. to bus stop. haha.. tml is sun.. weekend is passing so fast! ah.. i wan to enjoy n slack a bit more leh.. i enjoy studying on weekend.. cos weekend sometimes can jio ppl out to study. haha.. sometimes. haha.. but hor.. actually studying can b enjoyable.. when i noe how to do or when i jus find out how to do, it's enjoyable.. haha.. k.. i m starting to crap.. so i shall stop here.. n yay.. my blog back to nice nice le.. no more tt photobucket thingy.. n i didnt do anything to it.. but now.. dunno y.. i think some prob w java or html or wat.. i cant open my hotmail emails.. n my fb n blogger layout is weird.. dun hv those icons.. it only happens when i use wireless at home.. using my new laptop.. dunno y.. weird. haha..

yay.. finally MAS 111 quiz is over. haha.. prof say it's easy.. we dun believe.. but actually, really easy.. easier than tut qns. haha.. he really helping us.. haha.. can say tt i study so much a bit wasted lah.. but nth is wasted lah.. jus tt i spent too much tym on tis module le.. haha.. n yay.. i m back home.. haha.. no tuition today.. but next wk, my tuition schedule is bad.. hai.. no choice.. n i treated myself to bubble tea.. haha.. n ya.. v tired now.. jus now b4 mas111, i had a 2 hrs break.. after taking lunch, we went over to e lt.. i wan to slp.. but cnt fall asleep.. hai.. i think i insomia le lah.. haha.. gt nearly fall asleep twice.. but cnt in e end.. hai.. haha.. den during e lect, most of us were nt paying attention.. cos we were all concerned bout e test at e later part of e lect. haha.. den e prof was teaching logic.. so he teach on e part on if.. 'if there is a test today, students will come'.. haha.. cos he say he observed tt more ppl turn up for e lect today.. haha.. den when he wans to open e file for e quiz qn from his laptop, he cant open.. den we cheered.. haha.. den he on e com in e lt n attempt to open.. when we saw e word icon on e file, we noe can open le.. so when e microsoft 2007 screen apear, we 'aiya'.. haha.. n e prof give e look tt teachers always give.. tt kind of 'proud tt they can show e file in e end.. n happy to c tt students r disappointed' face.. haha.. so funny..

when i m v tired.. i hv 2 extremes.. one extreme is i'll b high.. n b siao.. another extreme, which is e case for today, i'll b quite quiet.. den like walking zombie.. hai..

me n my friends came to a conclusion tt on fri, our lect for programming got go = dun go.. so fot me, it's effectively, only 2 lects n nt 3.. haha.. k.. i shall spend my weekend well.. study hard.. play guitar.. n slp! haha... study.. eh.. motivation? lol.. srsly, to add on to my earlier post today, i hope tt i'll enjoy my tym in uni.. i dun wan to become one who jus care bout getting super gd grades at e expense of other things or stepping on ppl to climb up.. though i really think wat's happening in uni somewat reflects e reality of world out there.. ppl climb on ppl to succeed... i dun wan to b such ppl.. i dun wan to lose friendship or make use of ppl in my pursuit of grades.. tis is nt e way i wan things to b.. i jus wan to do well enough to meet my own target, enjoy life in uni w e friendships.. but do true friendships exist in uni n in e working world? where everyone is concern bout their own survival only.. n e phrase go in chinese... either u survive or me.. hai.. i dun like tis..

i like e once a wk bus journey back from boon lay to my hse.. 172.. pass by jalan bahar.. haha.. cos i can do some thinkings.. n can slp too.. haha.. well.. was thinking bout some things as usual.. or shld i say hv been thinking bout it since some tym ago.. jus tt when things happen, or when friends talk bout it, etc. i'll think more.. i m thinking slightly more now. haha.. n during mas 111 lect jus now.. while my friends r either paying attention to e lect or trying to do some more qns b4 e quiz, i was stoning.. mind elsewhere.. haha.. den i gt 'ling gan' to write chinese compo.. lol.. haha.. but didnt write full lah.. dun intend to cont le.. haha.. k... i hope i really noe wat i wan now lah. haha.. i thot a bit jus now.. haha.. hope... is uni a gd place to b in? hai.. i wan true friendships..

anw, here’s a bit of my thots tt I wanna share.. me n my friends hv concluded a few tyms tt a relationship is always passionate at e beginning stage.. n after a while, all e ‘sweet’ stuff dies down.. n e ‘high’ period n excitement period is over.. n some ppl will feel tt e relationship is getting boring.. or sian.. or lose e ‘feeling’ le n some will break off in search for another ‘exciting/fulfilling/passionate’ relationship.. but in my opinion, which I shared w a few friends b4.. true love is nt like tis.. true love is one tt even after e passionate period is over.. n there seems to b nt much surprises or sweet stuff left.. when everything tt is left aren’t anything new, e love is still e same.. it’s still strong.. e love for each other.. e hope tt each is doing well.. e true concern.. I dunno how to phrase tis.. it’s like amidst all e ‘routines’ stuff tt u do tgt, u still enjoy it cos of e person u doing it w, nt how ‘new’ tt stuff is.. nt e excitement w new stuff.. n u wun complain of sian.. cos even e routines stuff r nice n comfortable.. I dunno.. many may find this a naïve thot.. afterall, y do married couples divorce after decades tgt? Cos sian already.. hai.. n e world seems to reinforce tt there is no true love.. everything is jus a fantasy.. but I still hold on to e hope tt true love exists. Haha.. n I believe tt time n trials r a gd test of love. Whether it’s genuine or nt.. :)

lol… too much thots le… haha.. u can jus ignore me.. haha.. jus penning down my thots.. but another advice for my dear friends is, dun rush into a relationship for hving one.. or jus cos ur emotions rule over u.. dun go into one if u r nt sure wat u wan out of tt relationship. Dun rush into one when u dun expect things to turn out.. dun rush into one when u r nt sure of ur own feelings.. like I say, tym is a gd test of love… think it thru carefully.. take some tym.. dun rush.. though ppl may say tt chances only come by once.. but if it’s urs, it’ll b urs.. haha.. of course still mus grab hold of chances lah.. when u r sure of wat u wan le.. I wish all my friends tt they will b able to find true love.. :) sounds like I m dreaming.. lol.. haha.

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haha.. it's tt lect again.. routine: walk slowly.. go old chang kee buy food first den stroll in.. haha.. eating e food now.. today i buy subway cookie also.. haha.. selpt super late ytd.. was v tired.. but cnt fall asleep.. dunno y.. it's frustrating to lie in bed trying to slp, but cnt slp.. n knowing tt u NEED to slp.. haha.. went to bed at bout 2am.. toss n turn.. 4 plus got up, off lights.. den soon after, roomy came back.. den ltr a friend came in.. they were talking n doing block stuff.. den e harder it was for me to slp.. so in e end, slept at round 5.30am.. -.- 3 hrs of slp.. n i hv a super long day today n MAS 111 quiz.. which requires a clear brain to think.. DIE! haha.. y cant i fall asleep? stress? bed too hard (still as hard as when we first came.. haha.. )? or too tired? or wat? dunno.. haha.. i was lying in bed thinking tt it has been a long long tym since i felt such intensity in competition.. it's like in jc n sec.. we dun really compete in studies till like tis loh.. now it's like everyone is fighting to b e top.. wanting FULL marks n nt a single pt or 0.1 less.. n it's only e starting of sch.. it's like a fight to survive.. hai.. n i really dun think i m smart enough.. tt's y i need hardwork. but jus now, during psycho lect, zy (guy) was saying.. he was talking to another friend n they comment tt it's like a viscous cycle.. we r always at e losing end.. cos if e lecturer set a hard papers, we dunno, but those AT noe.. so they will do better than us.. if lecturer set easy paper, e more they will noe n do better.. so we r always at e losing end.. no matter wat.. quite pessimistic right? but tis is e reality.. esp in a course like mine.. hai.

though i studied alot for tis MAS111.. but i noe there might still b a possibility tt i'll jus get one qn correct out of 3 or none at all.. n i noe tt i'll b at e bottom area.. hai.. i m totally nt confident at all lah.. n i m stressing myself out more.. cos of e gpa tt i need to meet.. now, it seems like i dun hv my own target of gpa le.. from initial 4, now drop to can meet 3.5 can le.. hai.. but it's bad to jus get 3.5 for yr1 sem1.. hai.. dun care.. one step at a tym.. pls dun remind me how near mid-term is.. n oso.. tt i hv my 3 maths core on e same day........ arh!!!!!!! aiya.. use emily's phrase.. 'just whack ar!'... gd or bad.. dun care lah.. jus do my best.. after today's quiz, i m shifting back my focus to other mod le... too much tym on tis quiz le.. other mod lagging behind.. hai.. weekend, STUDY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

JIA YOU!!! =)

i shall survive today w/o caffeine.. food!

hi!.. haha.. ytd i went to slp.. looking frw to today.. i noe it'll b a great day.. haha.. was woken up by rain n thunder in e morning.. faster go keep clothes den slp again.. haha.. so aunty.. den woke up at bout 10plus.. n did my calculus tut for nxt wk!!! haha.. my calculus tut r on tue.. but i always do it first.. cos e qns r from e txtbk.. n i dun wan to bring e txtbk home.. haha.. den went for econs lect.. haha.. b4 tt went to atm.. check money.. haha.. it's in! haha.. i feel richer too.. but i'll manage it well.. i still wan to save money from tis lump of money de.. afterall.. dun spend all.. wat if my results nt up to standard? haha.. but i treat myself to a subway cookie.. haha.. for getting e money.. lol.. n for studying so much.. haha.. shall treat myself smth again tml. haha.. den zhiying (guy) go eat macflurry infront of me.. but is e chocolate de.. make me wan to eat ice cream.. so i went to bought e cone one.. n so funny lah.. first, e cone gt a small part chip off le.. so like gotten bitten off like tis.. den second is one e person handing e ice-cream to me w e tissue, his finger is in e tissue.. den i take e ice cream, he cnt 'pull out' his finger.. lol! haha.. nt my fault! haha.. den stay around to do a bit of maths practice on simplifications from e lect notes w jia xin.. she gt lect at 5.30pm.. den went off at bout 4.45pm.. jus nice bus come.. so i was at boon lay at 5pm.. haha.. suppose to meet lyn at 5.30pm at clementi.. did some caculations n figured i m too early.. so went to popular to walk walk.. cos sch popular quite lousy.. haha.. den 5.15, i start to rush to mrt station.. cos i thot i'll b abit late le.. den rush onto train.. den saw lyn's msg.. haha.. change to 5.45pm.. so i reached round 5.30pm.. waited for her.. cos there was a major jam.. while waiting, i was reading my notes n attempting to redo some qn.. haha.. but i dun like to stand at bus stop.. cos gt ppl smoking.. though it's nt allowed.. -.- but i really appreciated it tt lyn n chris came to clementi to meet me.. thanks for gng e extra mile to bring tis friend here to fong seng.. haha.. on e bus, we started talking bout brian.. den jus nice, he n js board e bus.. lol.. really cnt talk bout ppl behind their backs.. haha.. kidding..

finally arrive at fong seng.. realised tt i hv direct bus home from tt place.. -.- but i m nt gng home.. hai. haha.. when i reached there, i was abit tired.. e ride there was tiring... from bus change to train n bus again.. haha.. but worth it lah.. haha.. more than half of us were there.. got tzer yeun n michelle whom i haven met for bout 3wks.. n evon whom i m meeting for e first tym.. haha.. there were laughters as usual during dinner.. we were quite noisy lah.. haha.. when brian ordered nasi briyani, we laughed out LOUD. haha.. den jy, js, evon were discussing maths around me.. cos i in e middle.. lol.. i was lost.. cos i think it's on linear algebra.. haha.. i haven learn.. haha.. i maths major oso dunno wat they talking.. haha.. i had cheese prata for dinner.. nt bad. haha.. but a bit ex.. haha.. one day free, i shall try e cheese prata in sch.. haha.. den we walk to nus.. take internal shuttle bus to pgp.. on e way, dan go ask in e bus whether tis is e 1st tym i take nus bus.. haha.. den i ask him sssh.. haha.. dun disclose my identity mah.. haha.. pgp is v nice.. gt e standard of our hall 3 n 16 e design.. haha.. but i dunno how e inside look like.. sat around w e guys to chat awhile while lyn, emily, chris went to change.. haha.. we sat in a circle on e floor.. haha.. dan ask me to try carrying his super heavy bag n walk.. haha.. quite heavy.. but i still can walk a few steps lah.. ask me climb stairs or go down stairs w it, i may end up rolling lah.. haha.. they were talking bout army stuff.. i m lost again.. haha.. today quite lost ar.. lost in maths.. army.. n direction.. haha.. den we gals went to nanyang supermart.. dunno y they call it nanyang supermart.. shldnt nanyang supermart b in ntu? haha.. den emily was asking me how sch.. i say e same loh.. haha.. den she say like everyone struggling? haha.. i say ya.. if sch is gd for me, den i m nt normal le.. haha.. den we went to pgp court.. haha..

played doubles w jy verus lyn n chris.. we lost.. haha.. both of us were nt in proper attire.. haha.. when jumping, i feel a bit scary leh.. cos e floor like nt v stable.. or m i too heavy? lol.. haha.. ya.. jus now dunno talking bout wat, den dan ask me to lose weight.. den he change his mind bout it.. haha.. none of my friends wan me to lose weight.. haha.. after tt, i sat around for a while to c them play.. n e scene tt brian gt hit by lyn's shuttlecock was quite funny.. it left most of them on e floor laughing.. n brian on e floor in pain.. haha.. den i left at round 9.40pm.. jy was nice enough to 'bring' me to e bus stop.. haha.. cos i dunno e way.. haha.. thanks.. really appreciated.. haha.. den he hv to walk back e same way to his hostel after tt.. haha..

reached back hostel at round 10.40pm.. went to seminar rm str to sign up for sub-com.. i think i stink loh.. haha.. but no tym to go back change first.. haha.. fill up e form, went in for e 'interview'.. haha.. i put social first.. i didnt go for e hall production de.. cos seniors say v busy.. i noe social busy oso.. but fun ar.. haha.. srsly, i think i wrote too much for my related experience on e paper jus now.. haha.. den ask me imprompto qn.. -.- bout how to b creative when organising an event.. i did nt ans well.. haha.. i m nt a creative person.. haha.. den next qn was on wat i did when i plan for christmas last yr in my church.. well.. tt was e interesting one.. haha.. i shld hv said tt lah.. for e creative one.. forgot bout it.. but they seemed so interested in wat i say for e xmas.. haha.. den they told me tt social is v busy de.. most busy among all portfolio.. oh ya.. e first thing they say when i sat down was 'u r melissa's roommate right?'... lol.. i ask y m i known as her roommate? haha.. den after tt, went over to e secretarial table for tt interview.. tt one second choice. den e person was saying.. if u wan to stay in hostel n get rag in, financial n secretarial wun get u rag in de.. n she ask me if i get social, do i still wan to b in secretarial? i say no.. haha.. anw, no chance for me to get enough pts de.. so c whether can get rag nt loh.. but i join social is for fun.. haha.. think i'll jus join one sub-com to experience.. haha.. but i hope my studies dun get affected.. haha..

ya.. i was hungry.. obviously e prata isnt v filling.. haha.. so on e way back, i went to jurong pt to buy yam paste.. haha.. i hv been wanting to buy yam paste from there since like b4 sch start.. till now.. almost end of wk5 den get to buy.. haha.. cos e yam paste there comes in tis small clay container tt u can take home.. cool right? haha.. e person heat it up for me.. den by e tym i eat it, which is after e interview, bathing, washing of clothes, it has already turned cold.. cold le nt v nice leh.. haha.. cos bout 1hr45mins hv past.. haha.. my roomy jus bought back mac.. haha.. tml quiz.. dun feel like studying le.. i so happy i did calculus today lah.. cos for e past 1 wk, i hv been studying for tis quiz everyday.. den didnt really care bout other mod or do other mod.. except tut qns.. i m still scared for tml quiz.. but dun care le lah.. i hv studied my part.. still gt smth dunno.. tml ask friend.. gd results or nt, leave it to God.. haha.. stop worrying, stop stressing myself out.. haha..

oh ya.. walked past famous amos cookie at jurong pt today.. it was my fav cookies last tym.. b4 subway.. haha.. but now hor.. i think i prefer subway.. haha.. both r different.. one is hard cookie, another is a bit soft.. famous amos cookies r nice.. was considering shld i treat myself to 100g of it.. but no urge to eat it leh.. mayb cos i had my subway cookie.. haha.. so did nt buy.. haha..

today was a great day.. haha.. cos i met barker ppl.. haha.. hope to b able to meet them again real soon.. esp those tt did nt turn up today.. jus now, was a bit sad when leaving lah.. if tml no quiz, i'll stay slightly later.. but still cnt stay till 11pm or supper.. if nt no bus back to hostel.. haha.. i think last bus leave interchange at round 1220am.. haha.. i think i abit emo.. haha.. i was looking thru obs photos ytd.. haha.. srsly, i miss those times.. haha.. if u ask me to go thru everything again, e mud, e sun, e super heavy backpack, i'll do it if i hv e 13 of them w me.. haha.. by myself, NO WAY! haha.. i told dan tt i'm willing to go thru it again, he say i siao.. haha... wahaha.. i dun wan study.. i rather b at obs w them. haha.. ok.. back to reality.. obs is over.. we cant turn back tym.. so i hope tt we can cont our obs memories.. everyone, jia you! stay close! <3 barker. haha.. super long post..

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ok.. tired le.. haha.. i hv attempted bout 2 sections of those qns tt hv ans.. haha.. in preparation for my mas 111 quiz.. tis is preparation for proving.. nt a lot leh.. most of e qns i end up refering to e ans.. haha.. die.. haha.. k.. at least i accomplished some work.. though i dunno how useful it is in aiding me in my quiz tis fri..

anw, i read e news on yahoo.. regarding e suicide pact of e 2 students who committed suicide last yr.. i was speechless after reading it.. it's a tragic.. can we say tt they r naive? watched too much fantasy stories? or shld we say tt they hv a heart for e world? wanting to save e world? i dunno..i dunno wat to say. i jus feel kind of sad bout it.. it's really a waste tt 2 lives.. so young.. r lost in such a way.. glad tt e remaining ones did not fulfil e pact.. hai..

ok.. i had tis big mosquito bite on my right hand.. tt looks red n swollen.. haha.. n i hv a painful blister on my left leg.. cos my socks tt i wore for running today was too tight.. -.- haha.. my roomy so gd.. tml no lessons.. hai.. but nvm.. my lessons tml r in e afternoon.. shld i join hall production? ticketing/welfare or audio n music??? shld i join hall sub-com? social? roomy jus told me tt social is e most busy.. but if dun join social, e rest either i dun meet criteria or tt i nt interested.. haha.. aiyo. but i dun wan too busy.. hai....

Karen is happy.. haha.. she is proud of herself.. haha.. few things tt i m proud of myself today.. (none related to academic though.. :( )
1. i learnt some new sign lang.. esp my name.. haha..
2. i went for a jog after ages n still can jog for 20mins.. dunno e dist i covered lah.. haha..
3. i washed my highest record of clothes.. total 8 pieces.. haha.. i still gt skirt n face towel wanna wash.. but too many le.. so tml loh.. hahaha.. but pail too small.. so need to separate into 2 to 3 times.. i wash till back pain.. cos squatting.. really old le...
4. i decided to clean e shoe rack outside e rm n i did it!! haha.. n i swept e rm.. :) haha.. i shall wait till i bring another rag den clean e floor w it.. haha..
5. i have also signed up for YOG as volunteer.. haha

yay! 5 things.. hmm.. i shall add one more tonight.. hopefully i can do it.. tt is to do some revision for my quiz.. haha.. eh.. mayb i join hall production.. tt one recruitment is tml night so wun crash w barker.. actually only one sub-com i interested.. which is e social de.. haha.. i would wan welfare n finance de.. but i dun wan to b busy w hall stuff right b4 exams.. i look at e business manager.. remind me of council.. all these things remind me of council.. cos mostly i got play similar roles in council b4.. haha.. i noe joining one sub-com wun give me enough pts to stay in hostel next sem.. but i jus wanna join one to try try n try to hv fun.. n c how hall's life is like.. but i dun wan it to affect my studies too.. haha.. later block dinner.. den AGM for hall.. nt gng for tt.. but gng for dinner.. v hungry after run.. esp oso cos my lunch is nt filling.. only an egg prata n a plain one.. haha..

wat happened to my blog???? y gt those photobucket thingy on e left??????????? ah!! how to make them disappear???? but i figured clicking on them can lead u to e places respectively.. like e last box is for tag.. but it's so ugly!!! haha.. someone teach me how to remove it!! haha.

still recovering from e run.. haha.. went for a 20mins jog non-stop w yan ting.. ran from my hostel to slightly less than half of nie den u-turn back.. wah.. really super long didnt run le. leg a bit cramp while running.. den nearing e end of 20mins, v painful stitches.. haha.. aiyo.. old le.. haha.. but it's gd to run.. haha.. but after running or when running, will b a bit lazy to go run e next tym.. haha.. nice greenaries.. lol.. haha..

tis morning.. so stupid loh. cos as i walk towards e bus stop for shuttle bus, i can c e bus approaching.. cos i can c e bus stop b4 mine.. dist quite short.. unfair... my block is so far from e bus stop.. haha.. den there's a bus parked there.. so i thot it's coming lah.. den i ran again.. but as i reaching, i stop running.. i was thinking.. y e bus stop there for so long.. den in e end, found out tt e bus is jus parked there.. really park.. off service.. dots!!!! make me run in vain.. i think e bus stop ppl mus b looking at me n thinking y m i running when there's no bus coming? aiyo.. but i think it 'tricked' a few others too.. so bad.. park other place lah.. aiyo.. super lack of slp.. slept at 4plus ytd.. latest since sch start.. cos last night at think 2plus.. mel's friend, which became my friend too, came to our room.. den talk talk till bout 4am. zzzzzzzzzzzz... hai.. den tis morning lect was at 1030.. lucky nt a long day.. but i a bit stone lah.. wake up eyes a bit dry.. haha..

yay.. i had mr bean ice cream for today.. quite a lot lah.. haha.. though nt my fav ice cream.. haha.. had roti prata for lunch.. nt full.. haha.. den went for my calculus tut.. really hor.. i go there= dun go.. haha.. but i m happy today.. cos tis morning calculus lect i learnt smth!!! haha.. but nt calculus.. is sign lang.. haha.. my friend taught me some during e 10min break.. haha.. yay.. now i noe how to say my name in sign lang.. n ask 'what's you name'.. haha.. den i teach them e word 'can' and 'show'.. haha.. i form e word 'i can show you my name'.. haha.. i noe how to say 'thank you' too.. yay! sign lang is so fun n meaningful lah.. if gt a mod in it, i'll sure go take de.. but dun hv.. haha.. calculus was on triangle inequality n continunity.. haha.. anw.. e run freshened me up.. yay.. no tuition today.. cos i cancelled it.. as tutee reaching home 7plus.. den quite late to start tuition.. he still need eat dinner, bath, rest.. so i can stay in hostel n study for MAS111 quiz!! haha.. jus realised tt i dun hv much tym left to study for it.. but me n my friends agreed tt no matter how much u study, u still dun feel prepared n safe enough.. haha.. i gt tonight n tml morning n thur morning left.. tml night shld hv cca.. thur night meeting barker.. but hor.. i jus noe ytd tt e hall sub-com recruitment drive is on thur night too.. i dunno whether can join if dun go e recruitment drive nt leh.. hai.. but i wan meet barker..

anyway, i dunno y, but today munjee n jia xin said 'eh.. karen, u wear skirt today ar'.. haha.. they sound surprised tt i wear skirt.. they ask tis qn like i dun wear skirts de or tt super weird to c me in skirts or wat. haha.. nt my first tym wearing ar.. previous wks i oso gt wear ar.. n it's nt uncommon tt i wear skirts.. hahahaha.. though i may prefer wearing shorts in sch.. haha.. ya.. jia xin was asking me about skirts.. n make me realised tt i haven bought skirts for quite long.. haha.. mayb a yr or more le bah.. haha.. but i did bought a dress in july.. haha.. hai.. no go home today=washing to b done again.. n cnt bring my shoulder bag over.. so i only hv one bag - my backpack.. a lot of stuff or little stuff, oso use tt.. lol.. haha..

thur faster come.. i wan meet barker.. haha....

today is teleporting day again.. haha.. morning ran for e bus.. -.-.. haha.. e driver gt wait a while for me.. haha... i say thanks.. haha.. tis driver i always meet de.. haha.. den he say in chinese.. if u dun run i wun wait for u.. haha.. but i was panting on e bus.. -.- hai.. i really need to run again.. haha.. but it's nt nice running w bag n slippers.. haha.. den on e bus a thot suddenly struck me.. in life, if u r nt willing to make e effort, others wun b willing to help u.. jus like if u run, e bus driver saw ur effort, he may wait for u.. but if u jus cont to stroll, n dun seems to b making any effort, ppl wun b bothered to help u by waiting for u.. haha.. random.. k.. i was on e dot for my first tut.. haha.. den lucky it end like 5 mins early.. so after marking my attendance (n realising tt i m e one of e 3 in tt tut grp who is nt a bio major.. haha.. after i gt tis index.. i noe it's for e bio students.. but no choice lah.. i wan e slot.. so.. ya.. haha.. out of place.. n bio is something tt i m totally clueless de.. ) den as usual.. 10mins to teleport.. i think i getting slower.. lol.. old le.. den reach hor.. i was only bout 3mins late.. den e lesson b4 us still haven end.. wait for another 7mins den end.. aiyo.. make me rush.. -.- for e first tym for 3 lessons, i m entering e classroom tgt w e rest.. haha.. den prof ask me do one qn on e board.. truth table.. lucky.. it was an easy one.. haha.. lucky nt simplification.. cos cnt bring ans up.. mus do on e board.. somewat on e spot.. haha.. den after lesson, went for lunch...

den go for lab for programming.. aiyo.. today de alot i dunno how to do.. 2nd qn jiu stuck le.. den i start fidgetting.. n stoning.. look at my friend.. she oso stuck.. den e guy next to me ask me whether i noe nt.. i say dunno.. den i stone till super sian le.. i tell my friend.. let's ask e tutor.. haha.. so we try to raise our hands.. but everytym we r slower than other ppl.. -.- finally manage to get one of e tutor.. den he use jia xin's com to explain to us.. me n munjee gather around jia xin... e guy next to me oso come n c.. n his friend too.. haha.. so one short explain to 5 students.. haha.. we hv e idea.. we jus dunno how to type into e program.. den e next qn, i stuck again.. den stoning infront of e com again.. haha.. i keep stoning sia.. soon will turn into statue le lah.. den e guy next to me ask me whether i need help.. so i accepted his help.. haha.. he help me c thru my stuff den tell me wat to add n correct.. den i try on my own.. still error.. den i ask him again.. haha.. finally can le.. haha. at e end of e lab session, cos i dunno his name, i say 'A, thanks.' haha.. i noe v bad.. haha.. but it's nice to hv ppl who r willing to help.. i think he's local.. jia xin thinks he's malaysian.. but we confirm he's nt.... haha.. a helping hand does help brighten e day alittle.. haha..

den after lessons, print caculus notes.. haha.. use e com lab com.. finally can print one nice nice one.. w/o those weird symbols. haha.. den munjee so funny.. i say photocopy, he say wanna print his own... den he double set e settings.. print out is 6 slides in one pg n one sheet is 4 pgs.. so total 24 slides in one.. haha.. worse than jx.. jx tt tym double set is 16 slides in one.. haha.. den we went to chinese library.. cos mun jee n jx wan to top up their cashcard.. haha.. super funny.. tis tym is jx super blur.. haha.. den we went to meet yanting at canteen b.. suppose to study a bit, den eat dinner.. den they go for their stuff, i go back hostel.. but i only manage to do a few qns to revise for my fri quiz.. aiyo.. i still dunno how to approach e qn for proving jus by looking at e qn.. i m redo-ing tut qns.. but i realise a bit no use.. cos i somewat rmb e steps le.. so it's nt really knowing how to approach.. but somewat memorise le.. haha.. den i feel i eat alot today.. haha.. had rice n a cup of milo for lunch at bout 1230.. den at bout 4pm, buy 3 fried banana n i decided to try e bandung soya bean from mr bean.. nt bad.. i realised tt e no of houseflies hv significantly decreased till bout 4 tt i counted today.. haha.. but still, i m nt buying food from there yet.. eh.. e bandung soya bean nt bad lah.. but i m nt a fan of bandung.. haha... so perhaps original de better.. can taste e soya bean taste.. haha.. den i got bloated.. so a bit no appetite to eat dinner at bout 6pm.. but still buy beehoon w veggie.. haha.. so i think i eat a lot today.. but it's e drinks tt make me bloated.. haha..

yay.. gng to run tml.. but at a bad timing.. at bout 3pm.. 2-3pm is e hotest tym loh.. hai.. i tell my friend.. we go slow n steady.. haha.. so is jogging.. nt running.. cos we both long tym didnt run le.. she last ran when she is still a relief teacher at pj.. nt bad lah.. nt too long.. at most 2 months? me is like 10months? since after pe in jc ended? lol!!! haha.. i was telling my friend.. e only running i do now is running after shuttle buses.. well i think public bus oso.. so i shall change it to running after buses.. LOL! haha.. when i was on e way back to hostel, i ran after e bus again.. -.- n tis is after i ate.. nt gd.. hai.. haha.. n e bus stop hv no proper pavement leading to it.. so everytime students run on e road.. so dangerous hor? haha. k.. i shall attempt some txtbks qn later.. i m really getting scared by tis fri's quiz.. ar.. like some major exams sia.. i only noe it's half an hr, 3 qns.. all tt we learn so far.. tt is proving n truth table n simplification of propositions.. hai.. proving can kill.. n it's 10percent.. it's our first quiz.. dunno wat to expect.. arh! haha..

Yo! haha.. back in hostel.. back to my 2nd home! haha.. actually there r things i like bout staying in hostel.. i can b alone.. haha.. hv quiet moments, b independent.. haha.. like washing my own clothes. haha.. but when i m at home, i m lazy again.. haha.. well.. e sian thing is tt i wash my clothes today when i came back to hostel.. hai.. cos i came str from a gathering.. k.. i shall nt jump right into today.. start from ytd. haha.. like i say.. it's a busy weekend!

Sat
busy busy day! haha.. morning go cg.. den rush home.. reach home 1.30pm.. den faster eat lunch den rush shuling's bdae present.. haha.. was hopping to b able to catch a short nap.. but couldn't.. den left home at 3pm.. meeting my dear sisters n wei jie for jamming.. haha.. it's a once a month thingy but we did nt hv it last month.. so 2 months le.. haha.. n tt's oso bout e tym tt i didnt touch my guitar.. except e previous post tt i touch a bit.. haha. but 2 months didnt touch electric guitar.. haha.. so while playing first 2 songs i was struggling.. cos i jus cant press e right chords.. haha.. after tt, i decide to sit down.. haha.. den can play better.. haha.. standing nt so gd lah.. haha.. den we managed to video some songs. but distortion quite bad.. haha.. i always cnt hear my own guitar de.. n from e video, wei jie was next to me.. so obvious tt he is e pro n i m e 'nt-so-gd' de.. n it's so obvious tt there's smth wrong w e way i m strumming.. haha.. but anw, enjoyed myself.. 2 hrs.. slightly more than tt.. it was great!!! haha.. nice form of de-stress too.. haha.. though sometimes they can suddenly get so high tt they go mad.. haha.. it was oso a meet up w my sisters since we last met almost a month ago bah.. time flies.. haha.. den we end jamming at bout 6.50pm.. i m dead.. haha.. cos my mum is waiting for me at yishun mrt station.. suppose to meet her 6.45pm.. haha.. so faster go pay den go bus stop.. wait super long for e bus.. called mum.. she was nagging n nagging.. haha.. reached yishun interchange at bout 7.20pm.. mum was saying she waited an hr.. haha..actually less lah. i apologised.. but she still nag.. haha.. go shuling's house.. i give her brother tuition, my mum reblonde her hair.. den she oso complain to shuling's mum tt she waited for me for 1 hr.. :( so after i finish my tuition, need wait for her to reblonde finish.. manage to complete my econs tut.. haha.. so happy.. cos i manage to complete my maths tut on fri night.. these r e 2 tut tt i need to complete for mon's lessons.. haha.. was so worried tt i hv no tym to complete.. but i still need to study for my upcoming test.. den cos i didnt eat dinner again.. haha.. most of e tym shuling's parents will prepare or buy dinner for me.. but ytd did nt.. her mum say wanna ask shuling's brother to go buy for me.. i say dun need.. nvm.. tuition first.. haha.. den at bout 10plus.. shuling came back.. learning tt i didnt eat dinner, she cook her ai xin dinner for me.. haha.. so sweet hor.. haha.. i was teasing her.. cook for me b4 u turn 19.. haha.. cos today is her bdae.. haha.. during our jamming session.. we actually plan to give her a surprise.. tt is for e last song, we'll play bdae song for her.. den someone will bring in a bdae cake.. but cos we nt sure whether food allowed, so we dun hv cake.. but still singing e song.. haha.. bear was asking e 3 of us who r guitarist to play bdae song. we dunno how to play.. so we went online to search for e chords.. den sat.. i say mayb jus one of us play will do.. so shuwen did e playing.. she forgot our cue.. haha.. den we trying to hint her... haha.. but in e end, shuling was still surprised.. n i think she shy.. haha.. so she join in e playing of e bdae song w her drums.. haha.. glad tt she enjoyed herself.. :) so after my mum finish reblonde, we left for home.. reach home slightly after 12..soon after, i go slp le.. haha.. cos today need wake up early.. n it's almost a whole day out for me..

sunday (today)
church in e morning.. tis wk start service tym push forward half an hr.. den after service.. went home for lunch.. took a nap.. haha.. which was bout 3 hrs.. haha. dunno y today a bit of headache on e right side.. weird.. ya.. den after wake up, try to read a bit of my pscyo txtbk.. e only txtbk tt i put at home.. haha.. till now i still haven read finish one chapters.. by now, already need to read bout 7 chapters le.. haha.. den at bout 3plus near 4.. left to meet my sisters again to celebrate shuling's bdae.. haha.. was deciding whether to go not e past few days.. but in e end still decide to go.. after all, it's a sister's bdae.. mus go ar.. haha.. we went to bugis to eat steamboat.. i was later than them.. cos i came from home.. they came from church.. they nearer.. haha.. indeed.. different church cause us to hv fewer chances to meet up.. n i m starting to b less aware of wat's gng on back there.. afterall, though it's jus 3months plus.. many things hv happened bah.. haha.. we ate e steamboat from bout 5 to 8pm.. haha.. den e staff were like trying to chase us out.. lol.. haha.. actually i always think steamboat nt worth it.. haha.. but it's for e fun n e gathering.. haha.. i carried all my barang barang to bugis.. cos i heading back to hostel straight after.. haha.. nt too many stuff lah.. but gt shoe bag.. haha.. bringing shoe cos i m gonna run tis wk!!! haha.. i found some1 to run w me le.. haha.. n i hv my laptop.. haha.. oh ya.. my loaf of bread is squashed.. :( haha.. after steamboat.. they actually wan to head to geylang for durians.. but i cant join them.. if nt i'll reach back hostel quite late.. as of it, i already reaching back at 9plus le.. haha.. my dear sisters r planning a lot of stuff too.. haha.. cos they hol.. oh no.. i forsee a lot of activities coming my way.. but quizes n exams r coming too.. :( but i cant wait to meet up w barker!! ICE 3!!! haha.. yum yum.. haha.. e talk during e steamboat was nice.. haha.. cos we all gang up to shoot sze huey.. haha.. apparently, i asked a qn tt they asked her b4 i reach.. wahaha.. haha.. she so bad.. throw e small chilli into my soup.. so spicy loh.. make my lips feel burnt.. haha.. i wan ICE!!! jus hope tt nth crops up on tt day n i can join them.. haha.. sometimes, w wonderful friends, even doing e most silly or stupid or unenjoyable stuff can b so enjoyable.. haha..

k.. it's a long post.. haha.. as usual.. haha.. i guess i may cut down on blogging.. or it'll b random stuffs.. haha.. will blog when there's special happenings.. haha.. but everyday, there r 'special' things happening. haha.. k.. i shall decrease on random blogging.. haha.

obey out of love..

happy. haha.. cos i received a small slice of cheesecake from breadtalk from my tutee when i went for tuition today.. haha.. i didnt had proper dinner.. cos no tym ar.. haha.. so jus bought a piece of 'chinese pancake'.. haha.. well.. it's these type of small gifts n thots tt count... some things jus cnt b measured by monetary means.. if i wanted a high paying job, most likely teaching is nt a choice.. e money earned is nt easy.. as compared to e effort put in.. i dun expect gifts or wat.. but i'll b happy when they r able to do well.. aferall, my role is to help n guide them along.. though my tutee did nt say wat e cake was for.. haha.. but i noe e thots.. :) haha..

my day was affected by 3 students.. 1 i hv mentioned above.. really touch my heart.. i hope tt in future, as i start on my teaching career, i'll hold on to e belief i hv for taking up tis career.. some satisfaction cnt b bought w money.. some gratitude jus comes from e heart.. sometimes jus a few words r enough.. e 1st student was another of my tutee.. nt doing well.. may hv prob passing overall.. well.. kind of sad when i hear it lah.. though i took him after his mid yr.. so quite limited things i can do.. but his improvement is nt significant enough.. hai.. actually was thinking shld i cont nt.. since make no difference to e end result le.. but no.. i mus cont.. a teacher nv gives up on her student.. n will stick w e student to e v end.. 3rd student was jus now.. a student from my relief stint.. actually only went into his class 2 tyms.. but he likes to talk to me bout future stuff like jc,poly all these when he is only sec 1.. n he will inform me of some things.. haha.. he jus told me tt he passed his chinese (though i dun teach him chinese lah).. haha.. it's great to hv students sharing their joy n probs w u.. haha.. though some ppl may feel tt one already hv enough prob.. still mus care bout others' prob.. haha.. but a teacher is there to help student n b involved w their lives.. i dun wan to b one tt jus go into e class, deliver e lessons n after e lesson end, wat happens to u is none of my business.. tt's nt e way tt things shld b.. haha.. ok.. i m hving a 'teacher fever'.. lol.. haha..

yay.. i did paid attention during mas 111... haha.. 110 did pay attention a bit lah.. trying to figure out some of e stuff ourselves.. haha.. after e lect, we went to hv lunch at e executive cafe.. haha.. some of my friends wan e dim sum buffet.. but me n zy (boy) too full from e drinks from mac.. so we chose ala carte.. haha.. fri is our only foodie day.. haha.. only 2 hrs break for lunch.. haha.. n we r at north spine! where e food r.. haha.. we always at south spine.. only pathetic canteen b.. which ppl say food nt nice.. n e housefly mr bean.. haha.. busy weekend coming up.. need study.. first quiz next fri.. for foundation in maths.. 10% of total marks.. same weightage as mid-term!!!! ahhhhhhhhhh! haha.. i wanna study!!!!