went for a 2.5hrs of tuition.. den head to adam road to meet some cg members to plan for xmas party. took 852 from yishun interchange.. it was a 40mins ride.. but it seems like a ride down memory lane.. it travelled along a str road, past khatib n yck mrt.. passing by bottle tree park n lower seletar reservoir.. bringing back memories of gng to those places w my cca ppl to rackee.. den it reaches yck.. my previous church.. n as it cont on to amk.. it was e path tt i used to walk.. many memories flooded back.. when e bus past by macritche.. i had a glimpse at it.. i think quite nice leh now.. cos i think e car park is ready le.. macritche is full of memories too.. when i alighted from e bus.. i thot to myself.. y memories tt used to b so beautiful can become painful memories tt bring tears to e eyes? i alighted opp s'pore Bible college.. n walked to adam food centre.. ah.. tt place holds memories too.. had prawn noodles.. though i m quite full.. but their prawn noodles is nice.. though abit ex.. nt worth e money.. 4 bucks.. n nt full de... den went to island creamery for ice cream!! haha.. i had brownie n a bit of mud pie last tym i went there.. n nutella n honey milk tea ice cream.. tis tym i jus eat e mudpie.. haha.. but i think i prefer cookie n cream ice cream than choco.. so i prefer e bottom layer of e mudpie. haha.. after discussion of e party, b4 leaving, i decided to pamper myself again by buying a tub of nutella ice cream home.. haha..

on e way home, along bukit timah road, there was a serious accident involving a car n a silvercab.. both ended up in e middle drain.. quite serious.. n my bus stop at e bus-stop near it.. so i got to look at e wreckage for quite some tym.. many ppl were on e side of e road.. n i saw a guy climbed out from e passenger seat of e cab.. e other car was in a worse condition.. n e middle dividers were crooked.. i think e accident jus took place.. cos ambulances all these haven arrive.. n a man was seated on e ground next to e bus stop.. he seems to b in a daze n ppl were talking to him, i think trying to calm him.. dunno whether he's e driver of which car.. i think e driver of e car may hv prob getting out.. e cab was half in e drain.. i didnt see e wreckage initially cos i was back-facing it.. but my cgl, was facing it.. she saw it n told us.. we 3 gals were like speechless.. as our bus cont to move on, we saw e arrival of e red rihno (dunno sp), ambulance n small fire engine.. it's really scary.. even after our bus moved on.. we still feel e grip of fear.. n we were talking bout how unpredictable life is n how we ought to give thanks for jus being alive.. it's like we will think tt we r still young.. 19 yrs old.. still hv a long way ahead.. tt's wat ppl always tell us.. u hv a bright future or still a long way.. still young, etc.. but there r many instances of ppl our age or younger collapsing and dying the next min.. sometimes, u dun need to b in a car.. u can jus b standing at a bus stop waiting for bus.. i mean.. life is really fragile.. n i can say tt jus by looking at e wreckage, i m a bit shaken.. if i were to witness e accident, it'll b much worse.. hope i dun get nightmare tonight.. accidents r really scary.. there's an unspoken fear in me.. tt i cant describe.. another cg mate was saying.. it's scary.. esp like u will b worried if ur friend is in it or nt.. we dunno when we will come to e end of our life.. we dunno how our life is gng to end.. we may think tt it's still a long way to go.. but we really dunno.. do u noe where u r headed to after death? do u fear death? r u ready to leave tis world anytime? ppl always talk bout living each day as though it's ur last day.. tt's e most ideal thing isnt it.. ppl always ask wat would u do if today is ur last day.. n den cont on w.. y nt do it now? y mus wait till ur last day? n u will nt noe when tt day is.. but we always take a back seat.. take things for granted.. gng thru each day as if we gt plently of days to spend.. n how is it like to live each day as ur last.. i dunno.. i mean like u will wan to apologise to some ppl.. reconcile with some ppl... speak ur mind on smth.. try things u always wanted to try.. pamper urself w some stuff, etc.. i dunno.. but i noe i aint ready to ans to God yet..

tml meeting cy! haha.. asked her along to go w me to Doulos.. ah.. ok.. Doulos is a Christian ship tt goes around e world. ministering.. but it's a v old ship le.. they stopping it end of tis month.. terminating it's service.. hai.. so s'pore is e last port of call.. n e bks on ship n those christian stuff will b selling quite cheap.. i heard cd buy 1 get one free.. i did went on board i think 2 yrs back n bought a bk.. aw.. abit sad.. n a pity.. hope to get some gd stuff tml.. n hope there wun b too big a crowd..
y m i torturing myself? ah! i shld stop re-reading smth.. n i shld jus stop those memories.. move on.. come on.. u no longer belong there.. u shld b focusing on where u r now.. tym dun turn back.. things will nv b like e past..food doesnt help.. the more beautiful e memories r, e more painful it may become....