haha.. it's tt lect again.. routine: walk slowly.. go old chang kee buy food first den stroll in.. haha.. eating e food now.. today i buy subway cookie also.. haha.. selpt super late ytd.. was v tired.. but cnt fall asleep.. dunno y.. it's frustrating to lie in bed trying to slp, but cnt slp.. n knowing tt u NEED to slp.. haha.. went to bed at bout 2am.. toss n turn.. 4 plus got up, off lights.. den soon after, roomy came back.. den ltr a friend came in.. they were talking n doing block stuff.. den e harder it was for me to slp.. so in e end, slept at round 5.30am.. -.- 3 hrs of slp.. n i hv a super long day today n MAS 111 quiz.. which requires a clear brain to think.. DIE! haha.. y cant i fall asleep? stress? bed too hard (still as hard as when we first came.. haha.. )? or too tired? or wat? dunno.. haha.. i was lying in bed thinking tt it has been a long long tym since i felt such intensity in competition.. it's like in jc n sec.. we dun really compete in studies till like tis loh.. now it's like everyone is fighting to b e top.. wanting FULL marks n nt a single pt or 0.1 less.. n it's only e starting of sch.. it's like a fight to survive.. hai.. n i really dun think i m smart enough.. tt's y i need hardwork. but jus now, during psycho lect, zy (guy) was saying.. he was talking to another friend n they comment tt it's like a viscous cycle.. we r always at e losing end.. cos if e lecturer set a hard papers, we dunno, but those AT noe.. so they will do better than us.. if lecturer set easy paper, e more they will noe n do better.. so we r always at e losing end.. no matter wat.. quite pessimistic right? but tis is e reality.. esp in a course like mine.. hai.

though i studied alot for tis MAS111.. but i noe there might still b a possibility tt i'll jus get one qn correct out of 3 or none at all.. n i noe tt i'll b at e bottom area.. hai.. i m totally nt confident at all lah.. n i m stressing myself out more.. cos of e gpa tt i need to meet.. now, it seems like i dun hv my own target of gpa le.. from initial 4, now drop to can meet 3.5 can le.. hai.. but it's bad to jus get 3.5 for yr1 sem1.. hai.. dun care.. one step at a tym.. pls dun remind me how near mid-term is.. n oso.. tt i hv my 3 maths core on e same day........ arh!!!!!!! aiya.. use emily's phrase.. 'just whack ar!'... gd or bad.. dun care lah.. jus do my best.. after today's quiz, i m shifting back my focus to other mod le... too much tym on tis quiz le.. other mod lagging behind.. hai.. weekend, STUDY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

JIA YOU!!! =)

i shall survive today w/o caffeine.. food!