ah.... i m tired.. physically n mentally.. hai.. tym once again is nt on my side.. all 3 mod, i m only prepared bout 30% each.. i m so dead.. i feel like giving up.. wat i m reading isnt getting in.. i feel so tired.. hai... but God still put some ppl around me who sent me jiayou msgs.. hai.. i need to jiayou.. but no oil to add.. hai.. e encouragements r losing effect too.. hai.. jus 2 more days.. but so hard to endure.. i dun dare to think how i m gng to go into e exams hall w such preparations.. hai..



will update bout wat happened on over e past few days.. namely e chalet n js's bdae after my exams.. n i give thanks tt at least i m able to put off one concern for e tym being till jan. hai..

hmm.. i m typing tis quick post.. b4 i leave e sch soon.. n head for pasir ris.. e scdf e chalet.. forgot e exact name.. it's a nice place.. our ezekiel camp was held there last yr too.. it'll bring back lots of memories.. esp meetin up w them again.. after 6 months for some.. hmm.. but it may nt b a gd tym to catch up on old stuff.. yea.. e memories r gd.. but can b ____ too.. hai.. dunno whether i'll get internet access there nt.. mayb if i walk to e shopping malls.. haha..

i have only complete one chapter on student t test on one sample.. e past dunno how many hrs.. i m so dead.. i jus cant speed things up.. nt tt i m nt concentrating or wat.. hai.. how? dun need slp tonight? by hook or by crook, i need settle tis elective by today.. cos i still hv 2 electives tt i haven start w.. ah.. so i wun b blogging till sometime tml bah.. ya.. hope things turn out fine.. tonight n tml.. crucial tym.. n somewat my main fears.. yea.. hmm.. some of u noe e reasons y.. hmm.. yea.. ok.. abit nervous now.. lol.. haha.. ok.. gonna go.. bye..

hmm.. no mac breakfast today.. cos e mac in ntu opened at 10plus n started selling lunch meals.. cos today is public hol.. n they r severely short of manpower.. so e queue was super long.. hv to wait till round 2pm b4 we get our food.. cos dun wanna waste tym queuing. haha.. n cos today is public hol, no internal shuttle bus.. -.- so i had to walk from my hall to mac area.. -.- hai..

hmm.. i luv my cam.. haha.. cos it's my portable scanner.. haha.. i hv things need to copy from txtbk. e proving parts.. cos i dun wan bring back my txtbk.. so no tym to copy, wat do u do? take out cam n take shots of it n upload into ur com! haha.. thus it is my portable scanner. haha.. i was abit siao ytd.. talking to e beetle in my rm.. saying hi to it.. haha.. a beetle flew in.. n slept on e floor.. inbetween my roomie n my bed.. haha.. ok.. lunch break over.. get back to studying.. i wanna complete my 4 chapters of pyscho today..

hai.. i woke up nt feeling v gd.. guess it's cos of e feelings i went to bed w.. hai.. hv to control myself from doing smth.. nope.. nt now.. nt today.. nope.. how i wish i could.. but i couldnt.. hai..
my prayer today..
Lord, You sees my heart. You know my fears and what i am going thru. I just pray that no matter what, Lord, You grant me courage to face it, strength to get pass and a deep trust in You. Lord, i know You will be with me thru it all. Help me just surrender my fears to You. Lord, may Your peace and joy be with me and continue to shower Your love on me. You know the things that are yet to happen and You are in control of everything. Lord, help me with my emotions and calm me down. I have alot to study yet many concerns in my mind and heart now. About later tonight, about tml morning n my exams.. Lord, You know them all. i just pray that i'll be able to concentrate on studying first and entrust all other things into Your almighty hands. Cause things are just not within my control and there's nothing much i can do except to trust in You and Your guidance. Cause worrying aint gonna help and it's a journey of faith to trust and depend on You. That You will bring me thru and that Your grace is sufficient for me. Thank You Lord.
In Jesus' Name,
Amen. :)

an extract from mel's blog..

An extract from an email from prof.

This effect is similar to an entropic factor:
why is your room usually untidy?
Because there are more different ways in which it can be untidy than ways that it can be tidy.

haha.. my reply when she first said tis to me was: tt's bcos u haven discover e many ways of keeping e rm tidy..

hai.. i m starting to talk senseless stuff.. i better talk less.. or shut up.. b4 i say e wrong things.. nt in e right frame of mind to talk.. haha.. i think these will b for these few days bah.. esp when my mind is nt processing wat comes out of my mouth or wat i type..

hai... when m i updating tis blog so often??? i hv log in n out dunno how many countless tym.. stupid.. now i really feel tt staying in hall on a night/day tt u dun feel like staying really make a person mood quite bad.. ok.. tis shld b e LAST post for today.. come on.. u hv smth to look forward to tml night.. n next wed..

oh no.. i jus decided to attempt to make my stay in hall tonight more pleasant by pampering myself w 45mins of e 10pm police show.. cos no one was at e lounge.. but looks like it aint a gd idea.. first of all.. today de nt v exciting.. 2nd, i feel guilty n stress watching tt show.. cos e lounge is a place where everyone in our block can c tt rm.. n from lounge, u can c almost everyone's door too.. though i m nt alone staying in hall today.. cos quite a few ppl staying too.. den like kind of stress when u feel cos u noe ppl r studying.. den i here watching tv.. -.- during comerecial break, i jus look out den i feel under pressure.. haha.. so i quickly escaped from tt place.. after e show end.. haha.. ah.. cant even relax a little.. hai.. nvm.. i shall.. aiya.. i oso dunno wat.. hai.. soon.. soon tis nightmare will b over n i'll treat myself better.. i shall treat myself better w food for e next few days.. in e meantime.. haha.. ok..
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jus watched a video.. posted it to youtube.. touching one..

thanks to e hot sun tis morning.. my clothes were fully dried in less than 2 hrs.. haha.. e spinning by Mr washing machine helped too.. haha..

i m so dead.. i spent e whole afternoon reading jus a chapter of my psycho on z-test.. zzzzzzzzzzzzz.. -.- i hv 4 more chapters to read.. -.- n i hv foundation n 801 tt i hv nt started yet.. great job.. hai.. feels sour tt she hv to stay in sch on e night on e eve of a public hol n almost e whole day of e public hol.. hai.......... happy public hol.. :(

n thanks to e sch.. from distracting me by sending tt email on next sem courses.. i hv such a disgusting time table.. CONFIRM 5 days week.. w 2 8.30am lects.. at least.. -.- e earliest i hv was 930 tis sem.. n only one day.. :( n i'll still hv 2 labs.. for calculus n linear algebra.. :( n e exams dates r shitty too.. my 3 maths core r consecutive.. n all morning papers.. :( i was telling my friend.. next sem mus tune body clock to b a morning person.. cos of e 830 lects.. n exams in e morn.. n forensic is nt offered next sem.. n e 'basics' of chem aka pre requistes for most mod r nt offered next sem.. great job.. no chem mod at all for yr 1.. i cant b taking those chim chim de ar.. wan me to die ar.. hai.. but at least, i hv a mod tt hv no final exam next sem.. tt's e only gd thing.. but tt is on communication.. may end up w lots of writings.. :( ok.. next sem is gonna b worse.. esp w linear algebra.. n calculus next sem wun b easy too.. e other mod will b a higher level of foundation maths.. triple die.. ok.. i hv complained enough.. tym to hit back to e bks.. n nt e bed.. :( hmm.. i had an apple pie from mac today.. yumyum.. it has been ages since i ate it.. haha.. i redeemed an ice latte... it taste yucks n soon diluted by e melted ice.. mac coffee r no gd.. haha.. or mayb i prefer flavoured coffee.. like mocha or hazenut fraccupiano (dunno spelling la) or hazenut dunno wat. haha... nt a big coffee fan.. but oh well.. sometimes it helps to freshen up alittle? or improve mood a little? dunno.. haha.. haiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii.......... die........ well.. at least i'll b studying w friends tml.. in sch.. :( but at mac area.. nt bad lah. haha.. n mayb i'll eat e apple pie again. haha.. shall go over earlier.. n mayb hv a mac breakfast... haha.. my mp3 went low batt when i haven even listen for half an hr.. -.- it was a bit noisy today.. hai.. go back to readings.. i dun like readings.. tt's y i m nt cut out for humans mod.. haha.. i prefer do do do.. haha.. maths i oso dun like to read. haha.. but e readings from arts mod r much more.. more wordy too.. but can b interesting.. but nt when chionging to finish up b4 exams.. they make me wanna slp.. -.-

ok.. srsly.. enough grumbling. haha.. becoming a grumbly old lady le.. ah..

hahaha.. i hv jus sent a few pieces of clothes to e washing machine.. haha.. first tym using sia.. but cos i only hv 3 pieces of clothes.. so i ask my roomie whether she gt clothes wanna wash nt.. so yup.. 45 mins time.. now left 20mins le.. haha.. lazy to wash.. but dun dare throw all clothes in.. cos mostly black.. scare later e colour run.. haha.. n i lazy to bring back so many clothes.. all e more when i m travelling to e camp on fri night.. n to hospital on sat morning.. dun wanna bring so many things.. already gt laptop n some clothes le.. haha.. nt as if e 3 pieces will help alot.. but... oh well.. mayb is 看不顺眼.. so many unwashed clothes.. haha. i shall leave my clothes in e hands of Mr washing machine.. haha.. getting more lazy to wash clothes.. now isnt e tym to b aunty.. hv to b a full pledged student.. haha..

ok.. i m crapping alot. haha.. was on e phone w lyn for a recorded tym of 3hrs n 5mins ytd. haha.. v long tym didnt talk on e phone for so long le.. haha.. i was kind of crappy last night.. evident from e email i sent out following tt too.. haha.. well.. e slp n shower still haven take all e crappiness away.. ah well.. i'll hit back to my bks.. n meet zys later to study.. hmm.. tml is a public hol.. but i'll b in sch.. :( my roomie went back home last night.. so i was alone last night.. feel kind of weird.. cos v v long tym dun hv only me left at night in hostel.. haha.. i forgot when was e last tym.. haha.. anw, she's back.. haha.. n she's off to study.. k.. tt's all for now.. as posted on fb.. i m 128 hours away from freedom. 7680 mins away.. 460800 seconds away.. now less than tt le.. cos tym has been ticking away.. haha..

hmm.. i hv finished 3 papers.. half le.. hmm.. n i get a half tym break of 4 days.. b4 i hv 3 papers.. hai.. i m so gonna die.. haha.. cos i hv lost my momentum b4 today's paper.. n today's calculus.. can pass lah.. provided e bell curve dun shift cos everyone's passing it.. but there r qns tt i left blank too.. but anw, it's ok.. 3 hv past.. i didnt come out of any feeling gd bout wat i did during e papers.. -.- ah.. nvm.. hmm.. i shall study hard later, tml n on fri.. den fri night go find my sisters n brothers from my previous church at their camp. :) stay over for e night n leave on sat morning... hmm. den sat night c how first.. hmm.. sun shld b coming back to sch in afternoon to study.. -.- hai.. but shld b meeting friends in sch to study.. nvm.. after next tue, i can say gdbye to studying in sch.. at least for a few wks.. haha.. n i can stop eating bread for a while.. after tis wk.. sick of e bread le..

met huiting after papers.. she was in e same venue as me.. but different paper.. haha.. i was keeping a lookout for her.. cos i saw asta.. they same course.. sure tgt.. den she pop out next to me.. haha.. so long didnt c her.. haha.. we gave each other a hug.. :) haha.. hmm.. now my clique only left me n zy(gal) hv 3 papers left.. after next mon, i'll b e only one w 2 papers left.. but oh well.. in 1 wk's time.. at tis tym, i'll b enjoying myself w barker! haha.. i shall nt worry bout e grades first.. chiong finish remaining de.. den enjoy myself den face e music. haha..

God is great! haha.. hmm.. cos He places wonderful people by my side.. jus when e goings get a bit tough.. hmm.. can say i gt kind of stressed up looking at pyp for calculus.. it's by RIGHT, e most understandable n manageable mod of all my core.. but it has gone by LEFT.. hai.. so i was in my rm.. stressing out.. fears n anxieties.. at a loss.. gng nuts le.. esp being in my rm for long. it becomes oppressing somehow.. jus when i m v stressed up, i received an sms from my nv er.. haha.. saying tt long tym didnt keep in touch w me le.. n say she misses me.. haha.. hmm.. i miss her too.. shall meet up w her after my exams.. haha.. den oso hv jy n zy(boi) helping me w some qns online.. den after tt went to meet zys for dinner.. relaxed a little during dinner.. den study w them a while.. though i can hv sudden stress attacks.. but prayers shall b e weapons against them! haha.. nope.. no breaking down now.. nt e tym to.. haha.. n was oso encouraged when lyn sms me.. it's really nice of her to offer her help n indeed, she's a great help in many areas.. haha.. when e gng gets tough, God sent ppl to me.. to help me.. n get me thru.. even if it's jus a few mins or 2 hrs.. though i m back in my rm now.. alone.. w 2 more papers to look thru n memorising to do.. n stress attacks anytime... srsly.. ANYTIME.. n slightly on e verge of tears.. but i'll survive tis night.. n tml.. n e days to come till next tue night.. i m pulling stunts like my roomie.. cos like her, i hv lects tt i NEVER c b4.. haha.. my psycho.. which i'll chiong after tml's paper.. i m freaking out.. but like i said, my weapon will b prayers.. yea.. God is wonderful n great.. thanks for all those tt God has placed in my life.. n thanks for e ppl who helped me today.. though u guys may nt noe it.. haha.. it can jus b a simple sms.. or e very presence of u by my side.. haha.. though i hope u guys did nt end up being stressed by me.. haha.. k.. i shall get back to pyp..

1 But now, this is what the LORD says—
he who created you, O Jacob,
he who formed you, O Israel:
"Fear not, for I have redeemed you;
I have summoned you by name; you are mine.

4 Since you are precious and honored in my sight,
and because I love you,
I will give men in exchange for you,
and people in exchange for your life.
- Isaiah 43

:)

Labels: Bible verses

hmm.. tis is bad. gng into e exams hall.. staring at e qns.. more than half dunno how to do.. really scary.. n programming.. cant crap much.. so i try to whack as much as i can. haha..

hmm.. jus hope to b able to shift w e crowd. haha.. b where most ppl r.. den i'll b some sort safe.. so when coming out of e exams hall n hearing tt most ppl cnt do q4, i feel somewat more 'safe'.. haha.. but tis is provided my other qns r w e crowd too. haha.. anw, it's over.. dun think lo.. more to come.. hope e same scenrio wun happen again.. it's really scary to go into exams hall nt noeing how to do alot of qns.. hai..

u noe.. in jc.. still can fail one or 2 subs for ur exams.. as long as a lvls pass can le.. but now hor.. y uni so difficult? n cant even like fail a mod.. haha.. perhaps i m nt cut out for uni.. hai.. i m nt a smart person.. there's no way tt i can perform above avg.. being an avg is already a prob.. but oh well.. a step at a tym loh.. seeing how God leads.. haha.. hmm... even if i hv to face e consequences of performing below expectation, i believe God will still lead a way out. when i m at my wits ends, it's e beginning for God.. :)

tis is a horrible cycle.. is tis gng to b repeated for every sems? ah.. u like tt? hai.. y uni stuff so difficult? hmm.. huiting's fav phrase.. is e things to diffcult for me or m i too stupid? haha.. forgot e exact words le lah.. haha.. but oh well.. i m nt stupid. jus nt smart too. haha.. so avg mayb. haha..

hmm.. gng to catch a nap b4 studying for calculus again ltr.. argh.. pls dun fall sick now.. hai.. my roomie is blessed w wonderful friends.. her friend is so patient to summarise e stuff for her on e night right b4 exams.. till 3plus am leh.. so gd.. so patient.. i told her friend tt he shld b a teacher.. cos he can explain quite creatively, clearly n is V V patient! more patient than me.. haha..

hmm.. on my way back to sch.. 172 suddenly stop at one of e bus stop.. when no one is boarding.. n e driver got out.. den i thot bus break down or wat.. scare me.. it's nt a gd place to break down.. it's along e rd b4 jalan bahar.. tengah air base tt stretch.. there is more deserted than jalan bahar lah.. haha.. i recalled once e bus i m in, 190.. on e way to orchard, broke down on highway.. lol.. lucky my friend was w me.. haha.. so we stood by e highway waiting for e next 190 to come. haha.. but in today's case.. e driver approached a passenger n said things to him.. den he gt back to his seat.. as i was sitting quite far away.. i didnt hear wat he said.. haha.. *curious*

ok.. i dunno how many things i studied gt in today.. cos i was watching tv n studying at e same tym... -.- ah.. k.. i need to do serious studying now..

ok.. i m back here.. nth is getting in.. trying to make some sense out of programming.. how to memorise programming? hai. i look at 2008 paper.. die.. previous yrs slightly better a bit. ah.

Who am I
Who am I, that the Lord of all the earth
Would care to know my name
Would care to feel my hurt
Who am I, that the Bright and Morning Star
Would choose to light the way
For my ever wandering heart

Not because of who I am
But because of what You've done
Not because of what I've done
But because of who You're

I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
A vapor in the wind
Still You hear me when I'm calling
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling
And You've told me who I am
I am Yours, I am Yours

Who Am I, that the eyes that see my sin
Would look on me with love and watch me rise again
Who Am I, that the voice that calmed the sea
Would call out through the rain
And calm the storm in me

I am Yours
Whom shall I fear
Whom shall I fear
'Cause I am Yours
I am Yours

my identity: i belong to God
my destiny: to be a witness for Him.

i am His. nt cos of wat i hv done but cos of who He is. :)

Labels: Songs: Who am i

at e end of e day, wat truly matters in tis world?
it's our relationship w God n e lost souls out there...Lord, give me a heart of compassion for e lost souls, to win them back for You. so that they can be saved.
i like to sing 'How Great is our God' in church w everyone.. haha.. cos it feels great when everyone sing e song from their heart, expressing how great God is.. tt type of feeling is beyond description. haha.. tt outcry to God tt He is great! haha.. :) haha.. when we make tym to go for day of prayer, service, etc, w e right attitude of longing to hv a fresh encounter w God, God will bless tt tym.. haha. i hv been blessed w 3 wonderful day of prayers so far.. though 3 hrs is kind of long.. but definitely worth it. haha..

ahhh.. i need to get back to studying. cant seems to study today.. ah.. mayb cos it's programming.. haven touch it for some tym.. seems more alien to me.. it was alien to start w.. now, it's worse.. ah.. mon.. die. haha.. n my sleepiness doesnt help things.. i more n more pro at dozing off in any positions. haha.. n w/o myself knowing it. haha.. n a flu seems to b coming my way.. ah.. i dunno y so sleepy.. i slept for round 8 hrs today. haha. i can hit e snooze button till it stop snoozing.. lol.. tt means i can snooze for 1-2 hrs. haha. ah.. though 8 hrs slp but nt sufficient.. cos nt gd enough rest.. cos keep hving dreams.. -.- i wan a nice slp w/o dreams.. gd or bad dreams.. i dun wan.. haha.. i jus wan peaceful slp.. haha..

no matter how busy or how tight time is, tym w God cnt b compromised.. :)
n dear friends, i m praying for ur salvation.. :)
yay.. jus checked email.. haha.. my quiz 2 for foundation was above avg!! haha.. for once.. i m above.. n nt below.. haha.. i thot e quiz was relatively easy compared to mid-term.. it really is.. haha.. prof oso say so.. n i thot my grades were avg. haha.. yay!!! sry.. jus let me b happy for tis once.. cos it's really RARE tt i m above avg.. though 10% only. haha.. yay.. thanks God! haha..

mum is now thinking of gng back to m'sia on e 2nd.. NO WAY!!!! i told her no way! too bad... if she wans me to go w her, she'll hv to wait to e 3rd.. i cant control which day we come back.. but i can control which day we gng! nth is gng to stop my meeting up w barker on 2nd!!! tt's wat i m looking frw to.. w much anticipation.. even if i fall sick, even if there's flood (erm.. hope dun hv.. haha).. i'll oso turn up.. but hor.. if gt flood.. ltr they oso dun turn up le.. haha.. already nt happy tt i cant come back b4 sun.. hai.. i guess go there.. i'll b some sort cut off from e world.. w no internet.. hmm.. mayb a gd tym to hv some quietness n retreat.. haha.. since i'll b missing my cg's retreat cos of me gng back to m'sia... :( hai.. it's a long ride there.. :( hmm.. only thing i like is to ride on e motorbike there. haha..

hmm.. there's a lot of things i wanna do after exams.. (not in sequences or pirority!!)
1. brush up on my guitar skills.. srsly.. i need to! haha..
2. relax, take tym to refocus n set my pirorities right again.. after a hetic semester.. hv to set things right b4 sem 2 start.. or it'll b another mad rush..
3. spend tym to catch up w different grp of friends.. jtc, sec, jc, previous church friends n sisters..
4. meet up w barker.. :)
5. plan hall xmas.. :(
6. do xmas gifts.. for so many ppl! haha..
7. xmas church involvement..
8. start gng to chinese service... n c whether my call is to serve there. haha.. (afterall, i was from a chinese church)
9. spend tym slping!!! haha..
10. take more photos w my camera.. my camera haven been to e beach yet. haha.. haven take sea pics. n nice beautiful skies.. nice flowers.. hai.. so many pics my cam haven take..
11. read bks tt i hv bought long ago.. but always say no tym to touch..
12.. do some ex.. haha.. mayb will start skipping.. haha.. (still can grow taller? haha)
13. give my eyes a break from looking at e com.. haha..
n many more! ah.. exams period is a tym of madness.. it's driving me nuts.. haha.. i dun wan to noe my results till i enjoyed enough.. haha.. of course..i still hv lots of tuition on hand.. :( will give more lessons during hol so i'll b 'freer' during sch terms.. lol.. seems so activity packed! haha.. but most impt is still to take a slower pace of life.. yeah.. catch up on tym w God n friends.. n slp.. these r e most impt.. :) hol faster come! haha.. tis is madness.. 4 days to prepare for 2 maths core n another 4 days to prepare for 3 papers!!! less than 4.. cos minus church tym, slping tym.. 'socialise' tym.. lol.. n family tym.. hai.. think i staying in hall next wk till sat morn.. :( i dun like. i feel like gng nuts couping myself in e rm.. :(

a sentence said by one of the pastors today.. 'sermon was not preached. but sermon was illustrated.' meaningful n nice. another pastor oso close off e session reminding us nt to b waving a lamp tt has no fire in it.. reignite e fire in ur heart..

found e url to tis quiz from emily's blog.. did it once b4 while i was still working.. haha.. wanted to find back tis quiz.. but didnt go find. haha.. anw, tis is e result for today de..

Your view on yourself:
You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:
You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

Your views on education
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:
You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.

Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.


hahaha.. a few different from last tym de.. these r those tt r different.. from e one i did sometime in may tis yr..

How do you view success:
Success in your career is not the most important thing in life. You are content with what you have and think that being with someone you love is more than spending all of your precious time just working.

What are you most afraid of:
You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

hahahaha.. i m awake! haha.. actually i didnt slp earlier ytd.. -.- time flies.. haha.. b4 i knew it, it was 1plus n i haven start studying.. haha..

anw, reason y i gt up w slightly less than 6 hrs of slp is cos of breakfast!! haha.. i wun wake up to cook.. but i'll wake up to eat esp when it's delivered.. haha.. wahahaha.. for once, i get e luxury to hv breakfast delivered to my door.. :D haha.. thanks to my block head.. who was coming in to sch.. n helped me gt mac breakfast.. hahaha.. n bring to my doorstep! haha.. woke me up.. n i wanted to go back to slp.. but looking at e hashbrown.. n thinking it wun taste nice if cold, i got up! haha.. after nice breakfast, back to studying! yay! feel blessed. :)

oh ya.. ytd my roomie was telling me tt her friend say i look zai.. den i was like huh?! y so random.. den i say he gt c me study b4 meh? den she tell her friend tt she told me he say i look zai.. den my response lah.. den he say i gt e scholarly look.. den he cont.. but looks can be deceiving.. so... hahaha.. scholarly look??? didnt noe i gt tt.. lol! den my roomie say cos i look nerdy loh.. -.- who says scholars look nerdy? haha.. anw, i nt zai at all lah.. haha.. my another friend is worried tt he cnt hit gpa of 3.0.. same course as me de.. i m worried i cnt hit 3.5.. n he reminded me.. ya loh.. u gt ts to uphold.. nt tt i need reminder of it now.. cos i kept reminding myself since dunno when.. tt's my main source of STRESS.. nt motivation.. haha. k. back to my hotcakes.. though they r nt hot anymore.. haha..

jus finished my first paper.. it's my first full exams format uni paper.. as in first end of sem paper.. hmm.. it's my elective.. econs.. by right, my jc knowledge of it, H2 econs, shld b more than sufficient for tis course.. principles of economics.. yet, there's a lot of things tt i dun understand.. e main terms r those tt i seen b4 n learn b4.. things seem so alike yet so different.. tis is e 噢米 of uni.. same things.. look similar.. but on e hand, it's looks different too.. n den u get confused n lost. n ur concepts start to b challenged.. lol. haha.. nt enough tym to finish.. some qns dunno.. if those calculations which i was hoping to gain marks on, turn out i dunno.. alot of diagrams drawing. n explanation.. ah.. wateva... was hoping tt my electives can help pull up my gpa abit. esp tis elective.. took tis cos ppl were saying.. w jc econs, tis shld b no prob.. boo.. no.. hmm.. my 40% for tis mod was quite gd le.. so i was hoping to get like B+ to help w my maths core.. cos my maths core r below avg now.. so i hope it get neutralised somehow till i still can get B overall.. but well.. think no hope le.. i did a quick calculation.. mayb borderline pass only.. but my calculation r always conservative figures.. as in i'll rather minus more than less.. ah.. wateva.. it's gd to learn e art of nt caring anymore after u finish tt test.. cos nth u can do le.. haha.. so jus move on.. 1 down... 5 more to go.. -.- hmm.. jus hoping tt e bell curve will do wonders.. n nt harm.. -.- in any case, it's over. haha..

after e paper end round 7.40pm.. walked to e nearest canteen.. canteen 2 to hv dinner w zy (gal) n jx.. hmm.. while i was on my way to e exams, it was raining.. we went to src for exams.. hmm.. i went w my roomie n her friends.. haha.. our first paper is tgt.. haha.. but she complained bout me in 2 places.. on fb n on blog.. haha.. tis morning hv prob getting up. haha.. really tired.. in e end, got up reluctantly at 10plus.. i was nt fully prepared for exams.. quite some concepts still confused.. erm.. nt cos i skipped lects k? haha.. my friend who went for almost all oso say go lect oso no use.. oso dun understand. haha.. anw, it was raining.. so a bit troublesome to get there.. n we were a bit wet.. esp so when we were wearing long pants.. haha... ok.. for suffering from slight headache in e afternoon n keep dozing off. haha.. anw, after dinner, they went to bus stop to take bus home, i decided to walk a bit more to another bus stop to take shuttle bus.. stupid loh.. last shuttle bus at 9pm.. even during exams period.. they only increase frequency during peak hrs.. but ending tym still e same.. so early.. by e tym i finish dinner round 8.40pm le.. so scare no more shuttle bus.. if no more, i need to walk v v far.. n 9pm.. dunno is from which bus stop oso.. anw, i didnt take e nearest shuttle bus cos tt one goes one big round.. so i hv to walk lah.. i was walking alone.. quite dark.. slightly darker than my hostel area.. den not many ppl in sight.. i think dun hv ppl.. haha.. den e wind quite cold.. haha.. but i didnt take out my jacket.. n ya.. abit scary. haha.. but lucky still gt shuttle bus.. will b worse if i hv to walk back.. my roomie will b walking back w her friends ltr.. n there's no other way tt i can get from tt place where i m to my hostel.. even by public tpt.. cos i'll jus end up out of e sch after 1 big round.. haha.. n i dun hv ez link card w me.. cos i didnt bring wallet for exams.. haha.. my first tym inside src.. e MPH so nice.. air con n big.. haha.. n i saw e basket ball net.. it's those at e ceiling.. den i think wan to use den lower it de.. so cool.. haha..

now come back hall le.. can pack my table a bit.. throw aside everything related to econs n relax n play a while.. slp earlier tonight.. v tired.. haha.. n start studying again ltr.. haha.. n i shld stop using my bed to study le.. cos i'll keep falling asleep.. haha.. since dunno when.. last wk or tis wk, my roomie hv used her bed as her 'chair n table'.. haha.. i hv oso start to use it tis wk.. often nt at my chair. but on my bed.. haha.. w notes on my bed.. laptop on e table.. haha.. who ask e bed is right next to e table? haha.. but gd ar.. haha.. i jus cnt stay on my chair too long.. i'll get aches.. haha.. but hor.. i gt cramps cos i sat too long on my bed.. haha.. n ya.. being e clumsy me.. during dinner tym, while gng into e seat n coming out of it, i kicked against e table legs.. haha.. so total 2 times.. lucky i wear covered shoes.. if nt my poor toe may kena.. haha.. n jus now sweep floor in e rm, i knocked against e wardrobe door (which was opened). lol.. i can b called ms clumsy too.. haha..

argh.. nth is getting into my empty brain.. econs is sooooo boringggg.. haha.. i prefer jc econs.. y ar? haha.. ppl say uni econs more fun.... haha.. ok.. i m nt taking anymore econs mod.... i read till i keep dozing off.. -.- n attempts to do PYP make things worse.. -.- jus bought a stack of suggested ans compiled by some students... pls.. so many wrongs n concepts errors.. -.- n for e current yr i m gng thru, there's 2 sets of ans.. n both sets can differ.. -.- as in those confirm only one ans de... like calculations.. both can differ.. -.- so which one to take? argh.. how to do like tis?

me, being e clumsy me, keep 弄到 my left feet middle toe.. e one tt i said e nail coming off de.. it was chipped at bout two third.. left side coming off le.. den today i 弄到 again.. den it really seems to b coming off.. only e right side staying on.. haha.. called my dad to ask wat to do.. he say cut it off.. till e part tt is still nt out yet.. so i took my nail clipper.. n cut a stylish nail.. LOL!.. hmm.. how i hope gt someone help me cut.. cos i dun dare.. haha.. i scare i clip too hard den e whole piece come out.. yucks.. haha.. so my toe nail now look v funny.. one-third left.. den e top part.. only e right side a bit.. can picture? haha.. i gt take photo.. but dun wan put up. haha.

hmm. received a call from mum jus now.. ask me go back m'sia w her from 3rd-6th dec.. -.- hai..... lucky nt 2nd? hai.. always over e weekend de..-.- hai.. there goes my rest? ah.. n when i come back, tt wk i starting tuition le.. hai.. i dun really like to go back.. cos long travelling time.. nth to do there.. dun understand e tv programmes (e lang).. no one to talk to.. nth to do.. n i'll nt hv internet for 4 days. -.- hai.. worse.. i will get diahorrea drinking e water.. haha.. even my mum who go back more often like thrice a yr or more.. who spent her childhood there, oso say tt e last tym she went back (tis yr oct).. she oso gt diahorrea from drinking e water.. HAHAHA.. oops.. my stomach is weaker than hers.. since young i go back i sure will hv prob de.. last tym come back will sick.. now wun sick lah.. haha.. hai.. on 5th i already gt smth on le loh.. hai.. arhhhhh.. ssssssshhhhh.. CONCENTRATE ON UR STUDIES FIRST!!!! dun b distracted by other things!!!! everything after exams den say................. argh... ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh... ppl......... pls stop throwing me w things.......... tt will occupy my thots.. affect my mood in e negative way.. or steal away my mind from studies.. as a matter of fact, i myself m already doing it to myself.. so pls dun add on to it.. argh............ tml paper!!!! i think i prefer doing maths.. econs calculation nt fun enough. hai..guess i m in e right course.. haha.. :)

oh ya.. i can type chinese using my laptop le.. thanks to my roomie who helped me a few days ago.. haha.. hmm.. jus now comb hair.. hair abit entangled n i 'combed out' a bundle of 8 strands of hair... -.- i m losing hair.......... help..... nvm.. lucky i gt alot of hair.. haha.. ok.. i m gng nuts.. reason being.. today is e day b4 exams.. haha.. but tml paper afternoon.. haha.. nv go inside e student recreation centre b4 leh.. den now go there for exams.. nv took a uni test in places other than LT b4.. haha.. hmm.my toe like tis can wear shoes? haha.. nt pain.. but i scare friction against e shoe.. haha.. i think next tym i eat maggie mee add less seasoning. haha.. but hor.. normally i only add half a packet.. haha..

well.. like my roomie.. when my stress lvl hit a certain lvl, it will go over it.. her go over i dunno mean wat lah.. but for me.. it will go e opp direction.. hahahaha.. n i think my stress lvl is getting lower.. haha.. so it tends to go in e opp direction more! haha.. i guess i need to go out of my hostel room more.. haha.. couping up isnt making me more sane.. haha.. n i need to quit e bad habit of scrimping on stuff tt i shld nt.. like proper meals.. LOL! hmm.. hasnt eaten proper lunch ytd n today.. haha.. tis is wat happens when i stay in hostel.. haha.. eh.. actually nt v unusal of me even during sch terms.. lol.. haha.. ok.. tml need to eat.. if nt brain cnt function during exams.. as a matter of fact, tis brain here isnt working v well.. some screw is loose somewhere.. oops.. i m nt talking sense.. ah.. wateva.. back to pyp.. -.-

work hard n play hard on 2nd! haha.. looking forward to a picnic tt is filled w everyone's love on 2nd.. haha.. n yummy steamboat too.. yumyum.. haha.. now tt things r more or less settled, i can concentrate more on my studies le.. only left a few loose ends to tie up.. hmm.. THERE CAN BE MIRACLES WHEN YOU BELIEVE. hahaha..

Many nights we prayed
With no proof anyone could hear
In our hearts a hope for a song
We barely understood
Now we are not afraid
Although we know theres much to fear
We were moving mountains
Long before we knew we could, whoa, yes

There can be miracles
When you believe
Though hope is frail
Its hard to kill
Who knows what miracles
You can achieve
When you believe somehow you will
You will when you believe

In this time of fear
When prayer so often proves in vain
Hope seems like the summer bird
Too swiftly flown away
Yet now Im standing here
My hearts so full, I cant explain
Seeking faith and speakin words
I never thought Id say

There can be miracles
When you believe
Though hope is frail
Its hard to kill
Who knows what miracles
You can achieve
When you believe somehow you will
You will when you believe

They dont always happen when you ask
And its easy to give in to your fears
But when youre blinded by your pain
Cant see the way, get through the rain
A small but still, resilient voice
Says hope is very near, oh

There can be miracles
When you believe
Though hope is frail
Its hard to kill
Who knows what miracles
You can achieve
When you believe somehow you will
You will when you believe
Somehow you will
You will when you believe

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hai.. eye appointment hv took up 5 hrs of my time.. including 2 hrs plus on travelling.. hmm.. took out one stitch today.. n doc says there r 15 left.. -.- so total there's 17! haha.. he say one tym can only take out once.. but my operating doc say can take out a few today.. hai.. pls.. cant expect me to go back for 15 appointments..haha.. next appointment in 2 wks tym.. 1st dec.. but cos i gt exams.. i push back loh.. so is 3 wks later.. hmm.. eye pressure still slightly high.. so increase dosage of one eye lotion n stop using e one tt causes e eye pressure to shoot up de starting from next wk.. they think tt eye lotion is e cause lah.. haha.. den my left eye pressure oso a bit high.. but check again, is artificially high.. haha.. nt my fault.. i dun like e machine.. e air puff machine.. haha.. den while taking my eye pressure again using another machine.. e doc keep asking me to relax.. saying tt he numb my eyes le.. i noe!!! i trying to relax!! but how to when u c something approaching ur eye n touching ur eye??!! argh.. it's nt e fear of pain.. but seeing smth approaching.. human tendency.. to b alert n tense up against 'danger'.. haha... dun like tt doc.. so impatient.. n always seem to b in a hurry.. my previous doc better.. haha.. lucky he's nt e one who operate on me..

heading down to e hospital again next sat.. :( hai..

was distracted from my studies.. nope.. shld say distracted from wat i was doing.. i shall nt name e person.. someone in my block.. gt drunk.. n was doing stupid things.. causing a commotion n doing some stuff like taking our magic clean aka broom n saying to wipe our faces.. n some other stuffs.. tt i dun wan to mention here..

it's my first encounter w a drunken person.. n someone tt i noe.. if he's nt my friend hor.. i tell u.. based on wat he did.. i dunno wat i'll do to him.. cos i oso dunno how to react.. it's really scary to b near a drunken person.. cos u dunno wat they will do next.. n they r stronger than u.. n they can b annoying too.. cos they get high... srsly.. shld nt get drunk loh.. n there's another gal.. squatter.. who gt drank w him.. pls lah.. urgh.. irritated by tt gal too.. as a gal.. u shldnt get urself drank.. esp w guys.. n watmore.. in sch.. -.- exams stress r no excuses.. leisure is even more no excuse..

now i really c for myself wat a drunken man will say n do.. he will definitely say.. i still wan to drink.. n tt he's nt drunk.. hai..

yay!!! i got home-cooked soup.. haha.. mel's mum brought a container of soup for me too!!! haha.. yay! haha.. :) ok.. mus work harder after tis.. haha..

when there's nt enough tym to study, things get sacrificed. wat things get sacrificed first and wat last, depend on individual. game n tv tym gone.. chatting tym gone. hanging out w friends tym gone.. slp gone... meals gone.. haha..

well.. trying to adjust back body tym a little.. if nt i'll b slping during my papers.. haha.. so i m slping slightly earlier.. still nt v early.. haha.. anw, i no morn papers. haha.. n i limit my slp to 6hrs.. i think 6 hrs quite gd le.. haha..

my roomie hv many wonderful friends who volunteered to give her morn calls.. n those calls often wake me up first.. -.- so e wise thing to do now is to slp at e same tym as her n wake up at e same tym as her.. (tis is provided she wake up in e morn n nt cont to slp.. haha) but i m still dozing off infront of my laptop.. haha..

my roomie is getting clothes n home-cooked dinner delivery again.. so gooooooooooooodddddd.. haha.. like her, i hope tt my health can tahan till after 1st dec.. hmm.. best is after 2nd.. cos meeting barker on 2nd.. haha..

my 3rd toe.. e nail is coming off.. pls dun come off yet.. heard it'll b painful.. but one side already a bit out le.. den sometimes will make till it.. nt painful yet.. haha.. so far, i nv try nail come out b4.. dun ask me y it's coming out.. i dunno.. srsly.. haha..

i need to control my mind.. cant afford to b distracted now.. 3 wks.. n it'll b over.. so long.. -.- i dun even hv a complete wk of study wk.. -.- hai.. thur paper i haven start studying.. plan to start tml.. i look at my schedule, i m dead.. behind behind target.. guess i m either SLOW or poor in gauging e tym i need to complete things n hence set unrealistic targets.. oh wellll.. i shall go buy dinner ltr.. haha.. i need at least a proper meal a day.. haha.. n ya.. i keep hving dreams too.. some random, no sense de.. hmm.. i dreamt of someone buying me a 3 flavour ice cream.. normal de is choco, vanilla n strawberry.. but cos tt person noe i dun take strawberry, so switch it to another flavour.. i think cookie n cream.. forget le.. n i dreamt of 3 ppl cooking fried rice for me in e same day.. different style.. some r teachers.. lol! haha.. y is it all bout food? lol. haha.. n i can hv like a few short dreams in a slp.. n is jump from a dream to another.. lol.. so my mind isnt resting when i slp.. haha..

hmm.. i was serving in e sunday service team (sst) today.. haha.. only found out tt i was suppose to b a befriender ytd. haha.. hmm.. 2nd chance of me serving since i joined cefc.. nt really those regular serving.. more of on basis de bah.. first was lead worship.. now is sst.. haha.. sst each cell group take turns.. hmm.. quite different from my previous church.. though it may only b serving in a small way.. nt on regular basis, but i give thanks for e chance to serve.. had been 5months plus since i did nt serve on a regular basis.. after i left my previous church.. but oh well.. i guess i'll go back to regular serving in dec or jan bah.. hmm.. nt serving =/= backslided k? haha.. need time to adapt n settle down.. now more or less more settled le... haha..tym to serve n enjoy serving w sis n bro-in-Christ.. :) haha..

hmm.. cos befriender job only start after service, b4 service, we go help out in ushering.. haha.. first tym i do ushering for service.. haha.. den collect tithes.. nt e first tym i doing it but tis tym different.. haha.. den ya.. after service.. befriender role.. scare ppl ask me qns.. cos alot of info on e church i still nt v clear yet.. like e history.. haha.. though i m busy preparing for exams, n hv to go to woodlands centre to serve today.. spend more tym in church.. wake up earlier, etc.. but it's a blessing to b able to serve God.. :) i was saying so many gd morning today.. shaking so many hands.. but my hand was a bit cold.. i rmb one person saying: 'so cold, ur hand'.. haha..

anw, a short update of my 'weekend'.. after cell group at buona vista ytd, i went back to hostel to study.. cos come home cnt study de.. n my txtbks r there..but i only manage to complete bout 20qns of calculus tut.. reached back hostel round 3.30pm.. den left at round 8.30pm.. abit surprised to c a lot of seniors staying over e weekend to study.. stress oso.. haha.. everyone mugging now.. i dun dare to leave too late.. cos though there r some ppl in hall, e roads r still quite empty. cos it's a sat night.. ya.. was kind of angry n pissed off w myself for my slow progress.. i m really scared.. more scared than taking a lvls.. i scare i dunno how to do e qns.. there's no tym to do txtbk qns.. nt enough tym.. nt enough revision.. hai. but i m learning to cast my fears n worries to God thru prayers.. :) one step at a tym bah.. dun worry bout e future.. haha.. jus try my best first loh.. n i m srsly lacking slp.. so i m catching a nap now le.. ppl hv been telling me tt insufficient slp will cause ur studying to b inefficient.. n b of lower quality.. i think its true leh. haha.. so i need a nap.. yeah.. getting like round 5hrs or less slp these few days.. -.- i'll b fine.. tis is nt e tym to break down or b emotional or b pissed w myself.. cos it wun help things.. i'll survive by God's grace.. n i shld use my roomie's words.. 'no tym to cry'.. haha.. nope.. cnt break down now.. nt now.. pray, pray, pray!! pray le jiu surrender it to God.. learn to surrender things, my fears n myself to God.. :) ah.. srsly, tis faith journey is a life lesson.. c e state i m in n c e no of yrs i m a christian.. haha.. i m weak but He is strong! haha.. still learning, still growing in Christ.. :)

nitez.. haha.. (do not disturb).. haha.. gng back hostel tonight to start e studying again.. -.-

Matthew 6
25"Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more important than food, and the body more important than clothes? 26Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? 27Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life[b]?
28"And why do you worry about clothes? See how the lilies of the field grow. They do not labor or spin. 29Yet I tell you that not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these. 30If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, will he not much more clothe you, O you of little faith? 31So do not worry, saying, 'What shall we eat?' or 'What shall we drink?' or 'What shall we wear?' 32For the pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them. 33But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. 34Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.

Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. -Philippians 4:6

jia you ppl!!! :) take care of ur health too..

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haha.. went to redeem mac w nanny.. both of ours combined n we got ourselves 6pcs nuggest, a choco milkshake, a wrap.. haha.. last picnic during programming lect. haha.. hmm.. srsly, i lack of slp.. suffering from bad memory n in a 'blur' state.. i can open my internet window, turn to e side n turn back forgetting which web i wanna go.. i can take bout smth, pause for a while n forgot wat i was talking bout.. it's tt bad.. haha.. i didnt meet my target ytd.. hai.. i wan my slp...

boo! only completed 1 chapter.. still got 4 more to go.. n i intend to add like 1 more.. so total is like 5 more.. ok.. slp late again.. -.- hai.. i press calculator till sian liao.. haha. ah!!

hmm.. wat a tyming.. received sms n call from my 2 tutee's mum today.. asking me bout tuition.. -.- n i think i mus b out of my mind to cont w this 2 tutee next yr.. one A & E.maths.. another one jus E.maths.. but i already told e e.maths one tt i'll only teach him during my hol.. tt is tis dec n next yr may-july.. den e A & E.maths de is 2hrs per week in total.. so nt tt bad lah.. guess it wun b as worse as tis yr bah.. though i m already nt coping well.. haha.. so resistant against tuitions.. yet.. i still pick it up.. wat a tyming.. 2 come tgt.. hai.. guess i need to read up on some stuff during dec hol lo.. haha.. both tuitions will start 2nd wk of dec.. haha.. i give myself a few days to catch up on rest first.. haha.. abit workaholic hor.. haha.. spend my hol giving tuitions.. haha.. ok.. back to studying.. -.- sian sian sian.. tml lect for foundation still teaching some stuff.. pls dun tell me tt it'll b tested.. -.- i dun wan to catch up on one more chapter leh.. enough le.. :( pls.. it's e last lect of e wk.. n e last lect of e semester.. y teach new things? ah..

my roomie n my body clock is totally screwed.. haha. we hv been studying or attempting to till 4plus am e past 2 days or so.. n wake up like 9plus, 10plus or 11plus.. haha.. ah.. nvm.. i'll fix it back during e hol.. haha.. n we r like so awake when we need to go to slp.. which is round 5am.. haha.. n we started doing silly stuff.. e night b4 was cleaning our room at 3plus.. ytd was singing college songs in bed.. lol! haha.. i like my jc's college athemn.. e lyrics r nice.. e song is nice too.. dun sound like college athemn loh.. haha..

Verse 1
Here i stand the dawning of a brand new day
As i look to the way ahead
In my heart burns the fire of learning
And it shines everywhere i go
Never fading and ever yearning
While i live, i learn and grow

I will seek and explore
Open each and every door
Always caring and faithful and true
To be a guiding light, set the future shinning bright
For my college and for nation too
I am a true pioneer,
Crossing every new frontier
With conviction i take every turn
This passion i'll hold, so that everyone may know
I believe: while i live, i learn.

Verse 2
Here we stand together on this special day
Pioneers who will lead the way
All our hearts share the spirit of exploring
in our lives will always show
How we've set our sights on soaring,
While i live, i learn and grow.

We will seek and explore, open each and every door.
Always caring and faithful and true
To be a guiding light, set the future shinning bright
For our college and for nation too
Yes, we are true pioneers
Crossing all the new frontiers
With convictions we take every turn
This passion we will hold, so that everyone may know
We believe while we live, we learn.

haha.. we only sing verse 2 during special occasion.. so actually quite short.. haha.. n verse 2 chorus, we change all the 'i' to 'we'.. haha.. i actually visited my sch web.. n found tt they posted a list of scholarship recipents tis yr.. kind of recently.. 1st nov.. haha.. n my batch, only 3 were awarded scholarship tis yr.. my classmate n me.. n another person from another class.. total 19 scholarships awarded tis yr.. 11 of which r MOE scholarships.. haha.. but i m e only tsl.. haha.. but i think there will b more scholarships holders from my batch.. e guys.. jus tt they didnt apply loh.. my classmates so many 3 A's.. n got 1 4A's de.. sure can get de.. haha.. happy for my friend.. got local merit scholarship (police).. tt's wat he wanted to b since dunno when.. n nearly quit jc to go poly in yr 1.. cos he noe he is fix on becoming police.. so coming to jc nt doesnt matter.. lucky he didnt quite.. haha.. but i noe he's disappointed tt he did nt get e overseas one.. heard he was initially offered tt on condition b4 release of results.. he met tt condition.. but.. hai.. in any case, i love my jc! haha. :) even though we may nt b a top jc, but i still love it! haha.. ppl always say.. w ur L1R5, u can go to better jc, y go pj.. well.. cos i like e sch! haha.. alot of ppl in my class their L1R5 can go better jc.. at least like ajc all these.. but we all chose here.. haha.. some may c us as out of mind.. but tt's sterotyping.. tt gd grades mus go gd schs.. haha.. wateva.. i love my jc.. haha.. n i miss those days.. recently, a lot of ppl r like missing jc.. my classmates.. my council ppl.. u c alot of old pics coming out on fb.. haha.. well.. tis is wat happen when e goings get tough n ppl wan to go back to e past.. n oso wat happens when ppl miss each other.. haha.. n r reminded of e happy n unforgettable moments spent tgt..

k.. i got 5 chapters of reading to complete today.. for psycho.. n tt only makes up 2 lects.. :S i learnt e 'art' of reading data from table.. e probability.. cos our batch were taught e gc way.. but tis psycho mod under stats, dun let us use gc.. exams oso cnt bring in.. -.- den i cnt check my ans.. haha. but reading from table is quite gd too.. dun need to rmb how to key into gc.. which i forgotten le.. haha.. jus find value from table, pluck out data.. add add add. haha.. so numbers.. jus plain munipulation of no.. i like.. haha..:P

last night, there was a sudden 'attack' by many many black ants.. dunno y our room suddenly gt so many black ants.. starting, i jus sweep them out.. but they keep coming back.. so it was a bad idea.. den i decide to tape them up using a sticker tt i hv.. so i started 'chasing' after them.. they move v fast leh.. so at 3plus.. i was catching black ants. i'll c them on e floor.. den tape them up.. den i get back to my work n turn around.. i'll c another 3 ants.. n e cycle repeat.. dunno where e ants come from.. den at 3plus, my roomie n i sweep e whole floor again.. (not say we didnt sweep k? we each sweep e floor dunno how many times a day..) den do some cleaning up a bit.. things collect dust easily.. i guess we a bit siao.. do cleaning up at 3plus in e morning.. den i told her.. my aim is to kill 20ants.. in e end, i killed bout 50.. lol..

den tis morning.. got gd breakfast.. haha.. cos mel ask alvin to cook breakfast for us.. if she manage to get e ingredients.. haha.. she gt a sudden craving for home-made breakfast.. ie scrambled egg, etc.. so she gt another friend to buy e ingredients when coming into sch today.. n deliver it to our room.. haha.. n i m supposed to collect e ingredients from her friend n go down to pass to alvin... den when breakfast is ready, to serve it to her bed.. lol.. haha.. but tt one, didnt do lah.. alvin say ask her go down eat.. if nt dun give her eat. haha.. well.. we each had 2 pieces of ham, 3 pieces of bacon (2 different type), scrambled egg n egg w cheese.. haha.. v oily though.. haha.. i went to pantry to help alvin.. but cant help much.. :( i only help to beat eggs n wash up after tt.. haha.. srsly, i think i didnt cook for v long. n my skills is really really limited.. lol.. in e end, whole thing plus eating took bout 1.5hr.. -.- i srsly nt enough slp.. i think i still prefer more slp den gd breakfast. haha. dun need eat lunch le.. haha.. but happy.. cos breakfast is cooked by ppl! lol.. haha.. though i'll prefer to slp more n wake up to eat str away (like my roomie).. haha.. but i nt so bad lah.. haha.. where gt nice to throw a person there to cook breakfast for us by himself? 5 ppl including himself. haha. i wan to go back to slp.. but gng lessons soon.. better finish up wat i left off ytd.. -.-

hmm.. it was a bad idea to print e lect notes right b4 e lect.. apparently, they seems to b doing smth to e e-portal.. den hv prob accessing.. in e end, was late for lect for 10mins.. -.- v happy.. today last lect.. 3 hrs lect. end slightly less than 2hrs.. haha.. den i went to buy dessert to bring back to hostel.. haha.. srsly, i nt caring wat i eat.. haha.. hmm.. when parting w friends.. was telling jx n zy(gal) c them tml for econs lect.. den they tell me tml no lect!! haha.. so tml is a FREE day for me! haha.. hmm.. better study.. -.- hmm.. jus bought an exams snacks from hall.. $2.. inside got a pack of mamee, small pack of twisties, hello panda, dewerry biscuit (2 pieces only)..a lollipop n a small roll of mentos.. haha.. nt a fan of sweets.. but.. well.. haha.. i m pampering myself w food.. lol! haha.. me n my roomie each ate alot of cereals.. haha.. a 411g de.. 2 days.. let me eat till left bout half.. haha.. she ate faster than me.. 1 day jiu left half only.. haha.. k. i'll go study.. -.-

haha... jus now a senior come n give me n my roomie a glass of choco milk shake plus abit of alcohol stuff.. haha.. quite nice.. haha.. hall life is gd n full of pleasant surprises when there's wonderful ppl around.. haha.. :) hmm.. i cant stop eating or munching on things nowadays.. haha.. gng to grow sideways lo.. haha. dun care.. after exams then c how.. haha.. hmm.. jus now look into e mirror after bathing, realised tt my panda eyes really v bad n terrible.. :( haha.. i shall SLEEP n SLEEP during hol! yay! haha.. hol.. faster come.. eh.. no.. i haven finish studying for exams yet.. hai.. work hard.. slog.. hmm... wonder whether e word 'slog' for studies is in my dictionary nt.. haha.. hmm.. work hard to earn e well-deserved hol in dec.. :)

pon my last econs tut n foundation tut today.. woke up for econs tut.. but hesitating wan to go nt.. cos woke up w a bit of a cough.. n was thinking.. go oso no pt.. wun learn things... n cos i nt gng for e foundation tut after tt.. i'll hv 2 hrs break.. including lunch.. sian.. so decide to stay in hostel n catch up on some work.. n half an hr more of slp.. haha.. well.. nt gng foundation tut.. cos gng thru a topic nt tested... n i didnt do or read.. went for 2 labs.. actually dun wan go proramming lab de.. go for e sake of marking attendance.. cos today's topic oso nt tested.. -.- hmm.. MATlab dunno how to do.. den we go disturb nanny.. keep calling him.. haha.. cos he slping at home.. den he sent us e ans.. haha.. his network really v gd ar.. haha..

after labs, went to pack dinner den come back.. had dinner w my roomie in e room.. so jealous of her. haha.. parents specially drove here to deliver her clothes for her.. n homecooked food! ah.. w soup somemore.. haha.. though i eating vegetables rice.. smth like homecooked food, but no SOUP! i wan soup! haha.. somemore cold weather, so gd to hv a bowl of warm snoup.. yumyum.. *drools*.. haha.. kidding lah.. well.. i will nv get to enjoy such treatment de lah. but nvm.. i m still a blessed gal.. :)

ah.. falling sick again.. woke up w slight cough.. lucky after go back for a nap awhile, no more le.. but today keep feeling v cold.. during MATlab, my nose was runny, eyes were teary, head was achy (haha.. no such word?trying to make it rhyme.. haha).. flu coming.. haha.. but oh well.. i guess i still can take care of myself.. though dun sound convincing.. lol! haha.. n i clever-ly hit e back of my head against my bed frame when i wanna go back to slp in e morning.. -.- quite hard. haha.. i m way behind schedule again.. DIE.. ahhhh.. but i keep wanting to sleep....... i forgot to bring vitamins C to hostel.. but nvm.. i shall eat more fruits.. haha..

In Christ Alone
In Christ alone, will i glory
Though i could pride myself in battles won
For i've been blessed beyond measure
And by His strength alone i overcome
Oh i could stop and count successes like diamonds in my hands
But those trophies could not equal to the grace by which i stand

In Christ alone
i place my trust
And find my glory in the power of the cross
In every victory
Let it be said of me
My source of strength
My source of hope
Is Christ alone

In Christ alone will i glory
For only by His grace i am redeemed
And only His tender mercy
Could reach beyond my weaknesses to my yield
And now i seek no greater honour than just to know Him more
And to count my days with losses to the glory of my Lord

Labels: Songs: In Christ Alone

hmm.. today was a long but nice day!! haha..ok.. morning woke up earlier.. had insufficient slp.. cos it was less than 6 hrs.. lol.. went to buona vista to meet for cell group.. change location tis wk.. hmm.. meeting at buona vista jus brings back lots of memory.. as i walk down e escalator from e platform, i m reminded of moe induction.. haha.. i remembered i was late in meeting barker.. n they were all standing at a corner when i arrived.. i rmb e corner.. haha.. n when i walk e overhead bridge towards e bustop, e memory of walking it w barker was in my mind.. n it feel as though i travelled back in tym.. lol.. day dreaming early in e morning.. hmm.. srsly, was at moe hq for 3 times tis yr.. den once at e civil service comission or wat.. to do e psychomatric test. haha.. hmm.. tt place hv a lot of memory linked to moe.. lol.. haha..

we were drove to one cg's mate house.. den we drove e south buona vista road.. e winding road.. after pgp.. haha.. den i m blessed to b drove back to queenstown mrt.. cos me, another guy n e driver hv to leave earlier.. me is cos of my test.. managed to reach sch at round 1pm.. den went to buy mac for lunch.. haha.. n i got an instant win! 6 piece mcnuggets.. n e meal i bought is mcnuggets.. lol.. haha.. my friend last tym gt wrap n milkshake.. so we shall redeem tgt during next fri's lessons.. so dun need buy other food le.. gt nuggets.. gt drinks.. haha.. complete meal. haha. ok.. study a bit.. den we go for e quiz.. haha.. srsly, whenever e prof write (see why), we dun c y.. (it's easy).. no it's nt.. haha.. e quiz consist of 4 qns.. 25 marks each.. some e ans jus a few lines.. some quite long.. so some e marks is more easy to earn lah.. haha.. actually consider nt difficult le.. n alot of things tt i expect him to come out, didnt come out. like transitive closure, maximal, minimal, least n greatest elements den proving of those (A x B) x C = (A x C) U (B x C) thingy.. n e first qn was almost identical to a qn in e extra practice 1.. haha..

after quiz. went to bugis w my clique.. (zy (gal n boy), mun jee n jia xin).. haha.. settled on tis like 2 fri ago.. haha.. cos we all wan to buy clothes for uni.. but all no tym go buy.. n we wanna go shop shop, destress, relax, wateva.. so set loh.. after test go.. haha.. hmm.. helped mun jee in getting a present for his female friend's 21st bdae.. haha.. we do hv a MAJOR difference in taste.. but he's really xi xin in choosing e gift n checking e gift.. haha.. well.. we say he'll make a gd bf.. haha.. but hor.. e present u get may nt b of ur taste.. LOL.. he dun trust our suggestion.. haha.. but in e end, he still got tt.. haha.. eh.. 3 gals here hving e same opinion acting as ur 'consultants' k? haha..

we didnt get much stuff.. i only bought a shorts n a watch.. haha.. actually main thing i wanna get is more shorts.. to wear to sch.. haha.. n mayb one more bag? nice slippers/sandals? hmm.. a more lasting watch in future.. digital de.. they r still my fav.. but dunno wan metal de or normal strap de.. c how first lah.. wait till i c one tt i really like. haha.. now jus buy those cheap n nice de.. to wear once in a while.. haha.. e one i bought, i like tt blue.. n e design.. haha.. got e uncle to help me punch another 2 holes.. actually one first.. den i wear, show my friends.. still qutie loose, so they say add one more.. den zy (boy) did nt c me wear.. he jus saw tt i go add one more hole.. den he say add so many holes.. so i wore n let him c e gap inbetween.. his jaws dropped!! lol!! haha.. so funny! haha.. anw, it was hard to find shorts there.. cos like wat mun jee say.. u gals e shorts hor.. (those tt they sell).. is really short. haha.. so finally saw one tt is nt v short. haha.. but i still need more shorts i guess... 1 more at least? haha.. hmm.. t-shirt.. think enough for tym being. haha.. hmm.. i dun like to shop at crowded place.. cos i dun like to b stuck in e middle n ppl walking around me.. feel abit 'oppressed'.. was joking w them tt i hv 'ren qun kong wang zhen'.. haha..

after shopping.. though most didnt buy much.. but i gt to eat my durian crispy pancake! go there MUST eat de.. v nice! haha.. recommended it to jx n zy (gal).. they like it too! haha.. den gt one drink stall gt a cute scruplture made of food.. e hair looks like danver's.. took a pic of it using my cam.. hmm.. upload e pics mayb tml.. cos my cam cable in hostel. haha.. but sch lan wire quite slow.. c how first loh.. haha. den i randomly suggested eating steamboat for dinner.. but it sparked off jx n zy (gal)'s appetite for steamboat.. haha.. so we end up eating steamboat.. they say my fault.. cos i mention steamboat.. haha.. we all haven eaten steamboat for some tym le.. went to tian tian huo guo.. wah.. e soup base is nice.. haha.. but mj need to go off for his friend's bdae celebration.. so only left 4 of us. haha.. we ate n talked at e same tym.. nice hving steamboat w em.. but too bad yt n mj couldnt join us.. hmm.. though it's bout 2 more ex den another one tt i went which was nearby.. but e food taste better. haha.. hmm.. next tym class gathering or mayb barker gathering can go there.. i shall propose. haha..

i didnt eat much leh.. steamboat i always dun feel full de.. zy (guy) felt full e first.. lol.. he say i better check my stomach too.. haha.. nt full.. haha.. well.. i think it has been a long tym since i feel really really full. haha.. i guess last tym was ICE 3? haha.. hmm.. i didnt eat alot ar.. haha.. i can list down wat i ate.. haha.. skip tis part.. its naggy. haha.. 2 prawns, 1 ball of noodles (small de).. some macoroni, 3 sotong, 6 small 'hum', 3 small pieces of pork, 1 egg e egg white, 1 meatball, 1 crabmeat, bout 5 sausages (half de).. 1 small piece of lamb, a few veggie, a few small pieces of fish, a wanton, a shui jiao, another type of shui jiao.. a weird mushroom, 1 normal bell mushroom, 3 pieces of lian ou..i think tt's all le.. n 3 cups of ice lemon tea.. haha.. alot meh.. i think alittle leh.. i still can rougly rmb means nt a lot le. haha. but at e end hor.. something gt burnt in our chicken soup e base.. den e whole chicken soup tasted burnt.. -.- cnt drink le.. den left e tom yam de.. nt bad leh.. though i dun take spicy stuff.. so e last lian ou i took is e tom yam de.. a bit spicy.. haha.. but we put e lian ou in for v long.. den v soft.. v nice.. i like e veggie.. v fresh.. n crispy.. esp e cabbage! haha.. den cos e steamboat e smoke always blow in my direction.. e tom yam make me wanna sneeze.. haha.. dunno y eat steamboat, i always sit at e wrong place.. always tio e smoke.. haha.. i became e healthy person.. keep asking them to eat veggie n give them veggie to eat. haha.. hmm.. we didnt eat beef today. cos zy (boy) dun eat beef.. so we dun take loh. haha.. den i like v aunty.. haha.. zy (boy) say i shld b nanny le. lol! ok.. he say my knowledge on such stuff is v gd.. cos i told him to check tt e crabmeat skin peel off le b4 throwing it in.. den say mus throw prawns in to make e soup sweeter.. doesnt really matter whether eating e prawns in e end nt.. haha.. n veggie cook v fast de.. haha.. he was impressed by these.. haha.. but these r common knowledge.. some common sense.. haha.. i say i seldom eat steamboat.. n these r all tt i noe.. all i say out le. haha.. n dun ask me e names of e veggie.. i dunno them de.. haha.. i only noe long bean, cabbage, lady finger.. haha.. e rest all look bout e same to me.. haha.. left e place at 10plus.. haha.. on e train back, i was learning more signing from zy (gal) n jx. den when we were signing on trains, as usual, we'll get looks from ppl.. haha.. ait attention seeking lah.. but dun care.. we r communicating in our own world n we r hving fun! haha.. next tym we shld try jus signing.. n dun talk at all.. haha.. some signs r similar.. confusing.. i learning too much.. dun get to practise.. keep mixing up n forgetting. haha.. k.. it has been a long day.. out for more than 12 hrs.. v tired.. hmm.. mus STUDY HARD HARD TML!! haha..

super long post.. haha.. naggy too.. though kind of no life to go back to sch on a sat for a 1 hr quiz, but well.. it's ok.. haha.. at least some 'life' after e test. haha.. though i m nt one who loves shopping.. actually i find shopping tiring most of e tym.. haha.. but well.. it's e tym spent w friends tt matter. haha.. but hor.. if really wanna buy things, go alone or w 1 friend jus nice. haha.. next tym lah.. when hv more tym n energy.. during hols loh.. reached back home.. saw a big brown envelope.. ON GOVERNMENT SERVICE.. scare scare leh.. turn behind.. c vital.org.. noe is moe de.. it's 3 copies of e surieties signing form.. nice one.. gd timing to remind me of e conditions of my scholarship.. hai.. shld read thru it again.. if nt, someone summarise e impt pts for me... expectations tt i hv to meet.. wat i need to do.. wat i cnt do.. etc.. n e consequences.. haha..

ok.. shall really stop here.. sry.. super super long.. haha.

feel like giving up le.. jus too many things tt i dunno.. i still can say tt i throw in e towel for tml quiz.. but i cant do tt for e finals. i cnt.. hai.. so i hv to try means to understand e many stuff tt i dunno.. n e stuffs tt i dunno i dunno.. hai.. well.. i m nt a smart person.. i noe.. but i guess i'll still survive.. by God's grace.. :) worried bout gpa.. i dun wan to attempt e qns le lah.. some r from previous yrs e finals.. some r dunno where pop up de.. dunno how to do.. dun understand his hints.. watever.. haha.. i dun like proving qns too.. cos to me.. abit no logic.. it seems like we r trying to twist things so we can conclude tt smth is true.. like we force our ans to pt towards wat we r supposed to prove.. ah.. dunno.. anw, here r some photos to make my blog more colourful.. lol.. haha.. they r taken w my hp. so quality nt v gd.. but small in size, upload v fast. haha.. well.. my hp is going siao liao.. ytd night.. haha.. refuse to listen to instruction n runs things on it's own.. haha..


these r taken during one of my programming lab.. i was attempting one qn.. den tis box pop up while i m trying to compile n run e programme.. i was laughing at it.. n like DOTS.. n i showed it to my friend n took a photo of it.. e one on e left shows wat i type in for e program w e pop up box.. e right is a zoom in version of e box.. but nt clear.. in case u cnt read it.. i hv typed wat it wrote below..

rawr... i cant do all e proving qns............. i cnt prove! ahh.... how to take pure maths like tis? dun like proving qns.................. stupid. haha.

sometimes i'll blame myself for being not sensitive n observant enough to e ppl around me.. like when they r feeling down or when they r troubled.. ah.. well.. mayb tt's nt e area i m gifted in.. cos some ppl r really sensitive to e feelings of others.. n can tell when someone is nt ok.. n some r conscious of e presence of everyone.. like in a big grp, if someone is missing, they'll noe immediately.. sometimes i v slow de loh.. haha.. some r gifted in encouraging ppl.. some r gifted in talking.. some r gifted in listening to others.. well.. i m still trying to b more sensitive to those around me..

hmm.. once again, i feel blessed.. haha.. i really shld get into e habit of counting my blessings for things in my life.. even small little stuff.. haha.. so tt when things dun go well.. like grades nt v gd.. or meet w difficulties n prob, i still can give thanks.. haha.. cos jus hving God in my life hv sufficient reasons for me to give thanks.. n jus hving e breath to live n type tis, i shld give thanks.. haha..

had a blessed time w barker.. :) though it was drizzling while i got to fong seng, laptop cover a bit wet.. but it's ok.. e weather does not affect us at all.. e warmth we feel when we c each other.. haha.. though nt many ppl turn up.. actually was hoping to catch more of barker ppl.. but oh well.. at least i gt to c michelle!! haha.. n emily.. :) of course.. it's nice to c lyn n danver too.. well.. we will nv get tired of seeing each other de.. :) haha.. tried e plaster prata today.. actually it's egg prata.. those soft-boiled de.. haha.. i like those type of egg yolk.. but i dun like those nt fully cooked de egg white.. haha.. well.. taste nt bad.. but abit weird leh.. prata plus soft-boiled egg.. haha.. didnt ate much cos of e late lunch.. haha.. but like wat lyn said b4.. it's nt e food tt matters.. even if jus sitting there for a drink it oso fine.. it's e ppl tt u r w tt matters.. :)

went for badminton.. nt many ppl today.. but e courts were empty!! so all of us can play.. haha.. hmm.. really played a lot today.. started w singles w lionel.. haha.. den when play double, my index finger gt blister.. -.- managed to finish e match b4 taking a plaster to put on it.. haha.. cnt dun put.. haha.. i srsly think i play better w/o shoes.. haha.. tt oversized shoe.. haha.. srsly, e indication of me playing alot today is tt my back start to suan le.. n my finger hv blister.. -.- haha.. but well.. it was an enjoyable tym.. n it's jus a blister.. at least nt smth more serious.. haha.. so still can give thanks de! haha..

after badminton, i hv 2 wonderful friends, danver n jia sheng, who walked w me to a bus stop further away... so i can take 188 home.. directly.. haha.. n they insisted on waiting for me to board e bus first b4 they board theirs.. they missed a 183.. told them to go off first.. cos 183 hard to wait de.. n i say it's ok.. nt e first tym i waiting for bus alone ar.. but they insisted.. haha.. so nice of them.. n when i reached home.. danver haven reach home when he stays nearer to nus than me.. kind of feel bad bout it.. haha..

hmm... will miss them de.. but everyone, do work hard.. we can do it! do take care of urself, stay happy n cheerful, keep in contact n jia you till we meet again! :) <3 BARKER! :) haha..

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currrently at e fast food chain area in ntu.. alone.. jus finished my brunch.. seated at a table by myself, using my laptop, w my ice milo w/o ice next to it.. it's drizzling.. i m sitting next e outside... but sheltered well enough.. n there isnt strong wind, so i m nt wet.. haha.. nice feeling.. cos e weather is cooling.. feel so relaxed.. such a nice feeling.. dunno how to describe it.. feel as though i m in a western country, having like afternoon tea in a cafe, with my laptop, blogging bout e encounters in life.. enjoying life at a slower pace.. haha.. oh well.. i m dreaming.. haha.. but really nice feeling.. nice environment cos it's nt crowded n ppl around me aint too noisy.. haha.. plus e weather to go w it.. well.. e weather hv been like these for e past few days.. it's inconvenient for travelling.. haha.. i m waiting for a few more mins b4 i make a move for my badminton session cum dinner w my dear barker peeps.. shld b e last till after exams.. hmm..

e rain.. lucky this wk i didnt go for many lessons. so dun hv much clothes to wash.. cos hor.. all e washed clothes cnt dry.. cos of e weather.. e rain is come n stop n come de.. dun even try hanging clothes outside or u will keep hving to bring it in n out. there was a lightning n thunder tis afternoon tt really scared me.. really.. srsly.. i was in my rm.. sitting at my chair.. facing e window.. suddenly there was a bright lightning n within milliseconds e loud thunder came.. i think e lightning struck e trees facing my block bah. so scary.. so near.. so loud.. there's nt even tym to react when u see tt flash.. u cant even bring up ur hands to cover ur ears.. n there were more lightnings n thunders tt followed.. though i m in a sheltered area, but i m still scared.. it's really near.. tt was e most scary one.. now i really understand e fear tt hv struck lyn, brian they all when they had a close encounter w lightning..

well.. y m i here at north spine when i didnt attend lessons? haha.. i came to ask nanny doubts on foundation.. tis sat test mah.. haha.. collate all e qns den throw at him.. haha.. actually, i dun really learn well tis way.. i m more of tt type gt qn, mus ask immediately den clear it de.. if i collate a few chapters n ask at one shot, i'll b confused.. cos i will b mess up n skip here n there.. den shoot all my qns.. den after tt, lost again.. haha.. i need tym to organise my thots n digest de.. haha..

but anw, i feel i m a blessed gal too.. srsly, shld always count my blessings.. n give thanks for everything n everyone in my life.. in my roomie's blog post ytd, she said tt she's a blessed gal.. indeed.. i shall start to count my blessings too... n make it a habit..

i m blessed w many great friends!!! nanny who came earlier to ans my qns... jx who always help to print lect notes n tut.. yt.. my running partner (though only ran once.. trying to fix some tym yea.. haha).. zy.. my 'playing' mate during lect.. haha.. bejeweled, etc.. haha.. n my other sign lang tutor too.. haha.. mj.. providing laughter and uncle mentality.. haha.. my wonderful clique to accompany me thru uni life.. haha.. of course, my roomie, hving to put up w me.. haha.. esp so when e floor always hv a lot of my hair.. haha.. but we took turns to sweep e floor lah.. one day dunno sweep how many tyms.. haha.. n for listening to me crap.. haha.. n for being patient whenever i interrupt her video watching.. n.. of course my sisters and brothers in Christ.. always so caring.. n a word of concern once in a while though we dun meet up tt often n we r in different church now. last but nt least (putting it last does nt mean it's nt impt k?all r equally impt in my life.. ).. BARKER MATES!!! haha.. they r really wonderful ppl. n i miss some of them.. haven seen nic, ele since dan's bdae.. ty, mic since e last fong seng dinner.. cy, sel since ICE 3 and emelyne since dunno when.. we shall meet up in DEC! yay.. haha.. they r simply wonderful, beyond words can describe.. see.. i m truly blessed w ppl who love me!!! :) haha.. as i m typing tis, i m wearing a smile on my face, guess ppl c le will think i siao.. smiling to myself.. haha.. but watever.. k.. gtg.. it's still drizzling.. n i m carrying laptop n badminton racket n a fat bag.. it's peak hr soon on e train.. hmm.. no hand to hold umbrella.. haha.. bye..

Labels: saying thanks to my friends

how did i ever end up with such a big pile of work to catch up infront of me? when there's only 2 wks left to my first paper?? i noe i m slack at times.. but i cant b THAT slack bah... srsly, how???!!! hai.. next sem, i shall make sure tt i catch up with tt's wk lect tt wk.. at most drag it over a wk.. not like now!!! i hv catching up to do since after mid-terms.. which is like 4 wks???

things to catch up:
1. psycho: 4 weeks of lect, plus tis wk will b 5 & 13 topics of txtbk readings??)*faint*
2. econs: 2 wks of lect (heng.. haha.. thanks to e preparation for e mid term last mon.. tt allowed me to catch up w wk 1-10 de.. haha.. if nt die.. haha.. )
3. programming: 3 lects n 3 labs.. (lucky i did 2 each so far le.. ytd n today.. )
4. foundation: 3 lects n 2 tut.. dun understand tt chim sets thingy leh.. (caught up w readings cos of tis sat quiz.. but lack practise.. die.. )
5. calculus: need to summaries learnings since after recess wk.. n mark tut 8-11.. need to settle tt 2 MATlab oso.. arh..
6. e maths elective.. on applications of maths de. hmm.. tt one shld b on pace.. but hor.. lack practise so forget quite some things le.. n i need to understand 1, 2 parts tt i did nt understand for mid-terms..which came out.. -.-

ALL these hv nt yet include starting on revision.. that is doing of past yr papers n txtbk qns....................... above r jus catching up to b done.. -.- *faint x2* srsly, was i THAT slack??? but how cum i dun feel like i hv enjoyed/relaxed over e past few wks?? ah.. this is terrible.. k.. i shall confiscate my LAN wire again till i complete wat i wan to complete.. FOCUS ar........

n to motivate myself to study more.. haha.. i went over to north spine to buy subway for lunch.. haha.. wanted to walk.. but lazy.. n it started raining.. i was 'caught' in e rain again.. hai.. i shall try to keep myself out of e rain so i wun fall sick.. getting drenched shld come after exams.. haha.. anw, took bus there n back.. haha.. anw, internal shuttle bus r free wat.. haha.. hmm.. trying to push back stuff tt i can push back.. so i can focus on my studies.. i ponning 3 days of 1 or 2 hrs lessons tis wk to study.. i hv e whole of today n tml to myself.. i shld nt waste it.. only gng home on thur night.. different from my initial plan.. cos if i cant study in hostel, it will b worse back at home..

n when my roomie started to study for her exams ytd, i feel stressed leh.. though she jus start.. haha.. cos she oso realised tt there's no tym left.. stress is settling in again.. e GPA target.. ah... it's worse when stress is coupled w other feelings.. k.. end of internet usage time till i complete more stuff... bye..

the SU period ended on sun.. 10pm.. it ended while i m still on my way back to hostel. when i thot of su-ing again, it was past 10.. so i didnt su anything.. actually, i oso dunno whether i wanna su nt.. i wanted to su programming, but many ppl r nt doing well in it. n i noe many ppl su it le.. i hope i made e right choice in nt su-ing any mod. though all i didnt do quite well.. currently, based on those tt i have taken tests in n results tt i got back, my pscyho n econs r e only not bad ones.. anw, i jotted down my plans for e next 2,3 wks.. on wat i set to accomplish.. there isnt much tym left.. my 'study break starts on 16/11 (mon) n my first paper is on 19/11 (thur).. -.-

hai.................................................. i m scared n worried. most of my friends hv su smth.. n they r smarter than me. haha. well.. most didnt su core lah. haha. hai...

attempts to go running these 2 wks hv failed.. last tue cos yt gt consultation, ytd cos it was raining!!!! ah.. it's hard nowadays.. cos it seems to b always raining.. hai.. perhaps i shld get my roomie to go running w me one of these nights.. haha..
i aint tt strong or brave as i seems to b....
yay!!! my tutee can stay in express.. n he passed his maths overall narrowly.. *phew*

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