k.. first an update for those who wanna noe.. went for my eye checkup today.. they removed e protective lense n a stitch.. still hv stitches left.. haha.. they numbed my eye n use a needle to take up.. for once, i m glad tt my right eye cant c.. cos it's already a bit scary to think of how it's done n to c e needle approaching my right eye w my left eye.. haha.. n doc cut down my dosage of eye drops.. n my next appointment is in a month's time.. yea. haha.

ok.. starting my random blogging.. k.. was thinking bout some things these few days.. so ya.. jus some random thots.. may seems emo... haha.. cos i m oso an emo person.. haha..

i dun like ppl to lie to me.. whether on purpose or nt.. jus dun like lies.. prefer ppl to b truthful.. but hard to find ppl who r truthful.. cos ppl will use lies to cover up for things tt they dun wan others to noe.. but i feel tt in relationships w ppl, truthfulness is v impt.. yea.

regrets.. many ppl hv been asking me whether i regretted certain things nt.. i hv been asking myself too.. regret choosing ntu over nus? regret making tt decision? regret blah blah blah.. many things hv happened tis yr.. my life hv changed.. my thinkings hv changed too.. n more things r still to come as i enter uni, stay in hostel etc.. well.. i did regret choosing ntu abit cos of barker.. everyone's in nus.. n i wanna b part of e fun there.. n i told myself.. if my tt decision cause others to suffer, i will regret.. cos it's my own decision.. n others r innocent yet they hv to bear e consequence w me.. it's unfair for em.. but i m telling myself.. many things r nt within my control.. n regretting doesnt help things.. so wat if i really regret? i cant change e way things r now.. so wat i can do is to look ahead.. n live my life to e best now.. make e most out of things.. things do happen for a reason.. so yea.. look ahead.. dun look back.. dun cry over spilt milk..

i hv 2 songs in mind tt i wanna share.. i shall share one first.. it's a song tt i found on youtube last yr.. it's in canto.. though i dun understand, but gt chinese sub.. haha.. n later i found e eng version though it's a bit different.. i like e song alot.. here's e lyrics for e eng version..

Unreserved love
i've always been told, love won't survive
promises will turn into lies
the world just think love comes and passes through,
it never last pure and true
but i still believe love can last
it's Your unfailing love that gives me rest
You were there when i needed You most,
i never walk all alone

on the Cross You died and took away my curse
love so wonderous no one ever could deserve
Your bleeding hand proves Your love unreserved,
You my greatest joy and treasure on the earth
Make my life a fragrant offering, i prayed
help me Lord to serve You truly everyday,
through tears and joy i give You all my best,
let the whole world know your love and grace

chinese version.. (u can tell tt e lyrics is a bit different.. ) sry but e one tt i found r all in traditional chinese.. no simplified ones..
愛是不保留
常聽說世界愛沒長久　　　哪裡會有愛無盡頭
塵俗的愛只在乎曾擁有　　一刻燦爛便要走
而我卻確信愛是恆久　　　碰到了你已無別求
無從解釋不可說明的愛　　千秋過後仍長存不朽
誰人受痛苦被懸掛在木頭　至高的愛盡見於刺穿的手
看血在流反映愛沒保留　　持續不死的愛到萬世不休
惟求奉上生命全歸主所有　要將一切盡獻於我主的手
我已決定今生再沒所求　　惟望得主稱讚已足夠


hai.. indeed everyone love to be loved n wans to be loved.. by friends.. by family.. by people around u.. it's a sweet feeling.. but i noe tt there's a void in each of our hearts.. n a longing for a love.. tt only God can fill.. jus as we were created for HIm n by Him, only He can fill tt void.. sat's outreach did mentioned tis... 'every new high brings excitement, fascination, obsession, n then emptiness.' yup.. there's more to life than wat it seems.. pls surround me with Your love n fill tt void that only You can fill..

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